You're The Light In My Darkest Hours.

Chelsea|Girls>boys|soccer|

[onlyheda]

[them-5am-feels]

"Maybe if I broke your heart you'd at least treat the next person right. I'm just a lesson in your life."

-When they make the same mistakes (via @them-5am-feels)

[them-5am-feels]

"I've only seen this love once before and it always appears in fictional stories."

-how I feel about her (via @them-5am-feels)

[them-5am-feels]

"Do you love her?"

Do I love her? Do I? Really?

No I don’t just love her… I’m in love with her. I worship the ground she walks. I’m intrigued by the way she pronounces words, I could sit there all day listening to her talk and I wouldn’t get bored. I might sit there looking like a douche smiling and seeming so intrigued by her. When we make eye contact I get a feeling inside that ignites something that warms me up and makes me happy. The way she wrapped around me for them two nights I’ve never actually felt more complete in my life. I’ve always been looking for the “one” and she’s my one I just know it. The way I feel about her is something you’d find in fictional stories. She gives me hope in a thousand things… She makes me want to keep trying at life. She give me the reason to carry on even when my depression beats me. I know I don’t always show I love her but honestly I love her more than words could ever describe. I honestly fall in love her all over again everyday. When I’m lost and I have no light to lead me by my own accord she’s the only light that shines the brightest. I’d do anything for her. I would walk the whole earth for her love. I wouldn’t let anyone else win her love because I don’t want to sit and watch her love another women or man. I want to be her forever and honestly I’m going to give her my all because like she stated “you gave Jess a billion chances but you claim to never loved her” it’s easier to give someone who you don’t love another chance cause there actions don’t hurt you. But honestly I want her for the rest of my life so I’m going to put everything I have into me and her even if it kills me. I want us. I want you. I want to wake up beside her each and every morning and I wanna fall asleep beside her. Even on our bad days I’ll still hold you hand through this storm and even in the good days I’ll hold your hand cause simply I like holding your hand I like being with you. So you tell me do I love her?.

-All the words I fail to say to you but feel (via @them-5am-feels)

[them-5am-feels]

"I need you but I'm afraid to admit it"

-Night thoughts (via @them-5am-feels)

[them-5am-feels]

I'm the idiot not you.

I guess I'm still learning with relationships, I'm still learning new wrongs and rights. I'm not perfect and I'm sorry for that. I'm sorry at times I get over protective I'm just afraid of what the world will be like without you bringing colours to my skies. I'm sorry for being jealous I only get like that because I've had people taken away before and I don't want that to happen with you. I'm sorry I can't express how I feel even at the times I really have to... I'm sacred you'll look at me and laugh at how much I love you. I'm afraid that I'm not I'm not good enough at times for you. I'm sorry I've just had bad experiences with everyone I've dated and this is the first one I truly wanted it to last with. I want us. I want you. There's not a day that I don't want that. I just hope we can get back to normal I am willing to put 100% into this. Please don't give up on me I have so much more to offer.