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starting 2025 off with a bang by getting fired from my job????

#literally working there for almost three years #i had to leave a shift early from symptoms of a CONCUSSION #and had to call out bc i have to take care of my mom #truly uncontrollable shit???#also i can count on ONE HAND #how many times i have had to call out of a shift in the whole THREE YEARS of me working there #and i have NEVER left early #EVER #like wtf #??

i’m so tired of being anxious and having random anxiety attacks. IM SO OVER IT!!!!!!!!!

#i just want to feel normal #like ever since being home my anxiety has just like tripled #i feel like i’m back in high school #this is terrible #like please #and now that i’m used to dealing with it on my own i have to hide my anxiety from my mom #cause her being all in my space and worried about me just makes the spiral worse #which sucks #so now i’m in my room at 8:30 just like shaking like a mad man in bed #being anxious over something i literally cannot control #literally WHY-#get me back in my college town

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am i even worthy of being loved romantically?

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wow so i was on wack shit, i feel so much better after sobbing out my feelings for 3 hours.

am i even worthy of being loved romantically?

#this feels so cringe post but i don’t care #i feel like shit right now #i’ve been crying all morning #and then feeling bad because my boyfriend has just had to help me through #traumatic event after event and i feel like im just #god like i’m just a fucking sad piece of shit that doesn’t deserve the love i’m being given #it’s also hard because i’m not with him #and he’s been my comfort person #and right now my life feels like it’s lowkey falling tf apart and i don’t have my comfort person #and i feel like SHIT I FEEL LIKE FUCKING SHIT #anyway #i’m having a mental breakdown #i’ve concluded that’s what this is and that’s why i feel so crazy #missing boyfriend to the millions right now #i just need a hug

tattoos are just a museum of all the different phases of you throughout your life

#this is why it always frustrates me when people always question tattoos #like that is just someone eternally making a phase of their life visible on their body #like UGH tattoos are literally just a physical representation of phases people go through!!!!!!#anyway #this is why i will never feel bad for an impulsive tattoo!!#cause i am leaving a physical trace of who i used to be for future me #which i think is really sweet #anyway i’ll get off my soap box now

i fear i’ve reached that point in my frontal lobe development that i don’t want to be in a house with my parental figure for longer than 48 hours (also doesn’t help we are mass packing our house that smells like smoke and also living in a hotel. get me back to college, this was my only break this semester and it’s not even going to be a break)

#what is happening #help meeeeeeee #let me go back to college and see my boyfriend #like i feel of smoke right now from packing #and the hotel beds are uncomfortable as fuck #i’m so tired 😭

phasmophobia VODs are my guilty pleasure media

#especially from minecraft youtubers #they go so hard #also AMAZING to fall asleep to #like ethereal

i think falling asleep in the weirdest fucking positions is my special talent

#i physically cannot fall asleep some nights unless i’m basically twisted into a pretzel #like #very unconventional #i’m cringe but i’m free #that saying is how i feel about my sleeping positions LMAO

literally what is the point of hiring me to do graphic design work for your company if your employee (singular, she hates my guts) are constantly going to undermine me and literally posted SOMEONE ELSES graphic to the instagram that doesn’t have any fucking cohesiveness and the actual important info is so small you can barely read it. WHAT ARE YOU PAYING ME FOR?????

#this isn’t the first time my social media graphic hasn’t been posted #like- just post my fucking work #you pay me decent money for what i do #like FUCK #this is just mostly anger boiling over from multiple issues i’ve had

panic attack hangovers are actually the worst thing ever

#i haven’t had one in SOOO long omg #bad hugh gone wrong #i hit a bong a little too hard and freaked myself out 😔🤘🏻#really embarrassing when it happened actually!!!!!

embarrassingly admitting that all of this harvey hype on tiktok is like- amazing cause now i’ve got soooo much fanart of my favorite stardew valley bachelor

#i want me someone like harvey #he’s so kind dude i’m dead 😭#i romance him in EVERY save without fail

people who don’t like certain “controversial” theatre shows because they feel bad for the abuser grosses me out!!!!!

#like what???#“oh it paints this group in a bad light #GIRL W H A T #ITS A STORY TALKING ABOUT THE VICTIMS #NOT TO MAKE YOU FEEL BAD FOR THE ABUSERS #what happened to the original plot of the movie #i feel like the entire meaning of the show went OVER YOUR HEAD #like if you are personalizing it maybe that is something you should reflect on!!#why are you personalizing how you feel about the ABUSER IN THIS SHOW #oh my god

guys i like need to make out with someone at this party tonight

#am i being dramatic?#slightly #but also like would it be FANTASTIC to make out with someone?#yes #please universe be on my sideeeeee

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they’ve had two group hangouts and i haven’t been invited even though i used to always be invited. dude wtf is HAPPENING UGH- like i know i need to just talk to them about it but i just feel soooo paranoid that some of them hate me 🫶🏻🫶🏻. the way i literally haven’t had these issues in SOOOO long but NOW they decide it’s time for me to question every thing!! THIS IS SO FUN!!!!

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and then i feel bad bc i feel like i shouldn’t be feeling these feelings because almost nothing has changed besides something that happened earlier in the week which is just too much to explain. but like THATS IT!! nothing else has changed and now it feels like the whole world has flipped on its head. fml

#okay i’m being slightly dramatic #but everyday just feels like a different vibe??#idk i’m just really struggling to read people right now i think?#i just need to keep telling myself everything happens for a reason #which is corny as fuck i know but i honestly live by it pretty heavily #sometimes it’s just really hard to accept 🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻#anyway random 7 am rant over thank you for coming to my tedtalk

they’ve had two group hangouts and i haven’t been invited even though i used to always be invited. dude wtf is HAPPENING UGH- like i know i need to just talk to them about it but i just feel soooo paranoid that some of them hate me 🫶🏻🫶🏻. the way i literally haven’t had these issues in SOOOO long but NOW they decide it’s time for me to question every thing!! THIS IS SO FUN!!!!

#and like #i brought my cat back to school to be an esa #and maybe that’s why they haven’t asked? bc they know i have her to take care of #but she literally was napping in my roommates lap for like 3-4 hours??#like i’m not the only one here to look after her or love on her #which idk if it’s that or if they just hate me #even though when something happened the other day they like EMPHASIZED remaining good friends #idk i am just all over the place rn #it feels like the foundations of my friendships have just been FUCKED over rn #again idk #random 7 am rant 🫶🏻

i love when my brain is trying to ruin a perfectly good friend group for me because of overthinking 🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻

#i am scared they don’t like me anymore #like SOOOOO self conscious #and i know what its from #but it is fully on me for making myself feel that way #ugh super fun!#i just hate feeling like they don’t actually want me there #even though i know that thought process is stupid!!#LOVING LIFE!!!!!!!!

the carnal urge to write poetry about how you’re feeling but can’t even put the feelings you have into words that accurately describe how you feel

#just high thoughts #i want to write poetry so bad but i’m just really bad at it #i have so many things i want to write about but simply can’t find the vocabulary i need #this night is the most high i’ve been ever #i think i got a little too high #lol #okay i go sleep now

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