Ruby wasn't dumb enough to believe that the fame she had was all because of her tallent. It wasn't. For instance, calling her group B-Komachi had draw a lot of attention than an ameteur idol group simple did not get. Then there was MEM, who had a lot of followers and contacts, making B-Komachi have a solid base for starting that few groups had. And of course, there was Miyako, who was her agent, but between them there were never disputes of interest, because her mother always had in mind what was best of her.
Last but most important, she was Ai's daughter, and even thou very few people knew it, that gave her and advantage of her own. Her beauty, her dances, her whole spirit, it came from her. And of course, the natural talent to lie and decevie everyone, it also came from her.
Thou that wasn't a Hoshino trait only. KAngel did a pretty job either, that was the only thing she could thought when she said that she was excited for the convention, thou there was something in her words that made her feel it wasn't entirely true. She didn't thought anyone else would notice, for everyone else her words surely sounded like truth.
But you would always notice when someone else lies, don't you? How could you not, when your life has been built in lies?
Ruby shook her head, deciding to focus in KAngel words. Saying she loved all of them, those words were probably a lie too, they were the same words she said when she performed, even thou she for sure hated more than one of her fans. Well, what's was the problem in believing a lie once in a while? Specially an I love you one? They were sweet and addictive, made you feel that, even for a brief time, someone cared about you.
"I love you too, KAngel" she typed on the chat.
See? She could lie too. For there was no way she could love someone she didn't know. But KAngel lied and Ruby lied and no one cared because it created a balance where they could feel they were part of something better.
When KAngel weaved goodbye, she waved too. Even thou the streamer could not see her. But for a moment, she pretented that they were two friends that finished talking online. Lies like that were sometimes needed to not despair.
"Sleep well, KAngel" it was the last thing she wrote in the chat.
Then everything became silent.
That was more fun she thought of. MEM had been right, hearing a streamer had lifted her mood. Just a little. At least, it had helped her to pretend she was not alone and had somewhat a friend for a moment.
Now that everything finished, the department felt... empty. No friends, no brother, no mother. Only her and the feeling of loneliness surrounding her, almost suffocating.
Ruby inhaled. It was okay. Everything was okay.
She took her phone and opened Twitter, searching for KAngel's account. Before she could think of it, she followed KAngel. Miyako was probably going to chastise her, because an idol couldn't follow anyone she wanted. But for once she didn't care, if her mother got mad... she would just say that she thought they could make a good collab with the girl. At least that wasn't a lie.
She read KAngel last post, and decided to reply:
"I think I would like not to reeincarnate, one life is more than enough" two actually, but she couldn't go around saying it "As for what I am most excited of... I am really looking forward to the music surprise! Thank you for today's stream!"
Then she looked to the button to send a message. Maybe she could text KAngel, say how much she enjoyed the streamer. Maybe get to know the girl better and consider making a collab together.
That would not do. She had to focus in killing the murderer of Sensei and mama, nothing else mattered. She had no time to make friends.
Thou no one would blame you. After all, everyone left you. You are here, alone, and your friends, your family, is out there having fun. Don't you deserve t have something that's only yours? She could be it..
She had choose this life. This dream. This revenge. These were the consequences. Ruby the idol had a lonely life because the only thing she cared about was becoming famous.
She blocked her phone and tossed it aside, before she could change her mind. Then she lay down on her bed and covered himself with the sheets, she should go to sleep if tomorrow she had to meet that emerging artist.
She hoped she was as half interesting as KAngel was.