If I am open, the cycle could end

Collection of Confessions

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Lost control gambling chasing the dragon on a major loss

Then gave in to pleasure and paying the pain of muscle spasms now

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I'm tired of the cycles.

I'm tired of understanding how the brain works and how instinct can just kick in.

I'm aware of the impulse, I need to cut it off.

I want to be in control, not my instinct.

I am going to track when I lose control

Like an opened book