100% yes to Charles chapter!! I would never say no to a chapter but also uni assignments are killing me and I could use an excuse to procrastinate haha
I’m sensing this is a popular opinion XD
I’m giving it a bit of a polish up now so watch this space!!
Hi! may i know the title of the kimi fic people mentioned a while back? I kinda missed it and would love to read your wonderful writing! Thank you so much!
Ahh yes, the Kimi fic—better known as my failed attempt at hiding on anon (I'm not sulking).
It's called Simple Experiments with the Childhood Chemistry Kit
(Because I like my Fall Out Boy -esque titles very much thank you)
Since getting clocked multiple times is embarrassing, and hiding is clearly a lost cause, I've taken it off anon to save myself the shame lol.
Hope you enjoy it (as much as one can really—it's not a fun one).
Hiiiii so I’ve just read through like everything you’ve posted and honestly…. Vibes are on fucking point!!
The HG au in particular is probably one of my favourite things I’ve ever read
So as a slightly odd question: do you have any writers or stories you vibe with that you recommend??
Again. 10/10 amazing work and appreciate you sharing with the world 🧡🧡🧡
Stop it’s still so strange to me that new people are reading that! One day I will get over myself and post the quarter quell on god.
When I was writing that fic I was really obsessed with stranger skin by @on-sinkingships which is the most intriguing and gorgeous ensemble cast intelligence agency au there is for all that it’s not completed. I also rec their leztappen and not-quite-retirement rivalry fic too!
Also youve likely read this but renegades by the incredible @unlapped is a fallout au thats dystopian and ensemble and everything to me. All of their stuff honestly! And all of @toppamplemousse too which again you’ve likely read already but I’m deeply obsessed with their brains!
I don’t know what you’re after for exactly but for similarish vibes I’ve gotta rec @forzafinally who’s got so many different pairings and hooks when it comes to Charles in particular. Damiano David, Bryan Bozzi, Seb, Oscar, demons, supervillains, abortion clinics, tennis courts, medieval…go there!!
Also @mothlau who has so many fics it makes my head spin both yaoi and Yuri, au and not. There’s 51 f1 fics currently and they make me want to scream.
As for the HG fic @theybe-kaz wrote a gorgeous piece in that same universe that should be linked! It goes much further into some of the darker themes so be warned but stunning writing. There’s also much more thg aus around now than in 2024 when I couldn’t find a lestappen one and this one has been recced a bunch!
And it’s sadly not up currently (apparently being rewritten!!!) but the best of all time f1 thg fic is Powerfulowl’s Maxiel victor fic so keep an eye on that and check out the rest of their page in the meantime. Godtier.
Ain’t that the question? Sadly for you you’ve caught me in a chatty mood xo
Pros: Today I graduated with a triple major (truly ridiculous—three is just far too many), I did a fantastic job pulling a speech out of my ass yesterday at pre grad (shout out to omay for doing the heavy lifting on the inspo), and I’m slowly producing some pieces of writing (yay!)
Cons: I graduated with three majors (cue crisis flavour crisis), I’m terrified of touching omay in case I fuck it up (I know that’s ridiculous—I know that), and I am at the point of having to choose between eating and having enough fuel to get to work (that really does suck).
And for the grand finale: life’s a roller coaster and I’ve recently face planted into the depression side of bipolar (I usually like roller coasters, but I want off this one now).
So how’s it going? Flip a coin mate—I don’t fucking know 🤣
Basically—forgive me for being a weird little cryptid. I pinky promise I really am trying my best ❣️
haha i just read the ask you answered about the kimi fic and i'll be honest... i scrolled past it on ao3 because I didn't think it'd be my thing- but then went back and read the description again and thought it sounded like your writing so decided to give it a go (amazing. excellent. 10/10 and made me feel uncomfortably seen like most of your fics do) so all this to say, yup, you've got a style distinctive enough to be clockable from the description haha
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This is not something I had accounted for when trying to hide on anon.
And the fact that two of you put it together??? I have never felt so damn called out over literally nothing in my life!!
