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Lullabies by Lang Leav

Hi, Tumblr.

It’s been more than a year since I last posted here in this precious outlet of mine. I earned lots of experiences, hardships, and memorable happenings in my adult slash working life. I can say that I was somehow lost, and unmotivated in my first year as a Digital Advertising Associate. But as I was venturing in my field of work, and as I am walking in this journey of being a young professional, I realized that it is absolutely not easy to reach my dream. Honestly, I’m still not convinced and decided if I will pursue this field in the future, as my dream of earning a pair of wings is still in my heart.

Most of us, young adults have this problem of not knowing what to pursue next, when in fact we must already have a plan for our future. That’s why most of us are drowning in pressure and are caged by our own insecurities.

But you know why, it’s really okay if we still don’t know what to do with our lives at 22. We just have to pinpoint what do we really want, what field do we see ourselves happy and successful in the future, and find our innermost passion. Then make a timeline. We won’t be reaching our goals in a blink of an eye. So we need to earn lots of patience, understanding, and confidence. Don’t pay attention to the people who underestimate us, because we only need ourselves to know that we are good enough and strong enough to be where we wanna be, and to become the better version of ourselves. Ofcourse don’t forget to trust the Lord with his plans. As He is constantly reminding us that soon we will understand why this is all happening in our lives. Somehow our experiences are like a maze, a puzzle that will be completed eventually.

I am not really satisfied with where I am now, because this is not my passion. But I am currently a work in progress, and I absolutely believe that I’ll be reaching my dreams one day. So for now let us shower ourselves with positivity and live with a purpose.

#life #goals

Sometimes I feel lost; feeling confused with what's going on with my life, unsure of the path I have started. There are times I feel good; while seeing those tiny pieces of my life's puzzle slowly progressing on the picture of my future. But most of the time I feel blunt; watching the rain pouring with my thoughts, desires, hopes and dreams flooding away through the sea of reality.

Send me your wishes, deep thoughts and unsaid feelings, and I'll deliver it to the other side of the world; where reality doesn't exist, only a dreamland without worries and fears. (at Caliraya Resort Club)

untrustyou

thelovelessprincess

I always wonder what's the best answer to this question. Everyday I spend two hours going to work, spend half a day finishing tasks, and then travel again to get home. At the end of the day I ask myself, "Am I happy? Do I love what I'm doing?" Then I can't answer myself. What I do know is that I feel good because I have something to do rather than be unproductive. I'm happy in a sense that I can now provide my needs and wants without asking help from my parents. I can now earn and help my family somehow. I don't know if I am in the right path, but I trust the Lord. Maybe this is not what I really want at this time but I believe that this is just a stepping stone towards a great future.

It's just hard to adjust from being a student to being a working girl. I am somehow having a hard time being myself towards my workmates. I always miss all of my friends, and I always feel sad not being able to see them everyday. I do have a good relationship with my new colleagues, but still, my heart is not feeling whole. Aside from missing my friends, I also feel lonely. Surrounded by people with their partner, I am being somehow left out. I miss the feeling of being in love.

Am I happy? I can't answer it by saying Yes, neither by saying No. But I am contented with my life. I just want to have it colored with more love.

#life

She forgot how to smile. For a couple of months she's been lost in a world full of uncertainties. She has struggled a lot seeking her fate, searching for ways on how to live. At some point, she has lost hope, trying to accept the fatality of her optimistic mind. Yet she's still holding on to her dream. That's when she realized that life is not always a bowl full of cherries. Time passed by, opportunities came like rain. She grabbed them, trying not to be eaten again by pessimism. As she goes with the flow of life, she brings back her optimistic mind. Finally, she remembers how to smile again.

jedavu

thelovelessprincess

How I wish I have this kind of lovely talent.

Don't tell me you miss me,

'coz you really don't.

Lost in the world of uncertainty, trying to hold on to reality.

