Its almost 11pm and I can’t sleep
So here goes it/ the text message I would send to you if I knew who you is. I been down for so long, probably gave you the worst part of me straight, I understand you left but I hate that you gone, I be going thru pictures of 2016 and cry, there’s sometimes when I laugh cause then I thin of times of catching you at the weeknd social in braam and left right after cause I aint want you seeing me like that, that north weed had me real gone. I was young and dumb without a care in the world except getting this degree and providing pizza and wine whenever you came to vibe. Wish I thought of bettering myself before you decided you done. Not let the fear help me play it safe, girl you know that hit when I saw dude’s name on your hand i know its been a year and 11 months since our autopsy was served. I was still making plans for this new love that I found problems, we was just homies, and was so good at that, on the other you didnt seem about me after we had spoke and we laughed, even share a few truths, I think I feel deeper with every sentenced you closed. I just wish that I knew with every you that I meet, future wife are you actually real or am I sick....