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I don't have any irl friends. At all. I told the one person I considered a friend I was gay and now my entire class has turned against me. I can't move class because I can't tell my parents the real reason not yet. I tried to kill myself last month but it didn't work. I've been cutting for a year now and I just don't know how to cope with this. I heard people giving reasons why I am friendless- Tall, braces, glasses, geeky, fat, ugly, and a cow.

There are a lot of different ways of coping - you just have to find the right one. If your classmates can't deal with you being gay, that is their problem and they shouldn't be so short-sighted. And believing you're a geek is nothing to be ashamed of. If anything, it means you're someone who isn't as horrible and ill-moralled as those around you. There is a reason people say it's what's on the inside that counts.

I've just given up completly thanks for trying to help me i dont see why you dont even know me

It's not about knowing you. From what I can tell, you are an extremely brave person for contacting me in the first place when so many others suffer in silence. Such bravery can see you through this. Don't ever even tell yourself that you've given up.

My mum walked in on me when I tried to and everything is just reallly shit i really cant do this anymore thanks for listening but nothing is ever going to change ive been feeling like this since i was 7 and im still the same thanks for trying to help me but im really not worth it sorry to have bothered you

No, don't you ever say that. It is never an inconvenience when someone needs help. It will change. Your mum stopped you. That is because she loves you. I wish I had half of that. When my mother found me trying, she shouted at me. She told me I was an idiot and made me want to do it again. But I didn't because I know people would care. People care, anon. I would care if you tried again. Your mother would care. And that's more than I have. Please. You deserve so much more. It will change, everything always does, I promise. If I was there right now I would be able to tell you so much more, but I'm not. The important thing is that you ARE NOT ALONE. For as long as I run this blog, you are not alone. I will always be here for you. That is why I started this blog, so I could help.

I tried to attempt yestersday things haven't gotten any better I just wish I'd died nobody cares if I live or die tbh and no amount of smiling will make this better I'm just so alone ive tried talking to my friends but they're always like get a grip or saying i'm stupid i reaally wish i went through with it i'm so sick of being alive ive got to many scars on my arms i cant go into school without shaking and i hate being here im sorry

Please don't feel like that. If your friends don't understand you need help, then they aren't your friends. A true friend doesn't turn anyone away when they're in need. If you attempted so recently, think about what stopped you. Focus on that. Even if it was a factor behind your control. It means you aren't meant to end your life, that can be so much better, and that you are meant to go on living. Don't be sorry for feeling like this. It is not your fault, no matter how much it may feel like this. You need to figure out why you feel like this. Any underlying family difficulty, any body issues, boyfriend troubles, anything. I can help you and I will because you don't deserve to feel the way you do.

I wish I'd died last september nothing has gotten better at all and I haven't stoppped self harming and im cutting deeper i just want to die

Dear anon,You must believe you can get through this. It's a difficult time, trust me been there done that. Suicide, pain, blood. They are not who you are. No one is truly like that, especially you, who has had the courage to talk to someone about this. I never could do that. It was only last week I finally opened up about my attempt to end my life last August. It takes a very brave and wonderful kind of person to manage such a feat. One thing I mist tell you: This isn't a time to isolate yourself. In the words of a particular hero of mine;"Don't lock yourself away because you think you're not good enough."You can change your views of yourself, but it will take time and support. My best advice is to talk to your family or friends (it's best not to mix the two). They're a lot wiser than we can first see. If you don't feel you can do that, I am always free to listen. But the key to recovery is you. If you feel everything is getting too much, don't end things. Things end themselves eventually, and so do the bad things. It may not seem like it now, but it does get better. No matter who you are, where you are or what you believe you are, life will always seem to screw you over. But when life gets you down, what you have to do is screw it.Fuck with it's head. Smile when it wants to make you feel sad. When you feel the need to cause pain, cause happiness. It helps more than it seems now, but if there is one piece of advice I can give you, fucking over life is the best one. Because you have the power to do that. Life does not control you. You control life. I hope this helps. If you need anything else, you know where to find me. Yours truly,TheSupportNetwork. Xxx