The Pandora System

Diagnosed traumagenic DID system of 11. Sideblog. We follow through Finn's blog. Read Before You Follow / About Us / Blacklist / Help Us Out

[threebabies]

Things no one tells you about Selfharm

• It’s not only the wounds/scars/bruises/scratches you have to hide. You also have to hide the bloodied tissues, the used plasters, the plaster stickers and the thing you harmed yourself with.

• It hurts like hell when you’re in the shower

• It hurts like hell when you move while sleeping

• It hurts like hell when you accidentally hit against an object with the fresh wound

• It hurts like hell when it gets infected

• It itches madly while it’s healing

• It becomes an addiction. It becomes the only thing that helps.

• It will have a huge affect on your job opportunities

• Often, you won’t be prepared for embarassing questions

• On a bad day, you will run out of space

• You have to be careful while harming and after, there’s the possibility of the wound getting infected, making a danger for sepsis

• You constantly think about the damage you’ve done

• You constantly worry about others finding out

Please think of all these things if you want to hurt yourself. Selfharm isn’t beautiful. It isn’t glamourous. It’s very dangerous, it’s addicting. Trust me, you don’t want to start. Please put down your blade, fist or lighter, cut your nails short and get the help you need. You’re loved.

[thesolarsystems]

Hey DID/OSDD Systems!

Do you have an angry/aggressive alter?

I’m here to tell you that that is absolutely okay! You have every right to be angry with what has happened to you. It makes sense for an alter to hold on to anger. It makes sense for an alter to hold on to aggression that you were not able to express.

It’s so important to show your angry/aggressive alters love. It can be scary, and it can be difficult. But they will be so grateful that you showed them love in a world that they thought was so cruel.

- River (a previously aggressive alter, who is still angry sometimes, but very grateful for my system members who have showed me love and acceptance)

[lyricallyus]

HAPPIER - ED SHEERAN

[fuwaprince]

ଘ(੭*ˊᵕˋ)੭ don’t let others make you feel otherwise! no matter what it may be!

[heavenhillgirl]

Shameless 6x12

[madeoflions]

I want this tattooed on me

[hanna-nanna]

A little louder for those in the back.

[lost-lil-kitty]

This THIS THIS THIS.

[slimmersolstice]

This is why people keep quiet about their mental illnesses…and why we need to speak up.

[havsglimt]

[thepandorasystem]

me: today went by so fast

alter: you weren't there for most of it

me: :) today went by so fast :)

[thepandorasystem]

Fellow systems!

Hey lovelies. We haven't been active for a while, but we're gonna attempt to be more from now okay. We'd like to offer advice and be a safe haven for those with did/osdd that need it. We aren't professionals by any means but we spent a solid 6 weeks in a trauma treatment center and are more than happy to share what we've learned from it. I hope everyone reading this is having a lovely day/night!!! xx

[wishersytemlive-blog]

So, alters.

Point of views, are hard. Logical thinking gets twisted.

Things feel wrong, a lot.

But you are not Sick. You are not a “side effect” You are not “less than” You are not “a mistake”

I know what it feels like. I know what it sounds or looks like. I do.

But you need to understand something.

You are here for a reason. You are HERE. You don’t need to justify a thing to anyone.

You don’t.

You are you. Regardless of how different from the reflection you are. Regardless of how or when you formed.

You are here, and you have every right to be.

Being part of a system, means things are going to be pretty difficult. Different.

But you every situation is different.

Yours should not be seen as less than anyone elses.

Cooperation, flexibility, self love, understanding

You deserve all of these things and you will kinda need them.

You are valid for being you. You deserve to be you. You are who YOU want to be.

[fangirlinginleatherboots]

Bootsie Life | #13 | 16.12.09 | Switching

this comic is about dissociative identity disorder as experienced by a traumagenic system - ok 2 rb if you dont have DID

[systematicsystems]

Little moments

Standing in your room wondering “When did I take off my shirt?”

Having a little panic because you’ve misplaced your phone only to find its in a different pocket than usual

Listening to your music on shuffle and hearing a song you don’t remember adding

Misplacing tiny things to the point where you’re in tears frustrated unable to find them

“Who turned the heater/AC up so high?”

“Did I really lock the door?”

“Why am I wearing mismatched socks?”

“Who decided not to wear deodorant today?”

“Who ate all the leftovers?”

The little, annoying, inconvenient things in life

[thepandorasystem]

me: *thinks about dissociating*

me: *starts dissociating*

[snorlax-and-co]

The effects of a dissociative disorder may include:

gaps in your memory

finding yourself in a strange place without knowing how you got there

out-of-body experiences

loss of feeling in parts of your body

distorted views of your body

forgetting important personal information

being unable to recognise your image in a mirror

a sense of detachment from your emotions

the impression of watching a movie of yourself

feelings of being unreal

internal voices and dialogue

feeling detached from the world

forgetting appointments

feeling that a customary environment is unfamiliar

a sense that what is happening is unreal

forgetting a talent or learned skill

a sense that people you know are strangers

a perception of objects changing shape, colour or size

feeling you don’t know who you are

acting like different people, including child-like behaviour

being unsure of the boundaries between yourself and others

feeling like a stranger to yourself

being confused about your sexuality or gender

feeling like there are different people inside you

referring to yourself as ‘we’

being told by others that you have behaved out of character

finding items in your possession that you don’t remember buying or receiving

writing in different handwriting

having knowledge of a subject you don’t recall studying.

[fangirlinginleatherboots]

spread the word that DID (dissociative identity disorder) is a very real disorder and traumagenic systems deserve respect and compassion for their struggles 

ok 2 rb if you dont have DID

[real-did]

just dissociative things~

zoning out on your phone/computer screen for several minutes, unable to read or comprehend text

[fangirlinginleatherboots]

shoutout to people who cant/wont turn in their abusers because

they dont have proof of abuse

abusers were upstanding members of society

their abuse was legal

no one believes them

their abusers are old, dead, disabled, ill, or on their deathbed

their abusers are family members

they cant remember details of abuse

they didnt uncover abuse until later in life

they were abused by organizations

they dont know the names of thier abusers

theyve been threatened into staying quiet

they arent mentally stable enough to endure the investigation

and whatever other reason. people dont have to turn in their abusers for their abuse to be legitimate. so many of us cant prove what happened to us and are only left with the disorders that came with the horror we dealt with growing up.

it makes me sad that im seeing so many trauma survivors feel that they have to justify not taking abusers to court. some of us cant, some of us shouldnt, and some of us wont. please respect all survivors regardless of how they approach legal justice over abuse.

[thesolarsystems]

DID Problems #5

what the hap is fuckening