The Emptiness Will Haunt You.

Tori Ryan.

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i feel stagnant and empty

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why would you ever want to still be in love with me? how could you ever look at me again? i don’t deserve your time or your love. i’m not worthy of working things out. i fucked up in the worst way possible and for that i am eternally sorry.

how can you see a future with a flight risk?

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i’m simply going to avoid contact like i have been since i left and just let you continue on with your life so i don’t mess anything up again.

that didn’t last long

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“my boyfriend” feels so good to say

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you’re so so gentle with me and you make me feel so important at the same time, got me falling for you fast as fuck. fuck i’ve never been this down bad over someone before.

the awards show drained me so bad, too many creatures and powers in one room it made me so nauseous even the next morning. mental note to see fati today to clear this energy from me because i cant handle this today.

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oh i like you, like actually like you a lot.

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uh oh… i was not fully prepared to deal with this and clearly everyone was right

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fine i’ll update this

if you keep sending in my name we have to kiss, it’s the law. my dms are open.

anyways i want to be soft with someone for 24 hours to get it out of my system but i’m having trouble staying in contact with people.

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fine i’ll update this finally.

i feel detached from people but that’s just the aftermath of me being up and finally crashing.

i keep in contact with bad vibes and i think i should cut them off soon.

my ex boyfriend wants to smash in paris???