Those Wandering Thoughts of Mine

here to wish to was dead and post some random thiinspo ! 20 ! she/her ! 5'6 !

[ap0calypsee-deactivated20240316]

repost to have a thigh gap by the end of the month

[lostmf]

I am losing sight of reasons to not kill my self

[thosewanderingthoughtsofmine]

okay finally free from hell of having to study and need brain function. we’re on the grind now! i just want to be thin. and im going to do it. my mom literally bought me diet pills like 😀👍

[butt3rflyb0n3s]

don’t you want to be so effortless ? so pretty and graceful without trying or ever second guessing ? 🦋

[sleeping-horrors]

why is it that when i add a new texture pack to my thighs it isn’t painful, but when my uterus decides to remind me that I get no bitches it feels like my life is ending

[wellwaterhysteria]

not only do i put a little line through my 7s but i put one through my Zs too. i’m sick and twisted. you’re never getting out of this network of caves alive.

[lowcalcartoons]

Crowded gyms make me nervous, but also kinda motivates me to work out harder.

I go to the gym after work often and when it’s crowded I get so nervous to do anything, but at the same time thinking all these people are staring at me makes me want to work out harder so they see home many calories I can burn.

It’s almost like I’m secretly competing with everyone here. Like if I get on the treadmill at the same time as someone else I have to stay on longer or I fail? Like it’s weird.

[a1exasrave]

I just know the only way I'll ever be loved is if I'm skinny

[aspiring-to-wisdom-inactive-dea]

Idemromantic

A subset of gray romanticism (“between aromantic and alloromantic”).

Idem means “the same” in Latin.

TL;DR: Internally experiences romantic and platonic attraction similarly; categorizes relationships and feelings as romantic or platonic based on factors other than presence or lack of romantic attraction

Definition: Categorizes relationships and feelings as platonic or romantic but experiences no notable internal differences. They may categorize certain relationships as romantic instead of platonic based on age, personality compatibility, emotional closeness, ease of living together, presence of sexual attraction, or other factors. But their feelings toward their romantic interests would not be particularly distinguishable from platonic feelings and may be similar to how they feel for a best friend or beloved family member. They may pursue platonic, quasiplatonic, romantic, or no relationships.

Idem can be a modifier (“I’m idem-homoromantic”) or its own thing (“I’m idemromantic”). “Idemro” is the shortened version (as well as “grayro”).

Metacommentary below the cut for whiners.

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[perivoidant-deactivated20170525]

What separates this from quoiromantic, wtfromantic, or platoniromantic?

[lesbiandoe]

Okay I typed up a response to this but google chrome did the thing where the notification box kept coming up and I had to shut it down, but I screencapped my answer:

[dmnsqrl]

this is me except where it just says “But their feelings toward their romantic interests would not be particularly distinguishable from platonic feelings and may be similar to how they feel for a best friend or beloved family member.” for me it’s just as fitting to say “but their feelings towards their closest friends would not be particularly distinguishable from romantic feelings and may be similar to how they feel for a romantic interest”

edited to add: I mean…… due to my upbringing and assigned/assumed gender I’ve had FAR MORE of my life spent in romantic-defined relationships than in close friend-defined relationships…. something I am trying to change currently

[thosewanderingthoughtsofmine]

this specifically in the sense that i can see myself married to my friends and i can’t feel any different than a person i desire to marry but i recognize that my friend considers me a friend and that our relationship is not one in which marriage is compatible but i can consider it and idk if that explain anything 😭

[aspiring-to-wisdom-inactive-dea]

Idemromantic

A subset of aromanticism or gray romanticism.

Idem means “the same” in Latin.

Definition: Does not internally experience romantic and platonic attraction differently. Distinguishes between romantic and platonic based on other factors.

Explanation: Idemromantic people categorize their interest in others as romantic instead of platonic based on age, personality compatibility, emotional closeness, ease of living together, presence of sexual attraction, or other factors. However, their feelings toward their romantic interests would not be particularly distinguishable from platonic feelings and may be similar to how they feel for a best friend or beloved family member. They may pursue platonic, quasiplatonic, romantic, or no relationships.

Idem can be a modifier (“I’m idem-homoromantic”) or its own thing (“I’m idemromantic”). “Idemro” is the shortened version (as well as “grayro”).

Comparisons to other romantic orientations and metacommentary for whiners below the cut.

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[catatonic-ghost-deactivated2023]

i love yall but kms is looking like a real good option rn

[imsodunwiththis-deactivated2025]

Has anyone ever found out why they wanted to kill themselves for no reason?

[kittykatkatprotector]

I want to kill myself thank you for asking

[oatspo-deactivated20230205]

my biggest motivation right now is knowing no one would believe that i starve myself

[crazedcammie-deactivated2022120]

𝙷𝚞𝚗𝚐𝚛𝚢 𝚝𝚘 𝚋𝚎𝚍, 𝙷𝚞𝚗𝚐𝚛𝚢 𝚝𝚘 𝚛𝚒𝚜𝚎, 𝙼𝚊𝚔𝚎𝚜 𝚊 𝚐𝚒𝚛𝚕 𝚜𝚖𝚊𝚕𝚕𝚎𝚛 𝚊 𝚜𝚒𝚣𝚎

[bowybowy]

junkorexics and pickyeaters i love you. people who fluctuate between calorie sizes or binge a lot i love you. people who can fast for several days straight and people who cant because of the people around you i love you. those who are so close to your ugw and those who are lightyears away i love you. the amount you struggle shouldnt determine if ur ed really exists

[thosewanderingthoughtsofmine]

saw those trends where they draw on their scars and i thought id do the same. ive never felt more like a depressed queer scientist than this moment 😭😭also pretty sure my mentor saw bc i wasn’t being careful.