i want to believe that jesus knows whatās going on and sees the future. that he has me here for a reason. i came here under false pretenses and feel scammed. i feel worthless almost, like i came here to get pregnant and get married⦠and he keeps pushing it off and saying let me think about it.
this guy. ugh, iām crying almost every day. i feel ive made a terrible mistake. i really hope this will turn out good for me in the end. i dont like living here anymore i want to live with my mom again.











