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How's it hanging? The name's Theo and I'm currently the counselor of the Natchez cabins. Hit me up.

[itsolliedaniels]

“i did apologize for that before i left.” 

[theoocampbell-blog]

“yeah but you can never go wrong with another apology. maybe i have an apology kink and i’m getting off on this.”

[itsolliedaniels]

“for which incident? the one with your dad or one that you made up recently?”

[theoocampbell-blog]

“the one with my dad, curly fry. although if you keep me waiting i might have to find something else for you to apologize for as well.”

[itsolliedaniels]

“that’s not what i meant. i wasn’t sure if we were okay with one another again.”

[theoocampbell-blog]

“i’ll be okay with you once i get that apology i’ve be oh so patiently waiting for.”

[itsolliedaniels]

“i’m not sure if it’s a good or bad thing. or if i’m over being mad at you or vice versa.”

[theoocampbell-blog]

“rude. it’s obviously a great thing. anyone would be lucky to have me around, i’m an absolute delight.”

[itsolliedaniels]

“it hurts right now. a lot. i doubt i’ll get over it that quickly. i guess i am. i mean, i have you, sometimes.”

[theoocampbell-blog]

“you do have me. you’re stuck with me whether you like it or not.”

[itsolliedaniels]

“yeah, maybe but then what?”

[theoocampbell-blog]

“you’ll adapt. you’ll get used to how things are, even if it still hurts to think about it sometimes. but i know you, oliver. you’re strong and stubborn as hell and i know you can get through this.”

[itsolliedaniels]

[theoocampbell-blog]

“What do you want me to do, Ollie? It seems like no matter what I try, it’s not the right thing. I know you’re still pissed at me for what I did last month and I don’t blame you. I just need you to realize that I’m trying to fix things.”

[itsolliedaniels]

“i get it theo. i’m just mad about a lot of things. i wish everything was different. calmer.”

[theoocampbell-blog]

“Things will get calmer. It’s not going to go back to normal but it’ll get calmer. I promise.”

[theoocampbell-blog]

“I love you too. That’s why I’m trying so hard right now.”

[itsolliedaniels]

“you should have tried hard last month when it actually mattered.”

[theoocampbell-blog]

“What do you want me to do, Ollie? It seems like no matter what I try, it’s not the right thing. I know you’re still pissed at me for what I did last month and I don’t blame you. I just need you to realize that I’m trying to fix things.”

[theoocampbell-blog]

“I- fuck, I’m so sorry, Oliver. I had no idea.”

[itsolliedaniels]

“because you never asked. you just immediately went in with the insults. which usually wouldn’t bug me because you are an asshole most of the time but i fell in love with you and i got over that.”

[theoocampbell-blog]

“I love you too. That's why I'm trying so hard right now.”

[theoocampbell-blog]

“But we did break up over something terrible. You didn’t listen to me, Oliver. You kept pushing me to try to work things out with my dad. That’s not what I want and I need you to understand that. He and I are never going to be close, not like your family is. it’s obviously not over. if it was over then you wouldn’t be talking about it still.”

[itsolliedaniels]

“there are worse things than trying to connect with your parents. i still believe you need to get over that. he’s your father. he’s the last parent that you have! my family isn’t close anymore if my parents are getting divorced! i thought i had this picture perfect family but it’s falling apart and there’s nothing i can do about it. then i have my ex boyfriend making things worse the first time i see him, not asking why i cut my hair but making fun of it. that’s a wonderful feeling.”

[theoocampbell-blog]

“I- fuck, I’m so sorry, Oliver. I had no idea.”

[theoocampbell-blog]

“What did you expect me to do? Just run up and hug you? tell you that i forgive you for what you did and that i want to stay friends? I’m an extremely petty person, Oliver. It’s my greatest talent. you can count on me. i’m here and i’m willing to listen.”

[itsolliedaniels]

“kind of, yes. it’s not like we broke up over something terrible. i’m very aware of that. i should have known better. it doesn’t matter now, theo. it’s over.”

[theoocampbell-blog]

“But we did break up over something terrible. You didn’t listen to me, Oliver. You kept pushing me to try to work things out with my dad. That’s not what I want and I need you to understand that. He and I are never going to be close, not like your family is. it’s obviously not over. if it was over then you wouldn’t be talking about it still.”

[theoocampbell-blog]

“I do care, okay? I care so much about you. I’m just shit at showing it in the ways that I should. Look at my relationship with Aiden. We’ve been best friends for years and I can barely tell him I love him without rolling my eyes. But with you it’s different, okay? I’m working on this because of you. I fucking hate how much of an effect you have on me. I’m a shitty person. I’m probably going to always be at least somewhat of a shitty person but I’m willing to learn how to be less shitty if you give me the chance.”

[itsolliedaniels]

“i know how you are, theo. we dated for a long time before we broke it off earlier this summer. i know that you try but i really needed you to not be an asshole to me when we came here and you did. you started hooking up with guys to make me jealous or something. i don’t know. i needed someone that was close to me and i couldn’t even count on you.”

[theoocampbell-blog]

“What did you expect me to do? Just run up and hug you? tell you that i forgive you for what you did and that i want to stay friends? I’m an extremely petty person, Oliver. It’s my greatest talent. you can count on me. i’m here and i’m willing to listen.”

[theoocampbell-blog]

“I did! Just…way, way deep inside somewhere. i was just too selfish and hurt to realize how shitty i was being. but i realize it now and i’m trying my hardest to show that i care, okay? even if it’s unnatural and kind of uncomfortable for me to do it. but this isn’t about me, it’s about you and making you feel like your feelings are valid or some sappy shit like that.”

[itsolliedaniels]

“there’s so many wrong things in what you just said. you shouldn’t have to try to care. you should care if you have feelings for me.”

[theoocampbell-blog]

“I do care, okay? I care so much about you. I’m just shit at showing it in the ways that I should. Look at my relationship with Aiden. We’ve been best friends for years and I can barely tell him I love him without rolling my eyes. But with you it’s different, okay? I’m working on this because of you. I fucking hate how much of an effect you have on me. I'm a shitty person. I'm probably going to always be at least somewhat of a shitty person but I'm willing to learn how to be less shitty if you give me the chance.”

[theoocampbell-blog]

“Since always. I’m just- shit at showing it. I’m trying to do better.”

[itsolliedaniels]

“you haven’t cared this entire summer.”

[theoocampbell-blog]

“I did! Just…way, way deep inside somewhere. i was just too selfish and hurt to realize how shitty i was being. but i realize it now and i’m trying my hardest to show that i care, okay? even if it’s unnatural and kind of uncomfortable for me to do it. but this isn’t about me, it’s about you and making you feel like your feelings are valid or some sappy shit like that.”

[theoocampbell-blog]

“I know, I know. I just don’t want to see you get hurt.“

[itsolliedaniels]

“really? since when do you care?”

[theoocampbell-blog]

“Since always. I’m just- shit at showing it. I’m trying to do better.”

[theoocampbell-blog]

“You should really be more careful. Are you okay?”

[itsolliedaniels]

“i’ve got it. i’m fine. my legs are too long and i always trip.”

[theoocampbell-blog]

“I know, I know. I just don’t want to see you get hurt."