Hello everyone, this is the introduction to my Tumblr Account, itās nice to meet you all!! :D
This may be a long read I'm sorry, but I do hope you all enjoy, don't have to read everything :3
(this page will be updated every once in a while for just in case I forget anything, keep an eye out if you're interested, thank you! :D)
(if anyone ever felt uncomfortable because of me please let me know!, I really want to improve on myself and I don't ever want to make anyone uncomfortable. I'm willing to make friends and my DMs are always open, don't feel afraid if you wanna chat with me, also I love to help!, If anyone were to ever feel alone I will always be there)
(UPDATE: when I say "please let me know if I'm making you uncomfortable" I mean it, the reason why I say it so often is because I suck at socializing and I genuinely want to get better as a person, if I'm not told I would be clueless so please tell me if I ever do. Thank you for your time. There are some times where I would get anxious talking to people on social sites... I'm sorry if I'm not as available as I should be)
I go by many names online, I mostly go by Sigil or Rose.
ā£ļøā“for those who want to know, I'm pansexual and intersexāµā£ļø
Iām currently 21 years old (birthday is Sep 13 2004), Iām a Multi-media artist (I also do animations, and create little things out of whatever I can find in my house)
I have been diagnosed with ADHD, C-PTSD, Depression, Generalized Anxiety Disorder, Schizotypal Personality Disorder, and Bipolar.
(Update!: There is a possibility that I may have Schizoaffective disorder as my current psychiatrist may suspect that I might have it. If so there may be a small chance that it might get worse- but, I have to do some tests to see if they're right or not. I'll make sure to keep everyone updated because I feel like this information may be important. Thank you all for supporting me! You all mean a lot to me!)
I may have other disorders but I might need a more proper diagnosis for them.
I don't have a particular religion but I do consider myself as a Omnist as I believe that all religions are correct and true in their own unique way!
My Myer Briggs Personality type is INFJ-T 2w1 126 (I have taken the test multiple times and I always ended up with INFJ)
Fandoms!!: Creepypasta, S.C.P Foundation, Undertale, Five Nights At Freddy's, Don't Feed The Muse/The Muse ARG, ENA, Backrooms, Mandela Catalogue, Silent Hill, Alice In Wonderland, Men In Black, Hazbin Hotel/Helluva Boss, Homicipher.
(if any creators that created fandoms listed above I just want to make it clear that I don't support harmful or vile creators. I enjoy fandoms for their content and design rather than the problematic things that might happen within them. I usually am not aware of fandom drama or problematic things that may happen in a fandom and most of the time I prefer to be unaware because interfering or interacting with drama doesn't make life easier)
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I am indeed a selfshipper (a lot of my OCs vaguely either look like me or act like me, they're technically self inserts)
I do have OCs but I'm not sure if I could put all of them here in this one post XD
Some or most of my fictional crushes/comfort characters may be controversial but I'm willing to explain: Offenderman ({Creepypasta}- I don't support his actions yet i have a odd comfort for him that I can't describe, he was my first fictional crush, I can't help but love his charming personality even though he uses it as a lure), Dr. Jack Bright ({S.C.P Foundation}- I love both the fandom version and the cannon version of him, despite he is suppose to be depicted as a depressed wreck I can't help but feel some form of relativeness or understanding in a strange way. As for the fandom version of him, I adore that version as well as it's a perfect mix of charm and chaos<3 (yes I'm aware of the creator of this character is problematic, I don't trust or support the creator of Dr. Bright and I would personally wish to send him into the phantom realm), Jared Warrenheim ({Don't Feed The Muse}- I love both before and after assimilation,I don't support the fact he stalks people but I can't help but fall head over heels for him, honestly I feel like he deserves to be taken in for therapy so he could get better but yet again I'm aware it may not work :(, I can also heavily relate to him as I have a hard time interacting with people and I tend to come off as creepy), Valentino ({Hazbin Hotel}- I don't support his actions or the way he treats others, I adore his design and charm, he is so sassy and I love moths), Pyramid Head ({Silent Hill}- genuinely is he even controversial?, I love how intimidating and powerful Pyramid Head is), The Intruder ({Mandela Catalogue}- don't support breaking and entering OR kidnapping, but I can't help but love him). Mr. Gap and Mr.Crawling ({Homicipher}- not sure if controversial, I just love their design and their personalities<3), Griffin The Archanan ({Men In Black 3} he's amazing and I find nothing wrong with him, I love his personality and his ability to see the future, past, present in different realities. He seems nice and pleasant to be around :3).
