The Purple Thing

- A weird blog

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I wish people missed me

I spend a lot of time thinking about friends and people but none of them tell me they miss me

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Current Times

Recently I've been wanting to smoke again, I'm starting to get over a rough patch of anxiety which I've never struggled with before and I've been horny as fuck while trying to navigate building our old relationship back up. Friends have dropped out and work's becoming tedious.

I just want to write again, be outsite, relax and watch a girl or two get undressed.

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Isn't it crazy that in this world you had be so upbeat when talking to someone and yet you're rotting inside. Puts a real perspective on life

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I think this is the lowest I've been, back to back breakdowns, I dont feel like I can really talk to anyone. As much as I wanna reach out and scream I dont wanna burden anyone with how I am.

Hey Tumblr, I'm a fucking mess.

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So I feel like shit

And yet I just had the best weekend of my life

Roulette tables everywhere.

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At the moment, I feel pretty shit

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I'm getting to that deadly point of worrying again. Even though we're properly together, even though we've spoken about our future together, even though she's said this is, for her, the rest of her life, I'm still sat here worrying.

I know it's probably nothing and that everything will be fine. That we will talk through and get through everything, that she does always tell the truth. But I'm so scared of loosing her

She's the best thing that's ever happened to me but I just can't stop overthinking amd chewing myself up.

God I love her.

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Don’t know why I worried, I’m still the king

had the best weekend

love, drugs and family

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And just like that, a slight lack of talk and emojis and I'm over thinking everything. Pulling all sorts of reasons why I might me dumbed.

Occassionally it'll take me a while to cum, and that seems to be a pretty bad thing.

I'm scared we'll break up after bearly even a month.

I've smoked, I've drank and I've prayed.

I just want this to be the one

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Still happy.

just need work work out how to do other things in life now, weight gain here we come!

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It's late and I dont have anyone to vent too. So Tumblr, the empty sea that you are, here's some things.

This is going to make me sound like such a broken fucking record but I've fallen yet another layer down.

She's not really into soppyness because it makes her feel awkward cus she's really not confitent but I like to tease her about it.

So tonight she gives her typical 🤢 response to a soppy text but then asks for another. She then goes on to say she's in a needy mood but cant invite me over midweek again so soppyness is what she'll have to deal with.

And then she says she's excited to see me in a couple days.

Words really just can't describe what I feel for her but it really gets my emotions going.

All I want to do is drive over and hold her and cuddle up next to her in bed.

She's fucking mind blowing and I am so happy.

If anything I'm coming up hard of life and all it's romantic beauty.

I'm buzzing

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So I’ve promised we’ll get a pug if we’re together in 3 years

worth the pain of a pug I think

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Just a quick update from this side of the divide.

I'm still the happiest person alive <3

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We're offically in a relationship.

I'm the happiest guy alive

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It's raining.

I'm worried now that no matter what, it'll all just crash and burn. I thought I'd fallen before all those weeks ago, but now, the the fresh morning dew of a glimpse of hope, I realise I've truely fallen harder than I have before.

All thoughts lead in that direction and everything I'm worried about in ranged in on her. I've never met someone who is so flawlessly attractive to me, there are minor things yes, but there would be with anything, with anyone.

I find myself happiest in her company and always longing for another day with her, another hour of chatting and smiling.

Yes there's hope, yes, we've done a 180 from only friends to lets see where it goes. Even if I seem to be doing really well I'm just oh so worried that Lady Fate will come along and flip it around all over again.

How do you balance trying to be flirty and romantic with not pushing things and being soppy? How can I ever be happy with myself if I dont last as long as anyone else has before?

How do I survive being crushed yet again?

It's raining.

Help me.

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Life has the potention to be so beautiful.

I can't believe I ever had the urge to end it.

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So I've been told I can stay and cook dinner, I'm so fucking nervous it's unreal. Like, if tonight goes well we can hopefully really stay moving forward again.

I've gone from so happy, to an absolute rotting pit but things are starting to look just a little bit better. If I can turn this around and right my wrongs I could well end up in the happiest place I've been so far.

Grainy white bliss.

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Not only did it go pretty well, when I left we kissed a couple times.

I am the man that sold the world.