Mama Bear

✌🏻, 💙, 😊

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I got my first acceptance!! I can officially say that regardless of what happens or has happened: I AM GOING TO GRAD SCHOOL. I will be a graduate student. I am so proud of myself. I never thought I would accomplish this goal and now here I am!!

It was for the school that you were either accepted or rejected. No interview so we had to really sell ourselves through our applications and statement of purpose.

I never allow myself to brag and am always humble but this time I want to scream it from the roof tops…I am smart, I CAN do it, and I fucking did it!

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Got another acceptance yesterday! Now I have two schools to consider.

Still waiting for 2 more decisions to come in. I’m hoping to make MY final decision by the beginning of May so I can graduate with knowing my next steps. Crazy stuff.

I only have 5 weeks left of my undergraduate career which seems so surreal considering I’ve been working on it for the last 17 years on and off and truly hardcore for the last 3 years. The culmination of it all is starting to hit me like a ton of bricks. I’m still pinching myself on the daily like is this real!? And in fact, it is…

[themamabearchronicles]

I got my first acceptance!! I can officially say that regardless of what happens or has happened: I AM GOING TO GRAD SCHOOL. I will be a graduate student. I am so proud of myself. I never thought I would accomplish this goal and now here I am!!

It was for the school that you were either accepted or rejected. No interview so we had to really sell ourselves through our applications and statement of purpose.

I never allow myself to brag and am always humble but this time I want to scream it from the roof tops…I am smart, I CAN do it, and I fucking did it!

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I had my interview yesterday for one of the grad schools I applied to. It was long and intense. Over 4 hours long with a group and individual interview. They didn’t hold back, we got super personal really quick. There were so many great applicants that I saw that I felt like the weak link. I felt like I stumbled over my words and babbled on. If they asked me a 2 part question I had to stop and ask them to repeat the 2nd part again for some of the questions. I did admit that I was really nervous. All I know is I answered every question to the best of my ability and made sure to be myself. So in the end it is what it is…

I have another interview on 4/2 then 4/8 for two other schools. Then other one just sends you an admit or reject email. The last school also is an interview process but they’re still processing my application. This entire process is so stressful I feel like I aged 3 years.

Everyone keeps asking me how I would rank each school for my personal choice and I honestly don’t know how to answer them. They’re all my 2nd choice? I was rejected from my first choice and haven’t really imagined myself anywhere else after that experience. I don’t want to get my hopes up if that makes sense.

Anyway..thanks for reading my ramblings. :)

[themamabearchronicles]

I know I haven’t give a huge update yet but one thing I’m happy to share is I’m graduating in May with a double major in Psychology and Sociology and I also minored in child and adolescent development. So I’ve been busy haha.

I’m currently waiting on grad school admission decisions though and it’s been killing me. I’ve already received one rejection which hurt like hell but I knew when I applied what a long shot it was. There are only 60 spots available in this specific program and over 500 people applied. But I’ve applied to 5 other schools so we will see!! 

Xoxo

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I received an interview invite last night from one of the grad schools I applied for!

It’s not till 4/2 but I’m already so excited! Still waiting to hear from the other schools but at least I have this to hold on to.

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Ahhh. I received another interview invite for a different school I applied to. The interview is this Friday!! They didn’t send many specific, just the location, date and told me to be available all day. They send they would send an additional email with further information and instruction. They didn’t give me a whole lot of time to plan or coordinate which is stressing me out since I usually work on Fridays and Charlotte has a doctors appointment that afternoon. I also just hate when things are up in the air and I can’t plan anything.

Luckily I have a great support system who are all willing to jump in and help with the kids. My work can suck it..they are terrible to me anyway lol.

But the point of the post…2nd interview!! Yay!! After getting a rejection from the first school and first choice, my confidence was shot. So I’m glad that I wasn’t totally off base in thinking that I can actually do this!

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Today is Cody’s 8th birthday. So wild to me. He was just born and then I blinked…

Happy birthday to my baby boy, my sonshine, and to one of the reasons I breathe. You make life worth while and so much more fun!

