My life sucks. I’m ranting her because I have no where else to do it.im in a loveless marriage i can not get out of because she makes more than me, an our house payment is too much for me in my own. It’s literally been years (pre COVID) since we’ve had sex, and that’s not gonna change. She’s just not interested. That’s not a slight against me,I know. I’ve got a relatively big dick, and I know how to use it. I’ve actually been given carte blanche to do what and who I want. That’s not me though. I’m not a whore. I need a connection, I need bonding. One of my problems is I’m in the Bible Belt, so it’s very hard to find like minded people. I had a friend, (ok she still is and always will be my friend) that we were romantic for a while. She actually lived with us and we were a thruple even. Tags changed. She met a man, and she’s committed to him. Don’t get me wrong, I’m THRILLED she found someone special, and I want nothing more than for her to be happy. Having said that, I am sad for what I’ve lost.