My Kin list (some may be creatures from mythology/folklore and I just want to make it clear that I'm not trying to be disrespectful at all since I know most of them may be culturally protected. I do infact do a lot of research into them): Greek/Egyptian Sphinx (I tend to be extremely territorial and protective over those I deeply care about and this especially goes for objects that are sentimental to me like childhood plushies or art supplies. Whenever I feel like I've failed in any task or failed defending what I love I genuinely beat myself over it {in some legends the Sphinx would destroy itself as a form of punishment for failing }), The Estonian Kratt (yes the creature built from discarded and forgotten tools just to be brought to life to do the deeds of it's creator. I can relate to it because both my family and most teachers in most of the schools I've been in don't treat me like a human and would only use me as someone who can continuously work for them {hell even I was part of the work force and I never felt human since I felt so much pressure from what they expect me to do especially since they expect me to be only focus on working even though I have a love life, then they would even try to add things that I didn't feel comfortable in doing...like for example working with the dogs at the shelter that I volunteered to, dogs absolutely hate me and I have a lot of trauma from interacting with dogs but they didn't care} and the only times I would be acknowledged would be on my birthday if I'm lucky, the other reason why I relate to the Kratt is because if I don't keep myself occupied for a while I would gradually lose my mind and lash out... especially if I'm not doing anything that helps regulate my mood), Keekee ({Hazbin Hotel} in most scenes where Keekee is present she is so sweet and quiet and so willing to provide comfort for the sinners around her, from what I've been told by others I've been considered to be a good source of safety and comfort and it honestly makes me so happy to know that I can be a safe place for those who crave safety), Scottish/Irish Banshee (because there were more than a couple of times that I've predicted disasters and death, also from what I've been told I don't quite sound human when I scream but idk if that particularly matters.some people think they're faeries but personally I always viewed them as spirits that only appear when disaster and death is near), Absol ({Pokemon} for most of my life I've been told by my family that I was nothing but trouble even though I mainly stayed to myself and strange things always happened around me in which I was blamed for, so I do infact see a bit of myself in Absol since in the series it's been blamed for causing disasters even though in reality all it ever wanted was to help others steer away from potential danger), Shapeshifter ({ Worldwide} oh look at that the whole purpose I used the word 'shapeshifter' in my username, although shapeshifters are more of a catagory for multiple creatures in many cultures- I relate to them because ever since I was young till now I've never felt human and I never felt comfortable in a human body but yet again all I ever wanted was to be treated as equal. I always wanted to be 'perfect' in many different concepts, perfect enough to be human, perfect enough to be animal, perfect enough to be reimagined, and perfect enough to be mythical... especially perfect enough to bring purpose or perfect enough to be important. I always felt like if I could physically change into many things to fit the needs of others I would finally be accepted like I always wanted /dear God, I kinda sound like I'm part of a cult or something but I swear I'm not lol/).
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This is Orion, he is a snuggly sweetheart! <3
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This is Apollo, he's shy and....I swear he's secretly a human in a cat's body.
Precursor to this update: after the new years (to be exact January 2nd 2026) I tripped and fell down the stairs when I was trying to go to the family room and I thought I sprained my ankle... For a few weeks I treated it as a sprain till I got it checked out- it turned out to be a small tiny ankle fracture! And I ended up camping downstairs for at least three months to heal so I could avoid walking on it/avoid using the stairs.
Current: I am now fine and can walk/use the staircase without seeing my life flash behind my eyes! I'm also in a ankle brace for better stability :D (in other words I'm close to being fully healed)
Now, I'm gonna let y'all know about this idea that I've been having for a while, but please stay with me. It's more like a plan about posting my art and stuff.
I'm planning on drawing more often but instead of immediately posting it on my Tumblr/socials I plan to save up my drawings till the end of the month/week so I'd have enough to post more consistently or something like that, as for my TikTok account I plan to at least post once a year or once a month on there but I don't know how to go about it.
But for now that's about it.
I also plan on posting for many of the other fandoms I'm in such as The Mandela Catalogue, The SCP Foundation, and some others as well! (I'll still make posts for Happy Meat Farms/Don't Feed The Muse and I might revamp the way I draw some of the characters)
Thank you all for being here and patient with me, you all are deeply important to me and it means a lot that you're all still here!!
I'm so happy to be here and I'll be honest I didn't particularly like 2025, a lot of negativity happened last year with some positivity
For this year I'm planning to create and post more since last year I kinda disappeared (I genuinely feel horrible, I didn't mean to suddenly go like that)
I ADORE YOU ALL AND HOPEFULLY THIS YEAR WILL BE GOOD FOR EVERYONE!!
