i want a girlfriend
or at least that’s what i tell people.
the truth is, i want to want a girlfriend
i wish i did
im told i just havent found the right one
i tell them im focusing on my studies
which i guess is true, but it wont be forever
im told to love without caution
and i do. just not in the way they want me to
they want me to love someone the way my dad loves my mom
or in the way peter loves gwen
but i love people in the way that harry loves hermione
dancing in a tent like there’s no tomorrow, just because we can
they dont understand
sometimes i think im broken, but i know that’s not true
im happy with the way i am
i like the way i am. it makes me feel special
i think women are pretty
but in the way i think a flower is pretty
i like looking at them, but id rather not touch
sometimes it makes me sad i’ll never get married
or when i see my friends all in relationships
they look so happy
i want to spend my life with someone
i want to hold someone and be held
i love so deeply
it’s as easy as breathing
i feel like its choking me
