depressed bitch

i don't promote self harm, suicide, or any mental health issues. if you need help id recommend getting help from a therapist. stay strong ppl💖

[strwb3rrii]

At first I was like, "my scars are valid"

*sees someone else's scars*

"I need to cvt more and go deeper tf"

[this-is-why-i-cut]

Man I forgot how this felt. Idk why I stopped, idk why I started again. I just don’t know, I don’t know why I did this but I want to keep going. I want to keep doing it, but maybe if I just get my fill tonight I can start over. Idk what to do

[this-is-why-i-cut]

Tonight I relapsed.

[this-is-why-i-cut]

One of those hair plastered to my face by dried tears and staring at the ceiling kind of nights

[this-is-why-i-cut]

I know you don’t think about how I used to cut, but I think about it every day. I’ve told you I want to do it, but for you, if it’s out of sight, it’s out of mind. I think you care but you don’t check in. Unless I bring it up you assume I’m fine and it hurts that you can’t see that I’m not okay. I wish you could understand

[this-is-why-i-cut]

I am so tired of this. I can’t keep doing this. You’re the love of my life but I feel like you hate me. You get frustrated so easy and I need someone who is patient because I can’t help that I’m so insecure. I know you don’t want me and that’s okay but I wish you wouldn’t pretend. It makes me feel like I’m crazy and I can’t do it anymore. Please just love me again. I feel so alone

[this-is-why-i-cut]

I don’t think you know how close I am to giving up. I am so close to going 3 years without cutting but I feel so bad and exhausted and drained and sad and I just want to cut. Please notice how much I’m struggling because I can’t do it alone anymore but I’m too embarrassed to ask for help.

[abnormall]

[this-is-why-i-cut]

Every time I speak I feel stupid and I feel like you hate me

[this-is-why-i-cut]

I miss you every. single. day.

It hurts not to have you by my side.

I’m so sick of constantly craving you.

Please don’t be far for long, I can’t take it.

[this-is-why-i-cut]

I don’t know if I have relapsed or not. I haven’t cut but I’ve been bruising my arms and burning with lighters. I don’t know if I should count this as a relapse or if I have to see blood to consider it relapsing

[bichiyall]

I love you but this love is killing me

0 days clean

[this-is-why-i-cut]

I’m sorry but it’s true

[pretty-boy13]

struggling

[happpy-thoughts]

Imagine getting insecure and jealous that your self harm cuts aren’t as deep and severe as other people’s??? What the fuck is wrong with me.

[this-is-why-i-cut]

Sometimes I just don’t know how to help you. And I feel so useless and I feel like you hate me because I can’t make you better but I just don’t know what to do

[this-is-why-i-cut]

You are the most amazing thing that has ever happened to me and I’m just waiting for you to be taken away

[queerlysad]

Relapse

[traintracks-for-wrists]

Self harm is confusing because…

You don’t want to cut but then you do,

And you want to stop but you can’t.

You wish you had, but you didn’t,

And You say it won’t happen again… but it will