To feel the music that enters my ears flowing throughout my body.
To find unexpected emotions from a piece of art.
To feel the warmth of a sunrise.
To gaze at the stars and let my mind run free.
To be excited to be around someone.
To miss them when they’re gone.
To push my body to its limits.
To set new goals, reach them and set more.
To find my next purpose in life.
To love life in all its aspects.
Something died in me. Perhaps it was by my own hands. Where a fire once burned there has been a pile of ashes growing colder with each day. But recently... recently it seems a warmth has began to grow. Somewhere deep in these ashes where I thought there was nothing but a cold darkness, I have felt a warmth. Seen a very dim light. I am doin my best to hold on to this light. To give it oxygen. Feed it small twigs and straw. Where my days were filled with this empty sadness and my nights were filled with demons reminding me that life, as I had once known it, was over, I have found myself thinking happy thoughts. Dreams filled with what could be. I’m starting to think that there is still hope. I’m starting to think this awful place that I’ve been in so long was just a storm and that storm is coming to an end. I find myself feeling excitement again. Believing in magic again. Believing in myself again. Maybe this view on life will be short lived. Maybe my demons are just playing their damnest trick thus far. But they’ve made a mistake. I’m going to climb out of this pit. Paddle away from this storm as long as it takes until I feel the sun on my face again. Who am I to give up. Who am I to give in. I have so much to be thankful for and so many opportunities right there in front of me. Pray for me. Please. And I’ll make sure to pray for you. Pray that I can love myself and this life once more and I’ll pray the same for you. <3
snowghoul
gracieabrams
vaporwave
2087
