My name is Ece Uzundemir. I am a senior COMD student at Bilkent University. I will do video art as my senior year project. For my project, my Milestone#1 was to decide at least 15 ideas that may work well in my video content. These are the primitive ideas that I have and they will certainly get evolve in time. For expressing my psychological situation I come up with ideas that represent the feelings that I have in certain extents. Social anxiety can simply be explained as anxiety that people feel in the crowd. In my project, I want to tell people this is not that simple situation that one can have. People are underestimating and this makes me feel bad about my situation besides the feelings that I already have. For my Milestone#1, I listed the feelings that I have in situations like; speaking in front of a crowd, passing through a crowd or simply making eye contact with somebody in the crowd. My situation is about the person itself. I wanted to express myself truly to that crowd in terms of getting more understanding from them and also, I want to overcome my situation. After listed my feelings I started to think about how I can express these feelings in a different and is not a literal way. Or I will show one almost literal and one abstract visual to make balance. I will destroy them in editing and make them more aesthetic and dynamic. I will use the ideas listed below.
Visuals that I will shoot by myself;
1- Ants as complex thoughts and feelings (Speeded up)
2- Glass Breaking represents my feeling in the crowds.
3- A person wrapped in a stretch film as I feel trapped.
4- A person trying to talk but her mouth cannot open again feeling trapped.
5- A piano that taped represents not functioning properly even if I can be able to.
6- The hairs in a sink represents the feeling myself like trash when I cannot function well.
7-Heated Resistance as my physical reaction to my psychological situation.
8-An actual heart (25th frame) I want to show the literal heart to people realize the reality of my situation.
9- Slugs eating or hanging around this is the visuals that I feel the thoughts that people thinking about me.
10- A person constantly hits herself to the wall and cannot pass, fells down. As the situation that I cannot overcome yet.
11- A monologue that interrupts the video (we will see only the mouth part) this is me or anybody poetically talking about herself and represents her actual feelings. This part will be me and my audience speaks face to face without making eye contact.Â
Visuals that I will use extra programs to make;
12- A person animation which is red-colored in the black colored crowds(people), that person turns black as well after she finds a place to stay alone. (after effects) this visual representation that I am not different from anybody else yet I am different in a certain way. If I can be able to overcome my situation I can show my true self to others.
Visuals that I maybe use stock video;
13- Cameras that are replicated so many times. This represents the feeling that every move I made is watching from somebody else.Â
14- Different abstract light transitions will add dynamism to the video and represents the different feeling that I feel in a second in some circumstances.
15- Eyes that belong to different species this is more like I feel alienated from others when they are looked at me.Â