Fuck sakes I thought I was being sneaky 🙃
Putting my sulking aside again—glad to hear it resonated! Not an easy read by design, but it definitely feels like something is different on the other side haha
And update for anyone who hasn’t found it—apparently it’s not that hard to put it together and my ego can take a kick on the way past 🤣
hi, hello, im very drunk and this might be totally out of the blue (and i might be way off so feel free to delete this!!!!!)
BUT
did you happen to write a fic that went up a bit ago on anon about kimi (big one) having a breakdown????
obviously you dont have to answer (lol) but it sounded like some of your other stuff and the formatting with like the flashbacks was the same and i checked and the summary was laid out the same
(i promise im not a stalker,,,, i have no way to prove it but i swearrrrr i was just reading the verse before i foudn it,,,, pinky promise <3)
but yeah,, i was just curious if it was and i dont know if i want the answer cause is it more awkward if im right and you did write it or if im wrong and you didnt???
anyway (whatever the answerrrrr) its a really good story that makes you feel things and be like,,,, damn how do they make the words hurt???? if you didnt write it you should read it :D
(pls send me a sign though cause i feel like im going insane wanting to know ahhhhhh)
Bro.
Firstly, yeah… that would be me using Kimi as an emotional stirring stick 😅
Secondly (and entirely respectfully) what the actual fuck???
Am I really that clockable as an author that I can be picked out of a line up based on my formatting and a summary??
I feel like a kid that thought they had a great hiding spot for hide and seek and immediately got found—congrats. I’m sulking 🫠
Me being whiny aside, I’m glad to hear you enjoyed it and a solid 10/10 detective work right there!!
And for anyone wondering what story this is, apparently posting it on anon does not guarantee anonymity so feel free to go find it I guess lmao
Please tell me you haven’t abandoned the Charles pov of Austin 🥺 I would wait a whole year just plz keep it in the plan I’m dying to read it
Absolutely still in the works!!
That one is having its own timing issues since it’s a lot of people arriving at a scene over a very short period of time and cause there’s already a couple POVs it’s trying to build some clarity as to who is where when doing what.
I’m not sure about the pacing but I would say maybe focus only/mainly on Max and Charles for the rest of the story ? Idk if that’s helpful or not lol
Yep that’s kinda where we’re going with in—gold star 10/10
Basically at the point of trying to work out where the relationship can be left where the arc feels complete and accepting we ain’t getting the full on relationship rn
Did you figure it out 👀 when should we expect a chapter roughly <3
Working on it!! Very lucky to have had a couple people reach out to help me workshop it so fingers crossed I can give ya a straight answer on a timeline for finishing soon!!
So. Incase it wasn’t obvious, I haven’t updated OMAY in a hot minute. Firstly, it’s not abandoned, on hiatus, suffering from writers block or anything else that translates to taking a break or I’m giving up.
Being brutally honest, I’m stuck.
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Yea… bet you weren’t expecting that huh?
TLDR: I fucked up the pacing. Help.
(Also Spoilers for the verse xox)
But in all seriousness, when I started this story it was just that—a standalone story. Not a verse, not a collection of intertwined narratives spanning over a decade, just a drop in the bucket story of the 2022 season.
El Plan: 20 chapters, 60k words. nice.
And to be fair, I exceeded the words pretty quickly once I found a style of story telling that fit what I was trying to. Fair enough.
Extended Plan: 20 chapters, 100k words. maximum.
But at the end of Austria II—Chapter 11 for the number lovers out there—I threw out a smartass comment asking if y’all wanted a side fic.
Ya did.
From there, the verse was born and surged rapidly out from the centre and OMAY became the foundation of something far bigger—Of Us All.
Suddenly it stopped being a Max story about facets of control, inlets and outlets, and love and care with a healthy dose of kink and sex on the side—y’all have been super patient on that front tbqh—and turned into a sprawling verse with a lot of moving pieces.
Seb was never meant to be more than a man with a past who wanted to make it easier for the next one.
