Things I Have Thought

Randomness that probably makes zero sense Z xe/xem/xyr Aro Ace 18+

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Me, an aroace, realizing that trying to decide if someone looks attractive or not almost always comes down to weather I think their hair cut/style/color looks cool

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Me: Maybe I don’t actually fit ADHD traits

Also me: *has 3 different audio sources and laying in a single room*

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My handwriting has this weird quirk where I randomly switch between 2 differnt styles of lower case t with no discernible pattern. I don't have any idea where it came from, but the best part is that it pisses my friend off every time she sees my writing

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The punishment of needing timers and alarms to remember to do basically anything, but also being jumpscared by them daily

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Nothing makes your arms feel weak like holding them above your head long enough to French braid your own hair

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Currently going about my life one minor inconvenience away from being able to, but not necessarily forced, to start crying

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Realizing that it is in fact a spicy brain day as I am watching a stream vod on my tv, prime video on my tablet and also crocheting, all at the same time

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Looking back at my actions and the amount of time I’ve spent analyzing my own thoughts and self, wondering how it took me so long to realize that I am most likely autistic

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My skin feels wrong because I need to shower, but I keep avoiding it because my skin already feels wrong and showering will make it wrong in a different way before making it better.

I would also like to point out that my parents were wrong, I’m an adult now and I still hate bathing just as much as I did as a kid

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I don’t know what it means, but I’m currently making kool aid and popcorn for dinner, so I doubt it’s anything good

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As a very anxious person, can we please abolish the idea of holding doors open for people if they don’t explicitly ask. Just shove it back open as you walk through.

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Based on the amount of drama TV shows cover over romantic relationships, I should be able to put aromantic as a additional positive trait to find a job and make friends.

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Binary trans people are pretty much the only reason that I actually believe that gender exists

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I knew how to cook when I was like 10, but I haven’t learned much more since then and I’m realizing that I can only cook like 3 things

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The struggle between I think that would look good on someone else, I think that could look good on my body, and I would actually want to wear that

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When you start a depressive drop, but it’s already like 21, so you just watch mindless stream content for an hour to block it out and you think you curbed it, but it ends up as an anxiety rise instead

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As an agender person, I wish that I should shape shift to match my moods. A masculine body today, a feminine body tomorrow, and a blank humanoid slab for the rest of eternity