For some individuals the thought of going into the unknown can be a very scary thing. When going into the unknown, the individual is unprepared for what could happen. They are scared of the possibility of not liking the unexpected change. I like to think that if I were given the opportunity to go into the unknown, I would take it. I would thrive in the new unknown world, be a better and changed person. Until, I realized the true reason I wanted to go into the unknown. I wanted to be someone else, become a human version of what I would deem as perfect. Because in my mind, perfect meant being society’s definition of pretty. It was at that point of time where I realized that I almost allowed myself to succumb to society’s expectations. For a split second I allowed myself to truly believe that I wasn’t good enough for today’s world.
When I was younger I wish someone would have taught me to love myself more. I won’t say that no one ever told me to love myself, I just wish those who told me had embedded that thought into my mind. Imagine how different my mindset would be today, if I actually knew how to fucking love myself. Maybe I wouldn’t try to hide my beauty marks with make up and shield myself from the mirror. Maybe then It wouldn’t feel like the weight of the world wasn’t suffocating me down to the depths of the sea.