i'm so lost.

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Just wanted to cuddle. Maybe have sex. Feel like you maybe miss me. I'm tired.

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Why can't you just call that place? Show some fucking effort? Don't try to tell me it's hard. I've had to take that step, multiple times. I did it two years ago when you left me. You're leading me on and I am devastated by it. You can't be in my life, not like this.

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You should have already called the therapy people. Or looked for someone. I was extremely depressed when you left me, but this isn't bothering you. I caved again. I let you still see me and be bear me so you haven't bothered with your issues. So that's going to stop. If I am not worth any of that, you aren't worth my time.

[livingfortherainydays]

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I can't ... Three aren't words to describe this. I should have don't it earlier. I had the perfect opportunity. I made excuses. No more.

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Today just keeps getting better and better.

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I have never felt ... There isnt a way to describe this.

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Who the fuck is shannon and why is there a screenshot of you talking to her at 11 pm but her contact information iznt in your phone?

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I will never understand men and porn/sex. You have a more than willing wpman practically begging to screw you but you'd much rather get off to shit you see in videos. Like, sorry I am a real life person who can't do that shit. Or that isnt a BBW choking on huge cock. Or a white girl getting demolished by BBC. Maybe if you spent more time with me, we're even fake interested in me, we'd have more creative and fun sex. All I think about now is not wanting to move out because I am going to come home to fun filled towels/masturbation all the time or some white girl will be in my bed.

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You have a streak with her. And talking to her at almost 1130 at night. Because why exactly? You're really fucking puching the limits and I am not in a ppace where any shit should be happening. But God forbid you lose attention from someone so you can make me happy and comfortable. You continuously talk to a gemale you've expressively said you dont like. That shes bothersome and we've already had problems before. I WILL leave you, I don't have any more patience or anger to help.

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I feel less sure about us everyday.

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Apparently, I'm suddenly not sex worthy? Weeks ago, when you were conveniently sick, were good to have sex, you wanted to be flirty. Then you were flirty when I was sick. Now, NOTHING. We haven't had sex in like 9 weeks. And I'm sure you've jacked right off. Must be nice not to be in pain. Or want to feel wanted. Or have to ask condone else to make you feel nice.

[imtiredofactingokay]

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Something I’ve learned is that you can’t be dependent on anyone. Ever.

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It really fucking sucks tp be the fucking person that cares so damn much. The person who bothers listening to others wants and needs. The person who goes broke making sire everyone has what they want and need. The person who everyone comes to for support and advice. Everyone takes and takes but fuck me when its time to give back. I dont ask for shit. Ever. And even the one day a year I am selfish, I still dont fucking ask for much. Im just as important to these fucks as trash. As leftover food that isnt good warmed up. But god forbid I say I want to die or move right?

[imtiredofactingokay]

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And maybe ... You haven't cheated on me with that phone. I don't have to worry about if old things are saved. Is a fresh start there. Something ONLY I should ever be on. No more females.