is trying enough?

Hello. My name is Amanda. I'm 23 and am pansexual and I have the most wonderful girlfriend. There's just a hole inside and it's growing bigger. I'm just really kind of super fucking sad. I usually use "panda thoughts" to reflect my thoughts and feelings on me, my life and my mental illnesses. Some of my posts may be triggering and I in no way am trying to promote any sort of self harm. I am always here to listen and give support when I can, but if you think you might need it, please get help.

[thegoodvybe]

[anxietyproblem]

[wholeheartedsuggestions]

i messed up again and now i just want to lay on the kitchen floor with my dog

[themiserablepanda]

Yes I love you, I really think I always will. But damn do I want her to want me too. The heart is capable of loving more than one person at a time. I just want to figure these weird new feelings out. Fuck, she makes my heart flutter

[themiserablepanda]

fuck....i thought i was getting better. why does everything hurt?

[sss]

[justcatposts]

This cat in a cone 

(via)

[anxietyproblem]

[gayindead]

ah yes, a cycle my brain repeats every month

[ftcys]

[heavensghost]

Falling - Harry Styles

[everythingfox]

He just woke up

[anxietyproblem]

[niightmareish]

[memeuplift]

[abnormall]

i hate myself. so so much. i hate my personality, i hate my body, i hate my voice, i hate how im lazy, i hate how i cry myself to sleep. i hate the things i say, i hate the things i eat. i hate how i have no ambitions, i hate how i want my life to be better but i dont want to get better. i hate how i want to die, but cant bring myself to do it. i hate myself. i loathe who i am and its not going to change.

[brokenflicker]

"I used to lie in bed at night and cry my eyes out. But lately it's like I'm numb. I want to cry, but unfortunately the tears no longer drop."

— notes from the girl who lost herself

[losing-a-battle-winning-the-war]