Mediocre At Best

"As I watch the seaons change, with the death and rebirth of the leaves and trees, I realise that we are nothing but ghosts that aren't ready to die, and that's why I dont sleep at night."

[contingxnt]

😇 New thing came today 😇

!!!! Yo this is what happens when you buy things off my wishlist! You get the content you guys keep asking for !!!

[contingxnt]

I’m still not good at this yet

[thereisnolightattheend]

I haven't felt like me in forever, but tonight, I saw my childhood best friend, the one who was with me through everything for the first time in almost 2 years, and I'm honestly the happiest I've been since I can remember, and I've never been more thankful for this smile I can't get rid of. Let this positivity continue to course through my veins!!

[thereisnolightattheend]

What is it about me that makes everyone hate me in the end When did it all go wrong?

[thereisnolightattheend]

It's another one of those days today where I feel like murdering everyone and I can't cope with the noise in my head

[thereisnolightattheend]

So you left with nothing more than a reason you kept silent, and my mind would riot stuck in self-perpetuated mental violence and dreams kept private. The ambition to fix this wish list of selfish, misfit, realist missions, contained within a vision of wishful thinking and sinking deep into a new bit of misproportioned emotions, leaking through a seeping truth constructed by my need to feel important when you would look back and think of all the little things that you regret. I just wanted you to think of me when you think back to all those little things that you regret.

Hotel Books

[thereisnolightattheend]

Why can’t I let ghosts be ghosts, and why can’t I get them to stop haunting me

[thereisnolightattheend]

Tonight I realised how much of a fucking cock I have been in the past, but also how much has changed in such a short space of time. I’m also incredibly grateful for the opportunity and talents OI have been graced with and will not take any of it for granted. Kind words will forever resonate through my bones, and I will always remember to be humble.

[lvcidrabbit]

I think the saddest people always try their hardest to make people happy because they know what it’s like to feel absolutely worthless and they don’t want anyone else to feel like that.

Robin Williams  (via sneen)

[secretritual-blog]

Can you sleep anymore? Knowing she’s creeping around every corner Your bones ache with paranoia The insomnia seems to keep you warm

zoë perez, excerpt from “Sleep” (via secretritual)

[thereisnolightattheend]

All I want to do right now is sit in a dimly lit room, listen to ambient music that makes me question my existence and write sad poetry But alas, I have to actually do something with my shitty life

[thereisnolightattheend]

Today it feels like everything is against me and I just want to sleep and not feel anything 😊

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Having a serious "I wanna shoot myself" kinda day today

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Sick of screwing up all the fucking time

[thereisnolightattheend]

Everything is too overwhelming right now and I can't deal with it I just want to get on with my life and do the shit I want to do and have the career I want but I'm too fucking stupid to even do that

[secretritual-blog]

There is salt water in these lungs There is an open wound in my throat But not even a violent tide can carry these heavy eyes

Zoë Perez, Shipwrecks in the Brain (via secretritual)

[thereisnolightattheend]

I know that life is getting better, cos I still wanna shoot myself, just a little less than before