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Started as Supernatural, and I've moved to Marvel as well. I follow comics, the movies, and the Netflix glory out there. One-shots, Imagine, and a few fics. Currently, Requests are CLOSED! Feel free to take a look at the GLORIOUS...  Mobile Friendly Masterlist! Or Maybe Buy me a Ko-Fi to support my writing? Help a writer out!

[themissingmarvel]

Had a dream last night Kind Regards got made into a movie and even tho I wasn’t part of it I was so excited.

ALAS!

[themissingmarvel]

I think I have a sequel idea for Kind Regards. No clue if anyone is still engaged enough that it’s worth writing.

[themissingmarvel]

Not likely to post my fics here anymore. I do have updated pieces and a lot of them on AO3.

You can find me here if you’re feeling sparky

[themissingmarvel]

hey I’m back what’d I miss

[smalltownspacebug-deactivated20]

tumblr ain’t what it used to be

[themissingmarvel]

I love Kind Regards!! I just read it all in one go and I think it’s so well written and complex!!! Thank you for posting it 🖤✨

Thank you :) it’s definitely a favorite! I’m glad you liked it!

[reiding-and-writing]

Reblog if you're a fanfic writer and you wanna know what your followers' favorite story of yours is ❤

[sebastians-stan]

Bucky + whatever the fuck he’s doing with his face (Part 2)

[themissingmarvel]

I think it’s time to let the writing go. In truth, it’s been years since I’ve created anything of substance. I don’t like what I create and it doesn’t get seen. It’s not shared. There’s no visibility. But even without that, I feel like there’s nothing else to create.

my dream has always been to write for Marvel, or indie studios. I’ve wanted my writing to be art. But I’m not talented, not in the way someone needs to be to make a life for themselves with it. I’m not that person I once was. I don’t write and i certainly don’t write well.

putting my feelings here is a lot like screaming into the void: no one is going to hear it. Just me. That’s okay, though. I’ve come to the understanding a long time ago that I am not, in any way, special. We all want to be. We all want to stand out and be seen, however that is. The internet is such a weird little place to be surrounded by people and be completely alone designed to keep us isolated. For a long time it was where I wanted to be seen. But I know now im not one of those people.

some of us are special - that’s true. There’s no denying that some of us are these bright, shining lights. But the rest of us are spectators and I always thought I was okay with that. Or that id have my own little crew to spectate with. I’ve given up on that, too.

I’m grateful for the time tumblr did give me, and ao3 where more of my work exists than here. But every day I’m reminded that I don’t stand out. That I’m not important. And that my work just isn’t good enough. I think I’ll be ready soon to shut it all down. It hurts too much to see it. To be here screaming into the void. Old posts viewed occasionally or something liked that I wrote a lifetime ago. I don’t write anymore.

and I don’t sleep cause when I do

all I dream are dreams of you

I wish I could write. I wish it could be loved. I wish someone saw me.

[themissingmarvel]

Merry Chrysler ✨

[themissingmarvel]

Kind Regards Masterlist

For all your Kind Regards needs.

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[Part 11- Finale]

[EPILOGUE]

[themissingmarvel]

🫶 hope youre okay :)

I’m all right! Plugging along! Writing and enjoying my days!! I hope you’re okay :)

[themissingmarvel]

i just finished reading your prisoners fic and i wanted to message you to let you know i really enjoyed it, truly. i went to check your profile after and saw that you decided to leave and stop writing, and i don’t know if you plan on coming back, but i wanted to write this because i thought you should know that reading ‘Kind Regards, Detective’ made my day. i hope your still writing

I do so love hearing that Kind Regards gets love still. I have this fantasy that I get contacted to make Kind Regards into a movie but that’s a little personal fanfic.

thank you so much for saying that, too. KR is one of my favorites and hearing people love that one always hits different. I’d contemplated making the sequel but as we know, the sequel is never as good 😅

[themissingmarvel]

You’re writing is amazing. Please do not give up on this blog. As a supporter of yours I would have to see you give up. I love your writing and look forward to whenever you post! I even have your notifications on!! I can only speak for myself but life has been kicking my ass so I haven’t been reading as much but trust me I am clocking everytime you post so that when I do finally have time I can binge read everything. If you’re feeling burned out and like giving up you should take a break but please don’t give up!

(Aug 7 but getting this now) I think my break is needed. I’m reflecting a lot on a lot. I am likely going to keep the break going until December. I say this because my goal is to do a full NaNoWriMo this year. I’m recovering and feeling better and I want to write an entire ass novel for myself. Not a single other human. I may never even share it, but it feels like a task I kind of need to do right now.

that’s all to say, I may share a meme or two, and if I feel down to write I will, but I don’t suspect I’ll be writing again here until December at the soonest. A lot of my work isn’t really… desired? I guess? I’m aware my writing isn’t very good in the realm of the world, and I’ve isolated myself on my tumblr a lot. But maybe if I’m feeling better I’ll be back, friend.

[themissingmarvel]

I miss you!!

Miss you too, friend. I’m not back, really just popped on to share my nostalgia for 2003 internet fics. I blame that for my feelings of frustration.

But also you’re rad and I miss you, friend.

[themissingmarvel]

back in my day we wrote the most obnoxious and grossly positive reviews for every fic ever even the terrible ones written by a sixteen year old with unlimited internet access in an age where the internet was a fucking chaos nightmare that was left unchecked on dialup.

[themissingmarvel]

Not sure what it is. Not sure if it’s the algorithm, if it’s that I fucking suck so bad, or that no one actually reads anything. I’m not going to be posting anymore. Clearly my fics suck. I say this in truth and comprehension that I’m not good at what I write. And that people don’t read my posts in general. I say this because I’m tired of pouring my heart out and feeling defeated. I’m tired of people saying “do it for yourself” when I can’t even find satisfaction there. So I guess we’re done here. I’m just so tired. I’d delete the blog but after what my ex did, after losing my mother and all her memories, I’m not sure I can delete anything else.

so off I go into the void