Not being able to write and other problems
Frustration is what I feel, not being able to write anything. I haven’t written anything in 2017. If I can’t creatively express myself, the anger will build up and I don’t want to blow up on people. Yesterday, I just realized my mom friend stopped letting me babysit her daughter because I was bisexual. Meaning after I came out, she gave all the babysitting jobs to my brother (The worst babysitter). I forgive her just like I forgive the rest of humanity for eating animals. I really want to start a youtube channel but it’s almost like who would watch. I filled out this application to volunteer and of course, my mother disapproves( of the volunteering). Right now, I tried just about everything to get myself to write. The thing is if I schedule the time to write, I will feel guilty for not studying. maybe I should make a youtube channel but like for my video diary type thing. I literally can’t think of anything else but my chilled oats.









