This_is_me

Just a girl - depressed & reading smut

[poeticpicturism]

[this-is-me-3]

I think I’ve been masking for long that I forgot what joy feels like. Happiness. A calm sense of nothing because I’m content in life.

Instead all I feel is anger

All I am now is anger

[this-is-me-3]

I’m so tired of being discarded.

Why am I not worth it?

[wistfullycountry]

Sam | @nomadic.sam 

[wistfullycountry]

Kevin Hense 

[wistfullycountry]

Matthias | @matthi.gui 

[wistfullycountry]

Kevin Hense 

[travel-story]

[bestviralposts]

EVERYDAY 

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[this-is-me-3]

Rage

Blinding rage

All I ever fucking feel is rage

[this-is-me-3]

at what point in my life will I stop believing people when they ask to know the real me…

No one actually wants to know the real me…

I try

I laugh at their jokes.

I ask them questions about themselves.

I remember the stories and details of their lives.

I’m in a room full of people and feel alone…

• • •

I always feel alone

Maybe I’m better off alone

[wistfullycountry]

Manuel Dietrich 

[tackled]

[this-is-me-3]

Another day.

Hating who I am

•••

Maybe one day I’ll smile again

Maybe one day I’ll laugh again

Maybe one day I’ll feel joy again

Maybe one day I’ll be her again

Maybe.

Maybe.

Maybe.

Or maybe she’s dead and this is me

[this-is-me-3]

I’m dying inside

Im nothing but anger

The old me is dead.

I don’t like this new version

[this-is-me-3]

I’m angry again.

I’m always fucking angry.

It’s 4am, you’re awake, and I’m angry.

I wanted this. To be a mom. To take care of someone. To be a wife.

I got what I wanted and yet, here I am. Angry again that this is my life.

That this is all my life will ever be.

this all I will ever be.

I’m sorry.

[this-is-me-3]

Redownloaded tumblr after a few years.

Scrolled my old page…

Glad to know I’m still depressed & anxious ✌🏽

But we be vibing anyway