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Angela | just a college freshman trying to get by

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Entry #3 - Nine In The Afternoon - 9/19/2017

Oh, today was fantastic. Philosophy being my only class on Tuesdays and Thursdays is always a plus. We had another PRIDE club meeting today, and even though Max didn’t go, I did, and I sat with Alba and Xavier and Jade while we watched a 9-year-old video of a drag show the college put on then. 

That was great in its own right, but then after we ran out of time, the four of us got food and went back to Alba and Jade’s suite and just... chilled and ate food until I left at midnight because I still had (still have) homework to do. For the first time in a long time I didn’t feel like a burden around relatively new people.

Also Gina came to our room earlier to have a quiet place to study. Max was at a class, so Gina hid under their bed and for the longest time Max didn’t even notice until Gina threw a pen at them.

Also, I had another heart-to-heart with Sean. Those are always wonderful.

Lyrics: “Back to the place Where we used to say Man it feels good to feel this way Now I know what I mean”

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Entry #2 - I Miss You - 9/18/2017

I was walking out of lunch to go to chemistry... I saw Xavier from far away but i was pretty sure it was him - tall, lanky, the haircut - but I wasn’t sure for a little bit. Well, he turned and saw me - still far away - and waved at me. I waved back, of course. It’s nice not being so alone here anymore. He’s so nice...

Also I went on a 9pm Wegman’s run with Gina, Max and Tony, got some Ramune, soap, tea, pocky (tried Matcha flavor for the first time!!! So good!!!)... but it wasn’t so great when the lady driving the shuttle got mad at the group of us for needing a different drop-off place than she was supposed to go apparently, even tho it’s only the start of the fourth week and we’re all freshmen...

But chem lab was nice and short at least!! And I got my hoodies in the mail today which was just what I needed after a lot of anxiety over Tom being off of kik for so long the “disconnected” memo came up... those weren’t feeling I wanted to relive. 

Dani and Gavin broke up. Easily the most surprising part of the day. I... I still can’t believe it.

When Tom finally came back on kik he apologized for being so busy for the past several days... he called me “love”...<3 god i miss him. 

Also one more thing, I emailed Mr. Mesi earlier, telling him how much I appreciated him teaching us how to work Excel so much in school. He emailed back, and his reply was really sweet.

Lyrics: “Where are you? And I'm so sorry I cannot sleep I cannot dream tonight I need somebody and always This sick strange darkness Comes creeping on so haunting every time”

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Entry #1 - Sloom - 9/16/2017

I was in the bathroom on my floor and had a few minutes until my laundry was dry, and I was about to head to it. I go to open the bathroom door to go back into the hallway and that girl Allyson from my Chem Lab was on the other side, opening it first to enter the bathroom. We talked for a bit in class, and she remembered me I think.

She smiled, and I smiled. We both laughed a little. Then I walked to get my laundry which was finished at the perfect time.

Lyrics: “I met a man today and he smiled back at me Now there are thoughts like these that keep me on my feet, That keep me on my feet.”