Nov 6, 2020
I think one of my biggest worries is that I've gone far enough to research how I'd like to end my life, and where I'd source what I need.
The second is that my real father killed himself three years ago (good riddance he tried to set me on fire when I was 5) and so I know I probably have it in me.
The other thing that bothers me is that I don't really know any friends in real life, and I probably wouldn't be found for a couple of days. Nobody really comes knocking unless it's a delivery.
Anyway I just wanted to write that out.
I feel maybe in some way it will help, idk.
