UTTER NONSENSE

• Devon • • Lived in England for a while •

[theshapeofhershadow]

Tested positive for wanting to pack my bags & travel somewhere far away.

[nycxi]

[thephoenixisrising]

Today I'm feeling really beaten down

[blooooom]

there’s a misconception that grief only happens when we lose people. this is not true. we can grieve circumstances, relationships, missed opportunities. in fact, sometimes when you find yourself plagued with waves of emotion from sadness to melancholy you may be grieving yourself. the version of yourself that you might have been if things had been different, or if only you had said something, or if someone had stood up for you.

[perfectfeelings]

“A sad thing in life is that sometimes you meet someone who means a lot to you only to find out in the end that it was never bound to be and you just have to let go.”

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[thephoenixisrising]

I really hope nobody asks how I'm doing any time soon, because I'm not okay, and if they ask I don't think I'll be able to fake it

[taunis]

things I can’t imagine

someone having a crush on me

someone randomly seeing me and thinking ‘wow s/he’s cute’

someone getting happy because I messaged them first

someone thinking about me, in general

someone wondering how I am

someone finding me attractive

someone doing something to try and impress me

someone asking their friend on what to say to me 

someone wanting to get to know me

[sojuandhenny]

It’s not about the kissing, holding hands, the dates, the sex, and showing off. It’s about being with someone who makes you happy in a way that no one else can. It’s about being with someone who accepts you and your weirdness. It’s about being yourself around them and they can be their self around you.

[chaampagnemamii]

"ur so funny" thanks i cant wait to cry tonight

[baadviibesss]

I wish breakfast dates and road trips to nowhere were more of a thing.

[thephoenixisrising]

This past week has been a rollercoaster, and I'd like to get off now

[thephoenixisrising]

Why do porn blogs get off on sadness.

[inkskinned]

but you see her on instagram and it was never really said that you guys aren’t friends but one day she stopped answering and you stopped texting and it’s not like the wound is a cavern but it is a diagram of what if in red letters. you want to tell her nice lipstick that’s a good color but the last time you spoke it was stilted and awkward 

how do you say goodbye, you know? it’s not an unfriend and block kind of situation. but you watch the people you once loved go on and have a life and you’re outside of it. and it’s bittersweet because of course it’s okay that you’re both thriving. but she used to be who you’d call if you needed to cry. she used to be who’d you’d be binge watching the new series with. you used to be hers, in a way, even if that way wasn’t permanent. and now she’s someone else and so are you and your friendship is clicking heart shapes next to pictures where she smiles next to people you’ve never met. you know where her birthmark is. she knows where you’ve buried your dead.

the poets and the singers and the authors write about romantic love when it ends. but nobody tells you how to get over a friend.

[thephoenixisrising]

Today is one of those days where I don't feel good enough, and like I'll never find somebody that actually wants to be with me.

[steveyockey]

hey. got my second shot today. made me think about how I never got a second shot with you. text me back if you get a chance

[thephoenixisrising]

Depending on the cost, I could have knee surgery within the next two months. A lot more needs to be done than originally thought, but it's a solution finally

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