crying oneself to sleep is the saddest thing i can imagine anyone doing. but, i have done it. sometimes, it’s silly assumptions about the future- but some days my mind starts getting curious, starts making up a thousand scenarios (will they love me? will i be okay?). i cry because the country i live in right now will not protect me if i love who i want. i cry because its the 21st century already, for god’s sake. i don’t WANT to hide or be ashamed. too many people before me have had to suffer needlessly. i want to honour them. i want to be proud in every way imaginable because goddammit i’m allowed to be (not in this country). i want to have the rainbow on my walls and be as obnoxious as possible. i was to scream that i love both and be looked at the same- even by my family (they’re the scariest out of all).
my heart sings for those who are living freely. please, raise your flags for me.
- @theviolets