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in the amazing mood to self sabotage what will it be tonight

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sorry i forgot to post yesterday but i finished first day of my fast , second day almost finished in a couple of hours

it was easy but i was scared i’d end up breaking it because i went to the mall with my mom (^^;)

i have school tmrw so i think it’ll be easy

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starting a fast ! (*´･ω･) aiming for atleast 5 days then another 5 ! altogether a 10 day fast

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just found out my sw was close to being overweight for my age do not talk to me omfg i am sick 2 my stomach

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i feel like everyone hates me , i feel like i’m a complete burden to my friends and family i wish i was just normal

sometimes i wish i could just disappear and isolate myself so i don’t burden anyone anymore （´＿｀）

i’m so disgusting

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i feel like i’m gonna lose all my friends soon

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i was talking abt alc in this gc with my friends n one of my closer friends went “YOU DRINK?” n i went “no not rlly , only sometimes i just do it impulsively”

n she went “ that isn’t good … but you make it sound like you do it like it’s a normal thing which is 🤨🤨”

idk y but that rlly hit me bc no one questions me like that except her :,) i guess it shows she cares but idk it felt like it just made me realize how some of the things i do r worse than i think

idk y but sometimes i just want to ruin my life more because i hate it already ? idk . i just stopped caring for myself n my well-being

the more i think abt what i do when i’m sad or craving 2 self sabotage i feel so shitty. it’s like why am i doing this 2 myself? (´･_･`)

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getting tons of notifications from here gives me anxiety but i also feel bad for not following everyone back bc i want to make mutuals but i also don’t ( 〃．．)

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ε-(´・｀) ﾌ

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tempting to start restricting under 100 cals again when i start school in like 3 days or just constant fasting

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i’m horrified to weigh myself rn

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my guy friend that weighs around the same as me and is taller constantly calling himself fat whenever i mention i work out .. pls u r skinnier than me

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the way my body bloats so horribly after eating more than normal :,) my god i can’t imagine me like this in public

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i don’t wanna die until i reach my ugw but i also just want to die and not have to deal with this stupid disorder

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writing my suicide note but then also thinking about what if i survive.... kinda embarrassing to have family & friends read it n then me still being alive

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yesterday i told my brother i already ate and he went “yeah u overate” and laughed . what fucking went though his mind when he said that??? i’ve already told him so many times abt how i feel so guilty about eating?!!! like wow thanks !!!

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my brother took a pic of me when i wasn’t paying attention .. i look so ugly oh my god i can’t believe i look like that to people