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will you still be proud of me even if i don’t make it to three weeks?

OVER 3 WEEKS CLEAN‼️‼️‼️

will you still be proud of me even if i don’t make it to three weeks?

#if i don’t relapse tomorrow or later tonight it’ll be 3 weeks on friday #maybe i’ll celebrate #or maybe i’ll go back to it #idk

i wish i could absolutely use and take advantage of someone so i could feel better about myself, but i’m not that terrible of a person to actually do it

#like if i could just have someone to yell at and abuse i think i would feel better

what if i run away tonight?

it’s kill yourself friday

#who’s ready to die tonight #???!!#i always find the things i shouldn’t and put myself in the worst place #only not breaking my phone into a million pieces because i don’t want to buy a new one #maybe i’ll never be able to be reached again

too tired so i guess that’s one way to stay clean

#i’m gonna collapse

idkwhattoputbroo

did I just write the suicide note of the summer??❓❓🤯🤯🤯🤯🤯🤯🤯

#i lowkey have to rewrite one of mine because it sounded stupid

and somehow my trip is keeping me clean

#maybe i’ll make it to two weeks

i think i have bipolar disorder

#everyday it’s a new diagnosis with this one #no but seriously i think bipolar 2 makes sense #also my psychiatrist mentioned it #and i have family history #idk.#wait rocd and bipolar 2 would actually make so much sense #because i thought i had bpd for awhile #but it’s probably those two

hello.

i’ve decided that i’m not really gonna post on this blog much (or i’m gonna try to post on it less) because i think you guys don’t need to see all that. i have another blog that is only for me and i think i should keep it that way. i know you guys care, but i really don’t want to worry any of you and so i’ll only post on here sometimes.

i love you all so much and value your peace of mind <3

i’m gonna kill everyone

jealousy MAKES NO SENSE AND IS WEIRD