Update:
as soon as after I made this post, literally a day after of making it I immediately tripped and fell down the stairs. I now have a ankle sprain lmfao! (IT TURNED OUT TO BE A TINY ANKLE FRACTURE, but I swear I'm ok. Like I'm stable lol) But don't worry y'all since after that I've been doing a bit better and healing XD
Once I'm done healing I'll start creating and posting, good luck to you all!!
My main inspiration was Sneasler because that pokemon reminded me of Jared the most because of its overall appearance (the claws, the gem on its forehead, and it's appearance kinda reminded me of how I Invision him).
My second inspiration was Genesect, it was another pokemon that reminded me of him but mostly it reminded me of his prosthetics so I used that to my advantage.
As for the tail, I had to give him a tail, it would've felt wrong if I didn't (the tail was inspired after Aipom, I don't know why I decided to use that pokemon's tail as inspo but I thought it would be a cool idea)
((WARNING: In this part I'm being an absolute nerd about stats and stuff))
I feel like he would do extremely well in speed and attack strength, but he'd be lacking in defense (yes, it's because of that time he got knocked out by Ramona), his health stat would be decent.
Fave items to hold: wide lense, black belt, heavy helmet, quick claw, adrenaline orb, zap plate, iron plate, dread plate, and amulet coin.
Moveset types: (mainly) Dark type moves, (mainly) Electric type moves, (mainly) Steel type moves, (ok amount) Normal type moves, (ok amount) Fighting type moves, (some) Bug type moves (leech life, infestation, lunge ), (some) Grass type moves (grass knot, vine wip, giga drain), (few) Fire type moves (fire fang, fire claw), (Few) Poison type moves (poison fang, toxic spikes), (few) Ghost type moves (phantom force, nightshade), (one) Fairy type move (draining kiss /but only if his level is at 90, he won't be able to learn it from moveset disks because he's stubborn/), (none) Ground type moves, (none) Water type moves, (none) Flying type moves, (none) Dragon type moves, (none) Ice type moves.
I like to think that he uses the charging plug that's connected to his head to forcibly stick the opponent pokemon in the forehead with the prongs and that's how he would drain their energy
(planning to do one for Ramona next, to then do one for my Oc /Elois/)
I hope y'all like them, they really are a decent worker.
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They are still alive.
They don't work for MOTHER but they technically just monitor the building for trespassers, they are also ordered to kill anyone who trespasses depending on the situation. They also keeps the mutated dog population in check (sometimes the parasite takes control of her bodily movements and involuntarily ends up executing some of the hounds if in their way)
(the genetic modification somehow managed to create some sort of floral parasite to grow out of her body which excruciatingly altered her anatomy that rendered her unresponsive for months on end during the process. The parasite kept her heart beating with it's vines wrapped around her heart, forcing it to beat and pulse to keep her alive.)
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Thank you all for your support!! Enjoy this Jared squishy!! (Credit to the artist of the lil chibi Jared, I forgot who drew him sadly but they deserve attention too :D)
I hope y'all like them, they really are a decent worker.
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SPOILER ALERT
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They are still alive.
They don't work for MOTHER but they technically just monitor the building for trespassers, they are also ordered to kill anyone who trespasses depending on the situation. They also keeps the mutated dog population in check (sometimes the parasite takes control of her bodily movements and involuntarily ends up executing some of the hounds if in their way)
(the genetic modification somehow managed to create some sort of floral parasite to grow out of her body which excruciatingly altered her anatomy that rendered her unresponsive for months on end during the process. The parasite kept her heart beating with it's vines wrapped around her heart, forcing it to beat and pulse to keep her alive.)
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Thank you all for your support!! Enjoy this Jared squishy!! (Credit to the artist of the lil chibi Jared, I forgot who drew him sadly but they deserve attention too :D)
I hope y'all like them, they really are a decent worker.
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SPOILER ALERT
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They are still alive.
They don't work for MOTHER but they technically just monitor the building for trespassers, they are also ordered to kill anyone who trespasses depending on the situation. They also keeps the mutated dog population in check (sometimes the parasite takes control of her bodily movements and involuntarily ends up executing some of the hounds if in their way)
(the genetic modification somehow managed to create some sort of floral parasite to grow out of her body which excruciatingly altered her anatomy that rendered her unresponsive for months on end during the process. The parasite kept her heart beating with it's vines wrapped around her heart, forcing it to beat and pulse to keep her alive.)
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Thank you all for your support!! Enjoy this Jared squishy!! (Credit to the artist of the lil chibi Jared, I forgot who drew him sadly but they deserve attention too :D)
This is a little hint/reference to my HMF OC, planning to post something special on Valentine's Day.
