themeatpoet

19, sometimes i write professional lurker

[urmomisabeefjerky]

first post

heyyy, a new-ish account for my new fandom interests lol, feels a little weird to have such a fresh feed again.

I guess about me: name's Beef on here, i'm 19 and I like to write poetry but it's so depressing nowadays I can't really post it on my other account cuz ✨Vibes✨ 😭

a fun fact about me is that I lowkey forget about all social media except tumblr and tiktok, so I'm usually not in the terrible sides of any fandom!

anyway pls follow me if you enjoy

sad poetry,

bad poetry,

HR & Game Changers/hollanov,

Detroit Become Human,

Marvel - rn i'm locked in on Thor,

Star Wars,

stsg/jjk,

grandmaster of demonic cultivation,

supernatural,

doctor who,

sherlock,

merlin,

good omens,

Epic the Musical,

hamilton,

So Many Others,,,,

AND are not a minor 🦚

and a partridge in a pear tree 😂

(my account is NOT meant for under 18s pls and thank you)

also for tags:

#ymibj is my personal tag, so any reposts that I actually comment on, regular posts, hollanov thoughts, original poetry, and my thoughts on my own poetry is what you can find under that tag. all of the posts will usually have fandom appropriate tags!

#beef asks is my shiny new tag for any asks I receive & will also have my personal tag. PLEASE SEND ME ASKS I WILL TALK ABOUT LITERALLY ANYTHING TRUSTTTT 🤞🏽🤞🏽🤞🏽🤞🏽

anyway, everything else is literally reposts cuz everyone's brains are so delicious lmao

right now im on a hollanov kick, but eventually my other interests Will pop up if anyone asks about them or if I go back

[blanklier]

i think ilya and shane should have post-cup sex where they're so drunk and exhausted that they fall asleep without separating or cleaning up and they're so tired but pent up that ilya ends up humping into shane while he's having a wet dream, and shane obviously has a wet dream of his own and is drooling over being fucked. anyway fully asleep sex where they wake up after ilya has come inside shane at least once in the night and shane's been dripping so much precome that there's a wet spot on the bed

[cannissmajor]

doodles of how i imagine shane and ilya will look in season 2! the concept of the show being set in my hometown makes me feel dizzy i can’t believe ottawa is cool now. lmk if you have any questions about ottawa because i’m unfortunately an expert.

[russianblush]

the face of a man ready to drive two hours with a butt plug in his ass anticipating the best dicking down of his life

[rachfic222]

something i don't see talked about a lot but always makes me emotional on re-reads of tlg is the fact that even after shane is unwillingly outed to the world, and as a direct result:

unjustly suspended from his job

condemned by one of his best friends

condemned by his teammates

dissected by the media

threatened by the commissioner

accused of cheating at the sport he has dedicated his whole life to; and

raked over the coals for a true accident

he STILL goes to watch ilya play

without question or concern, he sits in the audience to watch ilya in round 2 alongside the team that just kicked him out of the playoffs and caused tripgate

he spends tlg in debilitating fear over the possibility of someone figuring them out and goes to such extreme lengths to keep that from happening that he doesn't even have a photograph to show for an 11-year relationship

but still, ilya mentions he can get tickets for shane and his parents to come see him play and shane doesn't spend a second worrying it may fuel rumours, bring unwanted attention to his relationship, put him in a generally uncomfortable position - he actually brightens at the suggestion and then happily sits in the audience to cheer ilya on 😭

[raspberrytartt]

Once again a niche pet peeve of mine in the heated rivalry fandom but when people say Shane was traded to Ottawa I get sooooo annoyed. He was NOT traded. He became an Unrestricted Free Agent (UFA) and signed with Ottawa. Those two things are quite different, especially in terms of what that means the Montreal Org was doing. Pleaseeeee stop saying he was traded.

[julsbeinggay]

Shane Hollander every few weeks after tlg

[vesnuszki]

do you ever think about how eyes are literally miracles of nature capturing rays of light and turning them into brain signals and it allows us to perceive so many wonderful things for example the canadian government funded hockey yaoi and shane hollander bouncing on it over and over and over and

[gaynehollander]

I think a big part of what makes Shane so incredibly compelling as a character is that he doesn’t give into stereotypes that have been perpetuated for so long that many people don’t even recognise them as anything out of the ordinary when they see them. Like, he’s autistic but he is shown to have deep connections to the people closest to him, he’s shown to be a person whose opinion is respected, he’s shown to be a person people are actively drawn to and want to be around, he’s shown to be funny and, yes, a little bitchy. He’s submissive but he’s never weak. He’s a top athlete who’s competative to a fault, never cowers from a challenge, and is a natural leader, and none of those facts are shown to be in conflict with his longing and need to submit. He’s a bottom but he’s overtly masculine, he’s physically large and unafraid to take up space; unafraid to push back. He’s a full fucking person and that is so refreshing to see, especially for those who share some of his traits and have only ever been allowed a representation of themselves that reduces them to that one trait, washing them of anything that adds nuance.

