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'so.. be good to yourself' CW' 39kg GW' 34kg My biggest weakness is probably chocolate

[dreamygirlmelancholia]

I fucking hate feeling the fat of my body

I love food, I just want to eat chocolates, a huge plate of pasta with a lot of cheese,..

I can't stand it, I can't eat, if I eat I will hate myself even more

[thesmallestplanet]

I feel like a lot of non-disordered people dont understand that brain fog and memory loss are both very desired symptoms for lots of people struggling with an ED.

EDs are usually never just about vanity and are often used as a coping mechanism to avoid facing other issues in your life. At times the brain fog can feel more like a blanket.

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[thesmallestplanet]

Non-disordered people find out you're struggling and suddenly want to mention how little they eat and how many meals they skip

[thesmallestplanet]

How it feels when the "f*ck this disorder i deserve happiness" weight shows up on the scale

[kn0ck0ut27]

the thing ppl don’t understand abt a4ar3kcia is that it’s not about food, it’s about eating. i love food. i just ate a 500 cal smoothie bowl and loved every second. but now, i feel guilty for eating that much and I know I can’t eat the rest of the day.

i don’t wanna be like this. i love food. but i hate eating. it makes me feel like shit.

i can eat one great meal a day, or i just don’t think about food.