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I know I haven’t give a huge update yet but one thing I’m happy to share is I’m graduating in May with a double major in Psychology and Sociology and I also minored in child and adolescent development. So I’ve been busy haha.

I’m currently waiting on grad school admission decisions though and it’s been killing me. I’ve already received one rejection which hurt like hell but I knew when I applied what a long shot it was. There are only 60 spots available in this specific program and over 500 people applied. But I’ve applied to 5 other schools so we will see!! 

Xoxo

[themamabearchronicles]

I received an interview invite last night from one of the grad schools I applied for!

It’s not till 4/2 but I’m already so excited! Still waiting to hear from the other schools but at least I have this to hold on to.

[themamabearchronicles]

I know I haven’t give a huge update yet but one thing I’m happy to share is I’m graduating in May with a double major in Psychology and Sociology and I also minored in child and adolescent development. So I’ve been busy haha.

I’m currently waiting on grad school admission decisions though and it’s been killing me. I’ve already received one rejection which hurt like hell but I knew when I applied what a long shot it was. There are only 60 spots available in this specific program and over 500 people applied. But I’ve applied to 5 other schools so we will see!! 

Xoxo

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Hi. It’s been forever.

Who’s still around.

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I’m so happy to see so many old and new faces here! I’ve missed this community so much. More or less it was always a safe space for me to write down my thoughts . It’s basically been about 5 years since I’ve really posted anything. So much has happened in that time. I’m hoping to get back into being on here more and connecting with others.

Can’t wait to catch up with you all! <3

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Hi. It’s been forever.

Who’s still around.

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Hello angel. You deserve to feel better and you will in time. Sending you light, love and healing. - ✨

Hello kind person, I know this is from forever ago. I thank you for to sweet message. It wasn’t ignored, I promise. I just rarely log onto this platform anymore. I appreciate your kind words. It was a nice treat to see. 🥰

Happy New Year to you if you see this!

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It’s weird to think this time last year (to the date) I happen to come across some text and pictures that I found highly suspicious in my husbands phone. The next 48 hours were filled with painfully discovering the truth of my husbands 5 year long affair with my best friend of 15 years.

My heart breaks just as bad as it did that day, 365 days ago. The next few days are going to be just as hard as last year. If not harder in a way...

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I always say I’m going to update. But I never do. Probably because I never have the words to write what I’m feeling or thinking. All I know is I feel like I’m falling into a pit of despair. I’m lonely and sad. Nothing brings me joy. Nothing motivates me. I don’t feel like anyone truly cares about me. I haven’t had someone honestly ask me how I’m REALLY doing in months. And when people do ask, it’s more out of a courtesy than really wanting to know so my automatic response is always: I’m okay. Doing okay. Doing what I can to survive. But I’m not okay. I’m barely surviving.

And now it’s September and it’s coming up on a year when my entire life fell apart and I feel so broken because I have no idea what I’m doing. What direction I’m going in. I’m a mess and I just want to disappear.

I don’t want sympathy or people to coddle me. But I want to feel seen. I want to feel important. I just want to feel normal again.

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Documenting that I occasionally dress up nice. It’s been since March that I’ve even put on make-up or dressed up. So here ya go tumblr world.

[hey-kayla]

It’s a good day to have a good day 💟 https://www.instagram.com/p/CDO5KIiFtCyhNH5ItrU8rE3fjUPPAN6JX9nbeU0/?igshid=15mcqbfvl2sfo

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Just look at my beautiful best friend!!! 😍😍

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So what's been going on with the cheater? Left him yet?

We are still legally married if that that’s what you are asking.

Also, I genuinely can’t tell if this ask is out of pure boredom and wanting to be an asshole to me or actual curiosity and concern. So if it’s the latter, you might want to work on your people skills when it comes to asking about such a delicate situation. Thanks.

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24hrs till what??

I’m assuming you’re talking about the post I made a few weeks ago? It was in regards to my birthday. I just had to get through the 24 hours that it was my birthday.

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24 hours. That’s all I need to get through. 24 fucking hours.

That’s all I need to do. I can do this.