ย Post sooundtrackย Sister Hazel โ All for You
These days it is so easy to get lost when it comes curating your own social media personality. ย There is too much stimulus around that gets you off track, at least that is how itโs like for someone like me who has ADD and easily influenced. I got so incrediblyย lost and off track over the years trying to create my online personality through my blogs. ย Iโve experimented time and time again with different concepts and always find myself stuck not knowing what to write about. ย Basically, I feel that the older I get the deeper my content needs to be. ย Especially as I am writing a book, yes I am still writing it.ย For the past few months, this very blog has been a place I tried to curate my OPโed pieces of a social commentary of how I perceived the world at the moment, but it doesnโt feel quite real. ย I yearn to update my content every week but I find myself less creative than I was 10 years ago when my lifestyle was so very different. I have grown, my life is on a completely differentย path and values have changed of what I choose to share online. ย That brutal honesty I once had is still there, but I no longer have the need to share that darkness because it no longer resides in me or is a big influence in my life as it used to be. ย So what do I write about? ย There are now a ton of niche blogs and a part of me is mad at myself I missed that train when I was in the middle of it. I was too busy figuring out myself and sort my life than actually trying to do something with the person people had become to known online. ย I had a following, but I kept changing because that is my personality. ย My dear friend Sofia over atย She comes in colorsย straight out asked me why I donโt just write about my lifestyle? My fashion, music, food, travel etc. ย My initial reaction is why would anyone care? There are tons of people that are already doing this so why should I be another one? ย Then I thought about it, I donโt actuallyย have to be like them. ย I can just be me and maybe that is enough and I donโt need to feel ashamed of it.
So, if anyone is interested, this is what I know and what is true to my life right now and what I can offer.
I am 37 years old, Iโm happily in love in a relationship I want to keep private because it means so much to me. ย With this man, I live in Berlin with my two dogs Dexy and Mylo that I brought over from Bangkok. ย I am writingย a book, that is taking so much longer than I ever could have anticipated. ย While I do so I am also trying to find a job in the music business as that is my true love, itโs hard competition, but I have the support that allows me to pursue that dream while I also write my book. ย On the side, I model and act in small movie and TV roles, which is fun. ย I still love rock music more than anything, I am still a rocker chic and holding on to that style. ย I love my tv shows, movies, and anything marvel. ย I still love cooking, exploring new recipes and itโs where meditate. I practice yoga combined with tons of other sports. ย There is still a Carrie Bradshaw inside of me, a lover of fashion and writing. ย Fashion is still something I care about and I exploreย how to evolve as the rocker girl Iโve always been while also aging gracefully in style. ย I still love makeup and my passion for photography is still ever so present. So maybe I too can be what they call a lifestyle blog where I share whatever it is that is relevant to my day to day life. ย There is a demographic of people just like me somewhere in the world, stop competing, the world is big enough for everyone. ย So why not just do that and stop being afraid of the stigma of ย โOh, no here comes another lifestyle blog.โ Letโs not deny the doors it can actually open if you allow it and not abuse it for the wrong reasons. So why am I afraid to be judged? ย Iโve already shared my whole life on the internet before. ย In the end, itโs not a lifestyle blog, ย itโs my life and the things I enjoy, experience and get excited about. Which is a whole specter of things that canโt be tied into a niche. ย Soย while I am writing my book, trying to land that dream job and doing little odd jobs here and there. ย I will try it a different way this time, where Iโm not going to worry about aย specific formula to please a ceratin audience of how a blog should be, I should just give in and just be me.
โFinally I figured out
But it took a long, long time
But now thereโs a turnabout
Maybe โcause Iโm trying.โ
But now thereโs a turnabout maybe โcause Iโmย trying. Post sooundtrackย Sister Hazel - All for You These days it is so easy to get lost when it comes curating your own social media personality. ย