Can't touch this.

Skimmala rinky dinky dink. Skimmala rinky doo.

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I don’t know that there’s a reason to continue posting after this

So here’s my eulogy to my dad.

https://drive.google.com/open?id=14t17sawWmiCp85vbUB2K4CLk1z_dwXCPkyfdWRa36AU

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and just like that...poof...he was gone...

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how do you expect someone to listen to if you don’t even listen to yourself? 

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Somewhere between October and January I forgot how to be myself. I was pretty sure it was easier than this before. I guess that’s what happens when you give your power to someone else. 

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anyone else oddly use being at work to deal with their anxiety?

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I’ve never been more terrified in my life. Can’t even sleep for some reason. HBD to me, I guess. 

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I thought I knew how to deal with rejection, but it would seem that it is much more difficult than I remember. 

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heart’s about to bust out of my chest

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Learning from failure isn’t supposed to be this hard. Maybe it’s the meds. 

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I was looking at houses online and all of a sudden I got super anxious. What’s getting me is that I’ve wandered around wishy washy and indecisive for so long, now that I’ve figured out exactly what I want, I can’t have it. It’s out of my reach, it was in my reach and I let it get away, or it was in my reach and I pushed it away through poor decision making. Maybe it’s “I can’t have it yet,” but the L’s I have to take in the meantime are overwhelming. 

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My refusal to believe in “can’t” causes me to be way harder on myself than is necessary. 

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Taking care of my dad brings me back to this website which is about everything that needs to be said.

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I spent most of my life afraid of failure. I spent the past two or three years telling myself failure was ok. 

Now I’m not afraid of failure anymore. Let’s fucking do this. 

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If you tell someone that for some unavoidable reason you have to punch them ten times in the face, and then later you decide you know what, I could probably just punch you five times and that should be enough, they’re not going to be thankful even if you think you’re trying to soften the blow to be nice.

Summary: Just punch them in the face ten times. It doesn’t make a difference. 

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Those battles you fought and the storms you weathered, the ones that you cried tears over, the times you fought through your anxieties and made it through somehow.

Whether they are internal or external, you should be proud of yourself. I’m proud of you, and I’m always cheering for you to make it through. Keep fighting. We all need you.

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I somehow discovered what anxiety attacks are like. The mind is so powerful. I’ll be fine, but damn. Fuck these things. 

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Thoughts I guess

Some days I just hope I can fall asleep until tomorrow comes. 

In other news, season 2 of The Get Down is dope as fuck so far. ‘17 is looking good for hip-hop and music in general. 

I have two friends who should not be together. One guy threatens to kill himself when the girl tries to break up with him. The girl feels like killing herself because she’s stuck in a relationship she abhors. Can you even comprehend how toxic that must be? What if they get married and have children?

Moving along...I need a house. 

And maybe a blog.