[bipolar4autistic]

It’s crazy cuz when Shane is like guys I think everyone will hate me if I come out everyone is like (gaslighting him) Shane. You’re literally gaslighting yourself right now. This will not happen. And then when it happens Shane is like SEE??? and everyone is like Shane it’s so crazy that we all hate you now. It’s completely your fault. You should have said something Shane. If you had just told us sooner about the thing we hate you for we would hate you so much less.

[bipolar4autistic]

It’s crazy cuz when Shane is like guys I think everyone will hate me if I come out everyone is like (gaslighting him) Shane. You’re literally gaslighting yourself right now. This will not happen. And then when it happens Shane is like SEE??? and everyone is like Shane it’s so crazy that we all hate you now. It’s completely your fault. You should have said something Shane. If you had just told us sooner about the thing we hate you for we would hate you so much less.

[actuallysara]

shane hollander is a jock, a dude, a 200 pounds man, a captain, he's been giving interviews and speeches before he could even walk, he plays in front of thousands and thousands of people and loud af crowds, he's a performer, he's constantly in front of cameras, he's been under scrutiny his whole life, he's an athlete, he breathes-eats-sleeps-shits sport, he swears, he's masculine, his hockey gear is probably putrid, he's a certified mcgymbro™, he only wears athletic stuff, he models, he does commercials, his main personality trait is hockey, he's kissed and hugged by his sweaty teammates in the locker room, he's ripped, he's an asshole, he's sarcastic, he's a bitch, he uses "fuck" every three words, he hires a stylish and a designer because his taste is bro. and he is all that while being neurodivergent too.

[shieldofiron]

Ilya: You think I do not know this? I am listening to him at a high rate.

[aaliyahsparrow]

"Lost in the Moment", Ilya Rozanov & Shane Hollander [Connor Storrie & Hudson Williams] from Heated Rivalry, part of an art exchange with @eggchayi

Jun 2026

Isolated images, watercolour textures and overlays, overlines drawn by hand, simple and what I wanted from this moment

Please do not repost my images to other sites

[ilyapasta]

One thing I don’t often see discussed in relation to the scene after the episode 4 Vegas hook-up is Ilya’s depression. He has always been someone with depressive tendencies.

When Ilya gives Shane the cold goodbye after the Vegas hookup, I like how Shane is not only disappointed by no kiss, he’s also pretty visibly like “this is fucking bullshit, man” about the way he nods and is all huffy with his arms while he walks out. Because it is bullshit! Get your naked ass out there and make a joke Rozanov! Kiss him sweetly but with venom on your teeth and make Shane go “fuck off” and then say “I think you’ll be back for more Hollander.”

But he doesn’t. Because Ilya has mental health issues that won’t fully emerge until years later, when he knows Shane loves him and he knows he’s safe from the real and perceived dangers that haunt him. And his issues won’t be cured by that love, or by leaving Russia, or by coming out, or by winning at hockey. Ilya will always be in danger of falling into that comfortable space of low self-worth and grief.

He grieves for his mother every time he’s low about something unrelated (see his dreams in TLG). He grieves for tragedies that haven’t yet befallen them (Shane won’t come outside to meet his mother in his dreams). He wonders if he deserves anything that makes him happy: kissing Shane, holding Shane, talking with Shane and leaning on him.

And in that moment in Vegas, the same Shane that later loves Ilya is right there. He’s the same Shane, albeit one with less self-acceptance. He’s lying there with vodka he hates offering a friendly listening ear. If Ilya doesn’t want to talk, he could kiss Shane’s beautiful lips instead with all the emotion he’s suppressing and let himself be comforted that way, but Ilya’s instinct is to deny himself such comforts. He’ll figure this out on his own and the next time Hollander sees him he won’t be so fucking high maintenance, and Hollander won’t ask so many questions. He’ll be nothing but the fun guy everyone loves to hate and Shane’s perfect fantasy. And he does this again in the Long Game, but this time he’ll be Shane’s perfect boyfriend, if only Shane would be quiet and stop prying and let Ilya work out this bullshit on his own.

He’s depressed. He thinks he can brute force his way out of it. And I think it’s important that the story reveals that early.

[actuallysara]

Hudson Williams interviewed at the 2026 Run N Gun Film Festival | July 4, 2026

[finny-red]

Summer sketch ☀️