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Must Be 21+ to Follow me, NO EXCEPTIONS!! 39 Yr old Freelance Photographer and "Geek Bear" Living in Massachusetts, living my life taking each Day one step at a time. "Our greatest glory consist not in never falling, but in rising every time we fall". - Oliver Goldsmith

[thespacebear]

"I'm not a Program...I'm a User".

[thespacebear]

Spent all of December rewatching Doctor Who, managed to binge each season plus specials per week all month while I have been recovering at home.

[thespacebear]

Why am I always having to fix everything in this house! 🙄🙃

[thespacebear]

Oh dear...better set a fresh pot for tea, it looks like I'll be expecting company soon.

[thespacebear]

For christmas I got 2 pairs of LED Light Up Glasses, the Honeycomb ones are my favorite but I really love the other ones as well.

[thespacebear]

Well? Are you gonna just gonna stare or get into bed with me, have a cuddle, snacks and watch Doctor Who with me or not?!?

[digimonadventureweek]

[thatsbelievable]

[anths-girl]

Fuck, yeah ✊🏻✊🏻✊🏻✊🏻✊🏻

[good2me]

[fhabhotdamncobs]

W♂♂F     (WARNING!   No “Pretty Boys” here.)

[thespacebear]

I'm trying...but it's hard...I keep trying to pretend that I'm "Okay" but truth is I haven't been "Okay" for a long time. I should be okay, I should even be happy...I have 2 loving partners a grumpy cat, a roof over my head. However, I still find myself pretending like I'm Okay...pretending that I'm Happy when the truth is that all I really want to do is close my eyes and stop existing.

I ask myself everyday if I go through with it today will they understand why? Will my Partners understand that I'm doing it for them so they can be happy and not feel like I'm weighing them down? I think about where I want to do it and how...razor blade down the street? Maybe a Cocktail? I just know I want it to be painless but it's never really pain free is it? Maybe if I go outside I'll slip and cause enough movement that an Icicle will fall into my chest. Maybe I'll cross the street just a few seconds early and hope it happens fast.

I keep telling myself they will be okay, no one else will really miss me, I have no blood family anymore, I have no circle of friends or even the occasional FWB. Just Bill and Richard and one other who has my heart...I pretend to be "okay" for their sake, I pretend so that they wouldn't worry or act weird around me.

They will ask me if I'm "Ok" and my answer is usually the same, "Yep just High AF" or "Mmhmm just feeling a bit High". When the truth is:

"No! I'm not okay I hate myself! I hate where I am and that I can't be the man I want to be for both of you because I feel so fucking lost and confused. I don't know where I fit in, I don't know where I belong, I can't figure myself out, so no I'm not okay...I just want to stop existing so you and Richard can stop worrying about me and you can both live the Happily Ever After that I gave up on...because somewhere along my life I gave up on myself".

I am trying...to keep it together for them because I love them but the truth is I'm not okay and I don't know how much longer I can keep saying "I'm okay" before they catch on. I keep telling myself I'll be fine, that things will be fine...and a small part of me Hopes so.

[buckysbarnes]

FAVORITE MARVEL QUOTES: ft. Peter Parker (Webb Edition)  - happy birthday @peterparkcr

[thespacebear]

Well now that Twitter might be dead, I guess I'm back! 😂

[thespacebear]

Was at Walmart today and found The Child hidden behind some board games...so I snatched him and brought him home...This Is the Way!

[thespacebear]

 One year ago this weekend He came up for a visit, 2 days later I asked him if he wanted to be my Boyfriend, 6 months after his visit he moved in with My Partner and I. Him finding me was the best part of last year, I love you so much and I can’t wait to see what this next year will be for Us (no more corona I hope) and I look forward to it and the next and the next.   I love you Osito!

[sixpenceee]

Would you guys surround your house with this forest like effect? From here

[acaciakitty]

Absolutely, I don’t want any assholes looking at me.

[captainbassplayer]

That’s a dream set up right there.

[nubbsgalore]

thank you.

[subbieblackgrl]

Regardless of your political views, these are some excellent photos.

[yardyute]

This is a real president right here

[chemman99]

He was not perfect, but at least he reached out to ALL Americans.

[thespacebear]

I miss President Obama 

[thedragonflywarrior]

The Body Shapes of the World’s Best Athletes Compared Side By Side

[thedragonflywarrior]

Health and fitness comes in all shapes and sizes. Every single one of these athletes is a certified bad-ass.

[yamino]

I’ve posted this before but it’s worth reblogging!

[schweizercomics]

Just a reminder - if you’re drawing a team superhero book and more than one of your characters has the same build YOU’RE DOING IT ALL WRONG

[tally-art-deactivated20201005]

Always reblog

[abowtieandtwohearts]

This is excellent.