Nique

122 lbs, 5’3, 21.7 bmi. 8.7 fat % bust=40.2” waist= 26” hips= 33.7” ////DONT REPORT!! - just block /// TW ana-sh/// 18+++

[thinbluelace]

Guess who is back :/

[thinbluelace]

I’m ate same weight I was yesterday. I’m doing this wrong

Why is it so hard to lose weight.

I’m not eating today.

No wonder he doesn’t look at me the same. I gained another 2 inches on my waist.

[thinbluelace]

I finished my walk, it ended up being only an hour but I’m going to workout later. I broke my Fitbit so I have no idea how many calories I’m burning.

[thinbluelace]

After I wake up I’m going to go for a walk and keep walking. Idk what my goal is going to be but I want to stay out of the house as long as possible as to not eat. I’ll pack a bag with my 1/4 gallon water bottle, journal, a book, no wallet so I don’t buy anything while out and ofc keys.

Next is to clean my room so I feel more inclined to work out and be productive, I’m not sure if I’m going to do that tomorrow or the next day.

My boyfriend is gone for a week so it will be easier to 5k1p m34ls and p*rg3 when I need to.

My weight as of last morning was 130lbs exactly. My lowest weight of the past few months was 119lbs. I have a lot of work to do.

I will be skini so I don’t get taken for granted. So I’m undeniably beautiful.

My f4t is the only actual unattractive thing about me besides maybe my nose and posture, appearance wise. So I’m already pretty lucky with the genetics I have, I just have to work hard to do what I can about the things I don’t like about myself.

[thinbluelace]

I was able to p*rg3 my dinner tonight, it might be a small start today with counting cals eating 630 calories excluding the dinner. It’s gross to admit but I gained 8 pounds in a month or so while binging almost every day. I’m glad it isn’t worse but I’m ashamed of myself for getting so bad.

Today was the start of new habits and starting to accomplish my goals.

I hate my thighs, stomach and arms. 5lbs away from one of my starting weights. I thought I was better.

[thinbluelace]

My rules for the month:

• 800 max calorie limit. After a week 600 calories, every week going down another 100-200 calories

• Green tea every morning, speeds metabolism and aids in healing acne.

• Go outside and stay outside, go to the library, on walks, find places to journal.

• Workout before eating it burns more calories.

• To-do-list has to be done before eating, every chore and errand.

• Drink before binging. Diet Coke, Tea, fucking huge thing of black coffee, anything before more food.

• Burn the amount of calories you eat. If you don’t want to workout don’t eat.

• Stay out of the kitchen.

• Only eat fresh foods and protein, everything else is junk. Empty calories.

• Remember you want to be better, the best. You can’t do that without putting in a lot of work.

[thinbluelace]

Remember seeing her again? Remember how skinny she looked?

Back then she wasn’t that skinny, why would you let her be better than you?

Remember when she would make comments about your body? When it was her and your old boyfriend against you?

Be better.

Why would you let yourself get so fat?

I’m worthless if I don’t lose another 10 lbs.

[thinbluelace]

This is my month. No more binging. No more snacking. Giving dieting the best fucking shot I have- one meal a day, a protein drink and tea. Two meals if it’s really bad daily limit of 800 calories.

- After a week going to 600 calories, every week going down another 100-200 calories.

- Working out everyday, either weights or cardio.

- I have a month before HOCO, I HAVE TO BE THIN OR THAT BITCH THAT USED TO BULLY ME IS JUST GONNA LAUGH AT ME.

- if I don’t lose weight by then I’m sure my boyfriend would be disgusted in me.

- Who would want to be around someone who has no chin and no waist?

- BE BETTER.