I'm slowly in the verge of experiencing the hardships of life. To be out in the real world is a serious deal. The world that I thought would be great, seems so hard to see the way I wanted it to be. Because of my situation in life, it's hard to reach my goal, which is now blurry. Suddenly I was lost, I don't know where to go, what to venture in. I am lost in the world that is full of uncertainties. Luck has also left me, leaving me with high hopes that turns into anxieties whenever failures comes to me. Somehow I feel that no one cares. They're gone with their own journey, leaving me behind their own dreams. I miss my friends, so much. But their time doesn’t involve me in it. Lol drama.

Despite of the gloomy weather and the feelings that bothers my soul, I still have much hope, that everything will be better in the right time. Although I’m still unemployed, I believe that God is just preparing me for a bigger future. I just have to wait, and to trust Him with my life. The Bible is also helping me to remain faithful and to do what is right and what is good. I thank God for my life, for the people who cares for me and for all the things I have right now. As the saying goes, “My life may not be going the way I planned it, but it’s going to be exactly God planned it.” I will definitely find my way out in this world of uncertainty.

#Life #Lost but to be found

jewsquats

repeat after me: i can and i will. i may not get there right away. i may fail multiple or even hundreds of times. but i am going to pick myself back up and eventually get to the point i want to be at in my life.

ghostof

anonymousaneurysm

The hardest period in life is one’s twenties. It’s a shame because you’re your most gorgeous and you’re physically in peak condition. But it’s actually when you’re most insecure and full of self-doubt. When you don’t know what’s going to happen, it’s frightening.

Helen Mirren, Esquire interview (via stupidbeliever)

Realization

As I was watching Forevermore, the break-up scene between Xander and Alex, I realized something. I now know why he never chose me, why he never tried to court me, why he never asked me to be his girlfriend. It's because he doesn't want to hurt me further. He doesn't want me to feel the pain of being his rebound. He doesn't want me to experience a wrong relationship with the guy who doesn't love me the way I love him. I didn't knew all of these before. Maybe it's because of disappointment, because of bitterness and sadness, because I'm just a little girl who doesn't know the meaning of love that time. As years passed by, I saw and learned more about love. I saw how my friends become happier because of its magic. I learned how love make or break you, and I discovered how a relationship looks like. It's a mutual relationship, not the other way around. When only one person has the effort, patience, understanding, and love, then you're in a wrong relationship. Now I realized how important a commitment is. Both parties must be ready, and must have strong trust and love with one another. I'm still a hopeless romantic lady in waiting. But now I know better. I'm just thankful that I didn't experience the pain of being in a wrong relationship. The pain of false hope is enough. Thank you, for hurting me in the past.

onlinecounsellingcollege

One of the best feelings is knowing that you’re wanted. Knowing that someone wants to talk to you, wants to know how you’re doing, or wants to see you. Whether they pick up the phone to send you a quick text, or stop by your house to catch up, someone or something reminded them of you specifically. It just feels really nice to know that you’ve been on someone’s mind and that they care enough to let you know that.

Lessons Learned in Life (via misskatrinarose)

Solitude

Told myself I’ll get some rest after I graduate, that I need to enjoy summer and be with friends and family and just have a good time before I spent sleepless nights again. But here I am, sitting in front of my laptop, thinking of what have I done productive this summer. Then I can’t think of anything. I did not even had a time going to the beach, or out of town, or even having a treat for myself. Now I feel so frustrated and tired of doing nothing. Right, you’re picturing the sad, boring and broke life.

These past few days I have been going out on my own, accomplishing things on my own, and seeking productivity on my own. Sometimes I spent a day just hanging around at house, realizing that I did not do a lot, definitely adding up on my confused, and frustrated emotions. I wanna hang out with my friends, but it seems like they’re busy with their own lives and don’t want any of my company. I wanna ask them out, but they have their own source of entertainment, already have someone to do fun things with. Now I’m starting to seek for jobs, but I still don’t have the urge and the fire within me to send applications. I am searching for friends to do this with, but we are on our own. It’s not about school anymore, we now have different preferences and different paths to take.

I’m fond of these things. It’s just sad to admit the fact that I have always been so lonely.