(it may not be much, but it's something I guess. for just in case it's hard to read the message on the wall it says "To disappear is sometimes the best way to be found.", The sign reads "Surveillance Department" for just in case it's hard to read)
(I tried my very best to make Ramona with whatever I have, I don't have much in-game currency. @byn3s plz feel free to digitally wack me with Jared's prosthetic arms if you feel like I did something wrong XD)
Here they are! :3
(warning here's me being a nerd about the game /again/ and why I chose this creature for Ramona)
Although, I don't think there's there's a Lore story about this species I can create one myself. (I would probably describe their creation was from experimentation and trial & error, each Nindyr was made differently with different amount of limbs and eye patterns on their bodies. And from years of evolution different DNA and genetics were introduced to make them more "perfect" for survival.)
Not only did I choose this creature for it's multiple limbs and "eyes", I felt like it would suit Ramona in a way since I believe this creature is fit to be portrayed as a pacifist (since if I remember correctly, Ramona doesn't use violence unless it's a last resort. For example, in one of the hmf videos when Ramona knocks Jared out, there is a possibility that if there was a different reality /where Jared still had his original personality and wasn't controlled by Mother/ there would've been a higher chance where Ramona would ask for the IT files, there's also another probability that if Jared was either "asleep" or absent Ramona would've been able to get the files without having to use violence. What I'm trying to say is that there would've been a high likelyhood that Ramona would've chose the pacifist route. /Also just wanna make myself clear, I'm not painting Ramona as a full blown pacifist. I'm aware that she has her own reasons why she knocked out Jared, hell I would've done the same thing out of panic if I didn't think of a different way or if it was a last resort/
But other than that, I genuinely thought the Nindyr species would be a good pick because they were inspired after genetic mutations and experiments, they are also pretty decent when it comes to PvP.
(y'all might be wondering "why are the eye patterns blue" I can't seem to figure out Ramona's eye color for some odd reason so I went with blue to represent the peace she had from her past before everything went downhill. As for the color and patterns, it would feel wrong if I just did solid color without adding depth to the patterns/ it was either gonna be this creature or Kriprik since it has traces of human DNA in it's genes, but I don't even know how I would be able to portray Ramona as that creature in particular)
Tried to make Jared in Creatures Of Sonaria (Roblox)
(just to let y'all know, I don't have many creature species so I just use what I have. I only have one Urzuk species and will not trade it unless I have more of them y'know :3)
Jared
(warning: for the rest of this post I'm just being a nerd about the game's lore and the reason why I chose the creature XD)
I made Jared as a Urzuk not only because of the three eyes he has (or because of the multiple eyes theme) or the species popularity (well, most people in the fanbase have the Urzuk as their favorite species. And Jared finds himself extremely popular), from what I remember the Urzuk species in the game were created to obey and carry out the word of the wardens (in the game there are eight Wardens, they are basically in game gods). So to me it kind of made sense because it reminded me of how Jared would be so loyal to MOTHER (saying that he's Mothers #1 special boy, and that she "prefers" him over Ramona).
The Urzuk species was well favorited by the wardens before a warden in particular (Boreal Warden) became "power hungry" and killed the last Urzuk (according to the lore the Angelic Warden only created one Urzuk to help serve them).
To me it just kind of made sense in a way, unless I'm going crazy lol, but I guess the species fits him well to a degree.
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(I have made Ramona, but it won't let me put another video XD, might need to make another post on her. I'm gonna give y'all a heads up though, the species I thought that would fit her is a Nindyr and I only use the color palettes that come with the creature for any skin I make)
He is now in Pony Town (and the alternate servers :3)
{Pony Town} He is so silly
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In Luminous Kingdom. I had to get a bit crafty since I couldnāt find a way to make his third optic lense, so now he kinda has a angler fish light which is kinda cool (also I gave him the propeller wings because I thought it was a neat idea)
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In Dergun Town, Iām aware there was some controversy about this game but I only use it for itās customization, other than that I think I did a decent job :3
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In Ashes Town. He kindaā¦.. I dunno how to describe it, but I tried XD (the third optic lense was a pain to pull off, I also couldn't find the right hair thingy but I guess I did alright ĀÆ\_(ć)_/ĀÆ)
He is now in Pony Town (and the alternate servers :3)
{Pony Town} He is so silly
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In Luminous Kingdom. I had to get a bit crafty since I couldnāt find a way to make his third optic lense, so now he kinda has a angler fish light which is kinda cool (also I gave him the propeller wings because I thought it was a neat idea)
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In Dergun Town, Iām aware there was some controversy about this game but I only use it for itās customization, other than that I think I did a decent job :3
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In Ashes Town. He kindaā¦.. I dunno how to describe it, but I tried XD (the third optic lense was a pain to pull off, I also couldn't find the right hair thingy but I guess I did alright ĀÆ\_(ć)_/ĀÆ)
