Warm Nights On The Moon

Take a trip up to the moon and feel how warm it is , Stay a while, so you can see exactly why the Rose bled...

[therosethatbled]

Dancing Shadows

I take my first step onto the hard surface, darkness surrounds the area with flashes of color illuminating the awaiting audience. Anxiously cracking a smile on my face, the cold feel of the metal bars brushes against my skin making it rise, music blaring and the bass booming to the rhythm of the music as sweat forms all over I begin to move throughout the cage. Swinging, turning, hanging, spinning, listening to the cheering, whooping and hollering slowly making my way down the buttons of my shirt feeling free. Feeling the comfort of home as lively as can be,I glance over to the cage across the room and notice I’m not the only slave to the rhythm, all thoughts and sorrows are but a distant memory in this moment. I feel no pain, no disappointment, no sadness, it’s just me, the music.....and my cage.

[therosethatbled]

The Angel that looks down

Tears stream down my face as I’m pulled away from Death’s grasp, not being in control of my own body and mind, I feel crazy and i feel alone without my sould with me as i look at myself at how much of a failure am. Feeling fallen from such a low height and yet hurting myself significantly, breaking as if I didn’t matter, acting of loneliness and sorrow drive my emotions, all of it stopped with Love and attention, the two clash at my feet not knowing which to follow, to be at peace without a struggle any longer as the route i would take would seem the straighter one or the road I’ve continued on for years filled with challenges, heart break, sorrow, deception and anguish? I close my eyes and have a sense of being carried away to the path i know will matter the most...Thank You.

[therosethatbled]

Out of the Shadows

Slow movement feels like neck-breaking, as fast as sound, as fast as light, catching a glimpse of what could be. Thoughts not being completely my own, the sense of emptiness and disappointment cloud my mind. My body acting on its own accord as if giving it all up, as I step forward onto the cold steel I feel the rushing brisk air blast by as the speeding train continuously slaps me in the face with the breaking of the air I realize a force pulling me, slowing time to a dead stop, it’s like I came out of my body to stop myself from proceeding what could’ve been. Out of the complete darkness a hand emerges not only grabbing the clothes on my body to stop me, but my soul....

[therosethatbled]

I love walking down the fear-filled streets

Filled with Batmans, Supermans and ghosts made from sheets

The mystery and wonder of what’s lurking around the corner

Feeling goosebumps go down my spine looking all around

Walking up to houses trick or treating is the only time it feels warmer

Streets with shrieks, yells, laughter and scares are my favorite sound

Seems like the times have changed and to me the magic is gone

But my memories and these feelings are what I want to pass on

The rush of looking over my shoulder and feeling icy chills

The on going celebration of this holiday with fun and thrills

Don’t be too sad now that it’s all over

The best time of the year, the month of October.

[therosethatbled]

Tears stream down as I’m pulled away from Death’s grasp, not being in control of my own body and mind. Feeling fallen from such a low height and yet hurting myself significantly as if from soaring heights like I didn’t matter. Acting of loneliness and sorrow, stopping by love and attention, the two clash at my feet not knowing which to follow as I close my eyes and get pulled back by reality one not of my own....thank you.

[therosethatbled]

Slow movement feels so still as if time stopped, as if my heart stopped beating not of its own accord, like the world stopped spinning is how great the force felt, yet it all felt so neck breaking. The speed, faster than sound, faster than light, as if catching a glimpse of what could be. Thoughts not completely coming out of my consciousness, the sense of emptiness and disappointment cloud my mind. My body acts slave to my deepest feelings rather than rational thought, giving it all up and stepping onto the cold hard steel of what once was destiny. I feel the sudden rush at that moment of the brisk air blast by me as the speeding train continuously rubs my face and tussles my hair vigorously. I have been pulled away with a force I’ve never felt before, that, that is when time stopped. As if my soul snapped out of the situation and stands behind me saving me from myself, out of the complete darkness in the dead of night his hand emerges and grabs not only my jacket.... but my life.

[therosethatbled]

The sun shines its brightest today, it gives the world a hug with its warmth today, the wind blows ever so softly, gently, waltzing with everyone’s clothes and playing with hair as it passes by. Visibly, the love travels in the air continuing to dance to the beat of life’s song and the sweet notes being produced by violin in the orchestra of the heart pleasing the clouds in the sky. The words being spoken expressing adoration, cherish, enjoyment, joining and alike. Speaking of truths that bond one another in a space of honesty, trust, emotion and stability. To know loneliness no longer and sleep soundly with the knowledge that someone is by your side always and forever. Heartbeats could be heard as loud as the beats of a drum, blood and adrenaline flowing faster and faster as the moment approaches. The sun’s rays shine off the uniform’s buttons, medals and awards all polished to a bright shine along with his black shoes and gold belt buckle. Never has he stood taller or prouder than this approaching moment holding the hands of fate as well as his forever after, looking into the eyes of the future as well as his past, tearing up, as her eyes glow brighter and more exuberant than the sun itself, she smiles adding flare to her shine in the luminous aura of her happiness. Voice quaking as if the earth was shaking, tears forming to follow more showing, his best smile she’s ever seen mirroring his image thinking it was all a dream.as the sun begins to set the rings emerge from safekeeping each befitting their style and mystery. Warm to the touchy they come to the moment of truth, the moment they’ve been longing for, she stands y’all feeling like a giant although she has to look up at him, with the feeling of being among the stars, her dress flows carelessly in the breeze, all crisp and white, beautifully complementing her light brown complexion, eyes wide with rosy cheeks, knees shaking, heart pounding, there was no other moment more perfect. Doves flew and flowers bloomed symbolizingthe words....”I do”

