Tracy Stewart

I'm a love Dream. I'm not a fragile body anymore...or at least I'm trying not be.

[fearfromthedarkflame]

Parrish chuckled and pecked his lips. "Tray, there is no need to worry. I like you. I want you to be my boyfriend, and you like me, and you want me to be your boyfriend. I think that's all that should matter for now, right?" He asked him. "If Ceberus wants to be part of it, well...I guess I get to have two loving boyfriends who will protect you and care for you."

[therealtracy]

Everything Parrish said just hit his worries over and over again, especially the little nickname. He actually liked that. It was cute and adorable. "That's still a weird thing to do out of the bat, but you are right. This is about you and me and I like what you and me have already."

[fearfromthedarkflame]

Parrish actually gave it some thought. Would they be able to influence? He would have to ask Ronan or Halwyn about that. "I don't think so? If they did, it would be in my subconscious. I do believe I like you a lot, and Ceberus has nothing to do with that."

[therealtracy]

"Hm...I wonder if he does. Would he had taken over if he didn't? I'm sorry I'm being so weird. It is just...now I feel like I have two boyfriends." Tracy laughed. "How can I even explain that?"

[fearfromthedarkflame]

"Yeah, I'll remember that." He said and kissed his cheek. "Would that be too weird for you?" He asked him, suddenly worried that Tracy could reject him, especially when they just confessed their feelings to each other and became boyfriends.

[therealtracy]

The kiss did make feel better. However, he was still honest with him. "I wouldn't say weird. More like something I may just have to get used to? I guess I just have more questions than anything. Like does he/she influence your thoughts and stuff like that."

[therealtracy]

[fearfromthedarkflame]

Now it was Parrish's turn to blink. He took his question seriously, "I...I never thought of that. Would it be really like dating two people?" He asked him.

[therealtracy]

Tracy didn't know how to answer that. "You said you know other hellhounds right? Maybe they can answer that for you....but it does sound like it? You said it yourself, you will be sharing a body..."

[fearfromthedarkflame]

"Yes, that way they don't take over unless I let them, and they also let me lend their powers. We will share my body, and we will be able to communicate better." Parrish said.

[therealtracy]

Tracy blinked a few times. That was a lot of information to process. Maybe that was why his respond was a joke. "So I would be dating two people?"

[fearfromthedarkflame]

"Both...I think both." Parrish said, "Once I have an agreement with my other self, I should be fine. I'm in the process of doing that." He told him.

[therealtracy]

"Agreement?" He didn't know what he meant by that, but it sounded like a good thing and something that would help them both in the future.

[therealtracy]

[fearfromthedarkflame]

"No, I don't think so. In fact...they loved it." Parrish said as he played back what they had said. "According to who I have spoken to, once I get control, it won't happen like that anymore unless I let it."

[therealtracy]

"So you are afraid that you just won't trust if you will do something good or bad?" He asked as he was trying to understand his problems. "Or is it just having agency?"

[fearfromthedarkflame]

"Just...want to see your bulge." He laughed. It was so stupid, but still he wanted to see it. The laughter didn't last, of course. "Because I don't remember it. The other person does."

[therealtracy]

Tracy would have been as red as a tomato because of what he said, but he couldn't. Not when it was obvious this wounded Parrish. It worried him more for him than for himself. "Did you hurt them?"

[fearfromthedarkflame]

"Which you are ot now." Parrish pouted. They were beautiful trousers, however. "I'm not sure. I just know I'm not totally myself." Parrish said. "So I need to get that resolved first."

[therealtracy]

"Why are you pouting?" Tracy asked because he was not sure how the lack of jeans would make him pout. "How do you know that has happened?"

[lightmomo]

Momo: I guess I'll talk to you with an update soon.

[therealtracy]

Tracy: I would love that.

[fearfromthedarkflame]

"Boners hurt you?" He chuckled, but it didn't last long as he tried to take this seriously. "I'm not the most in control during sex. Sometimes I just act on my own, and I want to avoid that when we get physical." He explained.

[therealtracy]

"No- I mean... when I'm wearing jeans yeah." Tracy said rathe a little nervously. However, he focused on what Parrish was saying. "Does..is it as if the other you takes over?" Was it similar to when he was the kanima? When he was not aware of his own actions?

[fearfromthedarkflame]

Parrish laughed before leaning in to kiss him. "And so are you, but there is no rush really. I also have to make sure that there is no way I can hurt you when we do it, too."

[therealtracy]

"No way you can hurt me?" He knew he had mention something about that in passing. "There is no way you can hurt me....other than trying not to give be boners."

[fearfromthedarkflame]

Parrish smiled. He was very happy to hear that he wanted to have sex with him, that he was turning him on. All of those things were quite positive. "Well...then what would be important to you in our relationship? I like sex. I won't lie, but it is not what I care about most. It is not what makes me want to be your boyfriend. After all...today was the first time we kissed, properly that is." It was true. They had been taking it slow, very slow. He didn't mind, partly because he didn't want to hurt Tracy.

[therealtracy]

How Parrish not be a better man? If they break up, he did not think he would find a better man. Parrish was just so perfect. He could see himself falling in love soon if he kept this up. "I think I'll get there...I do...I like you so much and you are...so-so-so hot."

[lightmomo]

Momo: That we can't be open like that.

[therealtracy]

Tracy: Is fine.

[lightmomo]

Momo: I'm sorry.

[therealtracy]

Tracy: Why are you sorry?