Dan was never meant to spiral himself down the drain only for someone to throw him a rope at the last second.
Nico, Kimi and Valtteri? Maybe a cameo.
Lewis? Might pop up just from the nature of the whole schtick.
The group chat didn’t exist at all until Summer Break III (Chapter 16) and mentions got edited into earlier chapters.
The only concrete plot points I had from day one were:
It’s a story about the ebb and flow of control as a power source.
Max has a restrictive eating disorder that had been going on since karting.
Charles is a Top.
Max is a sloppy drunk and likes Charles’ clothes before he likes Charles.
Dinner goes wrong in Austria.
Lando makes the call in Singapore.
Max pulls himself from the race somewhere.
And the one thing that’s really fucked me over in all this: Charles wasn’t meant to end up traumatised by everything else that went on around how sick Max got. Like, sure—he was never gonna be stoked. But he wasn’t originally supposed to crumple to the point where he could no longer safely support Max.
Which leads me to ✨…the problem…✨ When I mapped out the relationship timeline, I was working on ‘El Plan’/‘Extended Plan’ 60k or 100k, it didn’t matter. I had 20 chapters to fuck around and find out.
Well.
We’re now at 8 individual fics.
With a total of 43 chapters so far.
And 387k words… so far!!
OMAY on its own is sitting at 32 chapters and 295k words.
All this to say, I have completely fucked the pacing and don’t quite know how to fix it.
If you hadn’t worked out that Max and Charles were going to end up together… consider yourself spoiled??
But the issue I’m having is under the ‘El Plan’/‘Extended Plan’ I had worked out the emotional beats from the strain and tension of Max being sick and worked them alongside what was happening in the verse at the time.
Giving Seb a complex backstory, chucking Dan in the drink and waterboarding him for sport, and letting Charles have a genuine human reaction to experiencing on trauma after another, and to loving someone who was that sick completely altered both the emotional pacing and the pacing going on in the verse at the time. And that’s how I’ve ended up here.
I still have a heap of emotional development and growing back together to do and I am quickly running out of verse content to get it done—especially considering Sequel I kicks off right at the start of the 2023 season (it has a name btw, it’s ‘Of Guilt and Pleasure’ because I locked myself into a naming convention 18 months ago with the first side fic).
Basically, I have way too much respect for the verse, and even more so for you guys to smoosh them together and say ‘kiss,’ and yet I’m not quite sure how to accelerate the point so they get to it themselves before the verse clock ticks over to the next one. And yes, I absolutely agree that it’s an ongoing process that will still be repairing in the sequels, but at the same time I don’t want to have to force people to read the next one just to get the ending for the main pairing in the first one.
Ultimately, they’re both processing a huge trauma in their own ways, they’re putting the time in to grow as individuals, and they need to to be able to get to the place they were in relationship wise before it all kicked off.
Vulnerability, trust, connection, respect and want.
Right now there is want. They’re too raw for vulnerability. Trust was obliterated (both parties feeling abandoned, let down and betrayed in different ways). Connection and respect is tied to trust, and right now that’s too much risk.
Therefore—cannot shove in bed with lube and say have fun. Would not be fun.
Problem.
But yeah, that’s the nuts and bolts of where I’ve gone—the answer is nowhere, and that’s kinda the problem.
I don’t know if I’m writing this to let you guys know what’s up, or just to sadly show you one of those cognitive puzzles and I’m just whacking the pieces together.
Either way, you all have been a massive part of the story from day one—and I’m at the point of asking for help. I’m essentially asking y’all to be a fresh set of eyes on operation: Get Max And Charles Together But Make Them Think It’s Their Idea.
And if you’re reading this thinking ‘I don’t write, I dunno,’ I know you read things. You know what’s good, you know what endings feel satisfying and which ones make you go ‘ugh that was lazy writing’ (trying to avoid those personally).
If you’ve got any suggestions, ideas, theories I would love to hear them!!
Thank you all for the love, support and patience over the last 18 months—and thank you in advanced for the next 18.
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