You Should Have Never Existed 💔

||Finny|| ||Pronouns??? I don’t even feel real|| ❌🤍❌ 🚫DO NO CONTACT ME IF YOU ARE UNDER THE AGE OF 18 I AM NOT COMFORTABLE TALKING TO MINORS🚫 🚫NOT A FUCKING AESTHETICS BLOG🚫 🤍❌🤍 Vent blog of a mentally ill person. Ok to reblog anything I post idc. >>Unless you’re a fucking “transmed” then fuck off you contribute to my suffering and I fucking hate you<< ❌🤍❌ My own personal slice of hell, this is not a happy place. I’m not tagging triggers this blog is for me. I pretty much only post when I’m having a mental breakdown/panic attack. 🤍❌🤍 If I stop posting for more than a couple of months just assume I’m dead ❌🤍❌ ✨Medication didn’t work.✨ ✨Therapy didn’t work.✨ 🤍❌🤍 There never was a real me Only the sickness

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Can everyone please shut the fuck up, there is no fixing me. It will never be ok.

Your words are fucking empty.

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Genuinely think I’m on the verge of becoming an alcoholic....

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My blog will probably be gone soon. Oh well.

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It’s really sad this blog is the most successful thing I’ll ever make lol

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Oh fuck I hate myself

Oh god oh fuck

I just want to rip my skin off and become someone else

I’m trapped I can’t escape

I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself

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I want to be anyone else so fucking bad.

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I cannot stop thinking about hurting myself, I just wanna grab my skin and tear it off, rip out my sides and bleed to death.

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I feel literally not earthly connection to this planet. If I died it wouldn’t effect anyone. I have no close family, the family I do have could care less. No close friendships no casual acquaintances or online friends.

No one.

I’ve been alone for so fucking long I don’t want to be here anymore.

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I’ve been having intrusive thoughts about stabbing myself in the stomach all fucking month and I so fucking close to just snapping and doing it. I fucking hate myself so fucking much it’s so hard to resist the urge to fucking destroy myself.

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Is there a way for me to forget everything that’s happened in my life?

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Trying to resist the urge to hurt myself. It feels like spiders are crawling on my skin. I want to do it so fucking bad.

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I destroy every relationship I’m ever part of

There’s no use trying anymore

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I hate myself I want to hurt myself again. I’m so alone and I did it to myself. I don’t know how to interact with people anymore. I can’t be alone with myself this is agony. How do adults make friends???

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I still feel like that scared little kid sitting at my door listening to my mom getting abused.

I’m trapped in time and I don’t know how to move on and it’s eating away at me, I don’t know how to be better and I don’t think I ever will

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I wish I had the capability to interact with other people I’m so fucking lonely. I can’t even stand myself so no wonder I’m so fucking alone.

I’m a fucking failure I hate myself

I’m going to die alone and it’s all my fault

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I’m so fucking worthless I’m never going to get better it hurts so fucking much

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Sometimes I wonder what would happen after I kill myself?

Would it be announced on the news?

Who would go to my funeral?

Who would even actually care?

No

What would people say about me?

“it was inevitable”

“Fucking loser”

“Good riddance”

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Would it make the people that tormented me feel guilty?

No They Wouldn’t But I Wish It Would