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today hasn’t been a good day mentally but I painted this

got the idea when i forced myself outside for a tiny bit of fresh air

edit: full piece below the cut

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I found out I got myself pregnant by my Fubu on my daughter’s 13th birthday, just days after he posted pictures of his vacation with his girlfriend. The only afterthought was to have it removed. I was not ready for another one. I had plans that had to happen this year and a baby would be a hindrance to many a things.

Yes, I used contraception (I missed a pill and this happened), when I told him there was a creature inside me, I also told him I didn’t want to keep it. I scoured the internet for how much I would be and he said to just have it sent to his house and he’d pay for it.

It just so happens that I got the COVID and when the medicines arrived I was in quarantine. When he got the medicine he changed his mind. He wanted to keep the thing. I still didn’t. It was as if he was holding “the cure” as a hostage and he won’t give it to me. I was in quarantine and I was getting depressed. The earlier I get the medicine, the better the chances of getting rid of it. He won’t budge. Time was ticking away. I was blaming myself for not taking the pill religiously, but missing the pill was a thing that usually happens and i would just take all the missed doses and continue with the whole pad, it has always worked. Except this time.

He begged for me to keep it. And I told him of the many complications doing so would bring about in our lives. The many changes that had to happen. The many many things that will happen. The many many many things I didn’t need in my life. He promised he’d give me everything I needed, that he would do this and that, you know, usual guy BS. I knew he didn’t want to have the thing go through what he did with his dad abandoning him, but the words all seemed BS to me. He had a girlfriend. I he was just a guy I could ride when I wanted to. Everything he said, even pre-baby, had no bearing whatsoever. So, I gave him a deadline. A deadline to which he didn’t know the date. A deadline for when if he hasn’t fixed the shit on his side, I would fix the thing. Take the medicine and have it taken out of me. So we could go back to usual and forget about it. As it is guy BS, he’d probably not make it to the deadline. I didn’t speak to him or communicate with him because I knew he was bound to fail.

Unfortunately, he did what he said. Days before the deadline. He told his family and told his girlfriend. And I am really drowsy and I shall continue this later.

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#jejs #wilderthoughts

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ALL TOO WELL OVER THE YEARS

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All Too Well: The Short Film

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I broke my heart today because I thought of you and me. And though I’ve told myself that to love you meant to love you distantly.

I saw as both parading to our friends with hands held tight. Us, both laughing and endearing and together in our hearts.

We went home to our apartment. We had fun with the moon’s light. We went upstairs, knocked on doors and kissed our kids good night.

We went into our room and took our baths and went to bed, where we cuddled and we snuggled and you kissed me “Good night, I’m happy we wed.”

And all this is but a dream but they are based on what you’ve said. All the things you say as a joke, which I hang on to instead.

Oh, I know this will go nowhere, but hey, a girl can dream. We did have those many nights together where stupid was all it will ever mean.

But after those many non-mistakes ago, I prayed for you to be mine in churches in the early morn. Remember when we were in bed and I said I just HAD TO leave. I made a vow to ask for you, that you I should receive.

I feel half-crazy. I feel confused. But seeing you makes me happy but it breaks my heart too. You did say you love me, though drunkenly.. maybe I should have said I love you too.

#jejs #wilderthoughts

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And all the while I thought ako yung taker sa non-relationship na ito. I get gifts, I profit from it too.. pero come to think of it, ikaw yung mas nakakabenefit eh.

I know, though di naman natin nilalagyan ng label other than #Fubu tayo that I am the other woman. Hindi naman ako kabet kasi no emotional attachments and all. Kuno. Alam ko naman kung in love ako. Di naman. Kasi di naman kita hinahanap. Pwede namang di tyo magkita nang isang buwan. Hinahanap ka lang naman ng katawan ko pero kaya ko naman alagaan sarili ko.

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