[fatgirl4evr]

fav things 2 do instead of binging/eating

*lazy edition*

my last post got some hate because there were complaints that they took too much energy which i totally get , so here are some things i like to do while i rot in bed avoiding food <3

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- organize/make playlists

i love music so so much so i love creating playlists. i use spotify because i have a subscription (personally think it’s the best but to each their own). i have many playlist that consist of music i used to listen to or songs i forgot were great and wish to never lose again. you can make a playlist for any situation. raining ? working out ? going to sleep ? getting ready ? driving or walking somewhere ? there’s always a playlist you can put on :)

- floss

i know i know it sounds kind of dumb but it’s so important. flossing helps prevent cavities and gets all the yucky stuff your toothbrush can’t reach. it also helps when visiting the dentist as deep cleanings that hurt are usually given when you don’t floss. it’s very important to take care of your teeth especially in this community. i usually just have a bag of floss picks on my bedside table and floss after i’ve brushed my teeth or even throughout the day. also the minty flavor some of them have help with cravings.

- facial exercises

even when losing a bunch of weight it can sometimes feels like you still have a double chin or have a puffy face. simple facial exercises are available and while there are some that use tools like a gua shua others don’t which is perfect if you don’t have much energy to begin with. i simply follow a tutorial on youtube since i couldn’t really stick to a routine with a gua sha. when i do skincare i also do the facial exercises while applying serum or moisturizer and waiting for it to dry.

- online shop

god i love to shop. from clothes, makeup, music, accessories or knickknacks. i usually download some apps and go from there. some allow u to organize items you like into sections others don’t it all just depends. for fashion inspo i like to go on shein for basic items like skirts, etsy is great for homemade things like bookmarks or pins or stickers and tons of jewelry, depop can be pricy sometimes it all just depends but i like to go onto others people profiles and pull inspo from them as well, ulta & sephora are great to keep track of what makeup or skincare you’d like and it’s great to see reviews of what people thought of the products beforehand. pinterest even has the option where some of your pins that are available for purchase are automatically created into a folder so you can always make your own or use the apps.

- journal/notes

i know i said this in my last post but i believe it’s important and great to have as a coping mechanism or for simple boredom. while some get into it and can sit down with a pen and their journal and write for hours others can’t and that’s okay !! when i have little to no energy i like to use my notes app as a journal :) it’s great, easy and very private. you can make your own folders and separate your regular notes from your journal entries. i like to do this a lot of the time and when i do find the inspiration write down what i have from my phone into my journal. you can lock them and unlock them with a password you set. other than journaling i like to make simple lists as well such as what makeup id like to get soon, what i need to budget with my upcoming paychecks, a cd wishlist, workout routines to try, the list goes on and on.

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i hope this helped even a little bit. i understand that our energy can be very limited in this community and hope you all stay safe. remember to take vitamins, drink water and get even just a little bit of sun everyday. stay safe 💘

[thinbluelace]

It feels like relapsing is all I’m doing lately. I hate myself and my body.

Why couldn’t I have been born to be naturally skinny.

What’s wrong with me

[thinbluelace]

My shadow looks so skini

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My dad told me he isn’t used to me being so thin :). We love being in a household where thinner is better like ong I love it

[willowingaways]

imagine how nice it’ll be when you can focus on self care and relationships instead of food.

[thinbluelace]

My skini rules:

1. Palm portion for unhealthy/ high cal meals. Nothing more than my small palm.

2. No sugar.

3. No snacking.

4. Instead of eating feelings- smoke, exercise, play video game, walk etc.

5. Always have water.

6. High fiber intake.

7. Pilates at least two times a week.

8. Walk everywhere if possible.

9. Green tea every morning.

10.

[thinbluelace]

Stretching in bed 👌

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[thinbluelace]

Fuck man fucking shit just pretend like you have some self control, be better than the people around you and don’t stuff your face. Jesus Christ. It’s a miracle how I’m 123 lbs while eating like a fucking fat ass pig. Even so I should be thinner- look better. Become the highest version of myself and exceed any and all expectations and be the most perfect human being.

I can do it. I can. I will.

Don’t let them see how insecure you are.