Sweetie-Pie

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[thesweetestsweetiepie]

I think I'm going to leave...

I'll keep this place up, in case someone wants to talk to me, but I can't post here anymore

I'm sorry

Currently Listening To On Repeat-

[thesweetestsweetiepie]

I am so deeply sorry for anyone I have ever hurt, that I feel it everyday

I live with the regret that never goes away

And a fear that I will end up doing it again

I don't know how to get close to people anymore

I could chose to not let this control me

But then, they couldn't

I wonder if I still linger in the quiet parts of their minds

I wonder if my actions still affect them in their lives

If I had the chance to talk to them again

I would let them ruin me, the same way I ruined them

And I would never stop apologising

[thesweetestsweetiepie]

It's crazy that things can change so much in just a week

[thesweetestsweetiepie]

maybe I should accept that you won’t come back

maybe I should leave as well

am I supposed to find someone to replace you?

or just sit in the silence, waiting?

[thesweetestsweetiepie]

you have to follow your own happiness, or whatever the saying is

[badtundra]

as my final act of love, i’ll stop bothering you.

[thesweetestsweetiepie]

how many times do things have to go to shit before I stop trying?

what’s the point of anything if it’s only going to end, whether I want it to or not?

[thesweetestsweetiepie]

what the actual fuck is going on right now?

[thesweetestsweetiepie]

I see you in the people on the streets

is it weird to miss you like this?

when I don’t even know what it’s like to be near you

[thesweetestsweetiepie]

the gnawing feeling that you’ve done something wrong

that you’ve gone to far

no way back

[thesweetestsweetiepie]

when it’s good, it’s great

when it’s not, it feels like the world is in fire

[thesweetestsweetiepie]

I feel like listening to someone's favourite songs unlocks a new part of their character. Like now I know what you like, the way you see the world and the way you see yourself. Little bits of your soul rests inside of the small piece of music, and I finally get to witness it. Thank you so much for sharing this with me, please show me more. You may not have the words of it, but you have these lyrics and intruments to show me instead

[thesweetestsweetiepie]

catch me listening to the most depressing songs you’ve never even heard of

[thesweetestsweetiepie]

clean wasn’t worth it

this feels better

it’s like I can finally breath again

[thesweetestsweetiepie]

I don’t know why I continue to try

It always ends up in failure

[i-will-recover-tomorrow]

[thesweetestsweetiepie]

is anyone there?

can you see me?

am I human still?