Writings, feelings, stories, ect.

Sierra Michelle. 22, I like to read and I sometimes write book reviews. I most recently started putting my rants here

[thewritingsofsierra]

I overthink too much

Please explain to me why I’m the type of person that people start to get to know and will say things like “there’s really no one else like you, you’re wonderful”. Then those same people start texting less and less once I begin to show interest and then eventually just stop replying to me all together.

Those same people then come back months later after ignoring me and tell me how great I am and they wish they would have taken the chance with me and I’m not appreciated enough, like why is it this stupid endless cycle?

I speak my mind and I’m sarcastic and I have frequent bad days, but I’ve never been disloyal or talk to multiple people at once, and I’m just frustrated that I’m not good enough for anyone to even give me a chance.

[thewritingsofsierra]

Took a chance and spent the night at this guys house I hooked up with back in November and was bummed he didn't want more out of it.

But, I needed the good time and the affection, and damn I got it last night/this morning

[thewritingsofsierra]

Was so stoked to get laid this weekend and now I'm not getting laid and I'm real salty about it. I don't want to have to wait weeks to a month to meet you dammit

[thewritingsofsierra]

5/16/16

Quite frankly, I think it’s bullshit to be gone for over a month, talk to other people, almost landing in multiple relationships, and then getting mad and upset that I’m talking to someone.

I don’t think we could be anything, and I’m still sad it didn’t work out and I still miss you. But I’ll be damned if I’m going to throw away this beginning I’m starting with someone else. Sure I may not even date this other person, who knows. Distance is a bitch. But I deserve to try, and I deserve happiness, and so do you.

[thewritingsofsierra]

I need to stop checking up on you, what is wrong with me

How can I possibly still miss you, this is some bullshit

[necpd]

[thewritingsofsierra]

Honestly I think people worry about dick size way too much. Logically, if I'm into you and you treat me well, I don't care what your dick is like when I get you naked, I'm going to love it just the same. If you're average so what? I'd rather have average and someone that cares for me than someone which a huge dick and an huge asshole personality to match.

[thewritingsofsierra]

Do you just want a lot of friends or do you want a lot of girls to choose from when you feel like hooking up because while I shouldn’t have these thoughts I totally am

I shouldn’t be second guessing but yet here I am, what else is new

[thewritingsofsierra]

5/6/16

I’m not one for facetime personally but damn I could look at that face for hours. You also make video chatting so decent and not awkward and damn. Can I just meet you already?

Side note, that accent you’ve got is adorable holy

[thewritingsofsierra]

5/1/16

I just found out that I am getting around $12,000 in grants to pay for my spring and fall semester at UMD. I am so damn happy. This is seriously such a stress reliever, I was worried about taking out hefty loans and if all goes well I won’t have to take out a single dollar!

Now I just need to get back into apartment hunting and start planning on moving out

[thewritingsofsierra]

Fuck I still miss you, but I'd never come crawling back Sigh

[thewritingsofsierra]

4/30

Slowly learning that my favorite thing to do is send pretty risque photos and just show more and more each time, it’s even better when the guys giving me such great feedback and telling me how much my body is killing him

Cannot wait to meet you for real

[thewritingsofsierra]

This boy is killing me, and while we just started talking like damn. About to drive out to Massachusetts for a few days 😏

[thewritingsofsierra]

JOKES ON YOU BECAUSE YOU HAD ALL THE THINGS YOU'RE ASKING FOR AND MORE. Good luck with finding a place now 🙃

[thewritingsofsierra]

AHH! I just survived two hours and 17 minutes of facetime :) :)

[thewritingsofsierra]

Went ahead and got tested today and so far I'm HIV negative, but I'm waiting on the STI tests and they take a few weeks

[thewritingsofsierra]

4/24/16

Today was the second day of tech and it was a long ass day but having friends to text totally helps. I learned a lot about light board and this shows pretty snazzy.

My favorite part was the huge cuddle puddle during tech notes with my two best gay friends. At least a half hour of spooning with Connor was just what I needed.

I’m also getting my thigh piece tomorrow and possibly something small as well, I couldn’t be more stoked <3