[therosethatbled]

It’s amazing how close we’ve become, it’s amazing to see you there, feel you there. The sounds you make when you fall with me. Breaking the silence with your loud cackling screams and yells as there’s a thunderous storm outside.i feel your warm embrace as tight as a hug from a new shirt, as warm a feeling as the morning sun’s rays gently overwhelming your body. These are the best days, well they can be. On the other hand, sometimes you try to show me the reality of the world by having a cold presence and not just an icy stare. I feel the freezing sensation on my skin, my hair and clothes. Wrapping me as if bundled up in a wet cold towel with the windows open at the end of fall with a cold breeze coming in after a hot shower being incapable drying off, this feeling is very unpleasant, it is the feeling of mourning, of death, of sorrow followed by dark days and gray clouds. But it’s alright as I’ve grown to love the feeling it a cold chill and am always welcoming towards you! Wether I get that snuggly hug or just the cold hand on my bare skin, you are my best friend. I can’t count the number of times I’ve fallen asleep to the putter pattern of your voice bouncing and echoing off walls and windows or how about the times when you playfully tap my shoulders and the top of my head? I’ve never known such friendship such as this before, you’re not physically always around but when you are you know exactly how to set the mood to match how I feel. I know the world isn’t your friend and a lot of people find you annoying but your very presence is what the world needs more of, also another thing you know as long as I’ve known you I’ve never looked into your eyes? But I’ve watched you cry many many times and I’ve even cried with you, I’ve felt your tears as you’ve felt mine. Most people cry in the darkness but you show yourself and emotions during the day helping me, and others, muster up the courage to be the same way. I love you and thank you for growing with me or rather should I say helping things grow? I really it starts to rain more often...

[therosethatbled]

That Night

I will never forget the astonishment I felt after looking into forever. The quiet and yet busy night, feeling the wind caress my face with the warm brush of each of the gust’s fingers frolicking around it and dancing with my hair. Never have I felt so alone and yet so sought after, being flooded with company along with nothing but my thoughts and wishes in the vast open sky above me leading towards the heavens. I failed to see anyone around or in sight, but the glistening, twinkling, blinking eyes in the darkness made me feel like the world could see me drop that immeasurable feeling of loneliness. Watching the clouds rolling along on that pitch black canvas grew my state of mind into peace, so much that I wasn’t only weightless, I merged with the wind and became one leaving the sand below me the soft cold sand having only footsteps left of my past existence and becoming the force that held up everyone’s world.being mesmerized by the warm, flickering,frolicking and dancing touch that was like an unspoken secret love that soon turned from touching to holding. A sharp, bitter, icy kiss catches my attention and pulls me out of my trance and Rose my skin from its normal state with hairs standing on end and goosebumps surrounding my whole body. Lovingly cracking a smile whilst gazing into the never ending abyss that has become the fusing of sky and ocean, no beginning or end to tell of. The glimmering reflection of the sky’s millions of winking, twinkling. eyes makes me feel no fear but a sense safety and wonder growing by the minute, as if reminiscing with the moon all those nights illuminating my path evading the lead to pure darkness so I won’t be afraid as well as concealing my sorrow by hiding my tears from showing so the world won’t see or hear me. With every phase of the passing moon had it’s like we watched each other grow, I listen to the rolling, crashing call of the waves, with its soothing voice it draws me closer and closer, with an almost lifting motion, like a trio of sirens luring ships in to their doom in the cimmerian shade that is the night. Suddenly feeling the piercing, cold, sharp bite of the ocean water with a numbing nibbling sensation growing into a dull pain up my legs ever so slowly. The rush of feeling the tides bring as if attempting to cradle my body in its midst, the feeling of the ocean spray as it feels like an invitation into an illimitable, unbounded, deep plunge into the unknown. Penetrating a different realm where the water is no longer an ocean, but a plain of thought and non existence, my body takes the needles’ stinging, acrimonious short lived pain while it adjusts and adapts to its feeling as a sign of compliance to the manifestation that has become this body of life where anything is possible. Springing out from the depths of twilight, I fill my lungs with a deep breath not knowing how long My breath was held beneath the exteriority, I laugh the vivaciously, cheerfully, wholeheartedly before realizing my true loneliness on the inside. This whole time only talking to, conversing, confiding and sharing my deepest thoughts about my feelings in life along with my secret desires to both a pale, motionless, unresponsive, thoughtless bal.....beautiful, illuminating, immaculate, vibrantly gleaming face and millions upon millions of of eyes that can’t hear me leaving me wishing they could to feel what I feel to see as I see. Yet if they could, what would they say?