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FUUUCK. I have no right to feel this way.

I'm too curious. Or too worried. One of these.

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Does it mean anything that it feels so personal somehow or is it just a shitty situation that I'm thinking about and don't know how to handle?

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The fact that my therapist advised me to think about moving out some time soon and that I.. Casually talked about it to my mom but not giving her details until she asks makes me uncomfortable...

Since I told her a bit and didnt want to lie and she was like "oh, so about.. Finding your identity? That.. Would be okay I would understand."

I don't think she sounded particularly hurt or worried but.. I'm afraid that she is in some way? And the fact that the theme was just over then just makes me even more nervous :(

Anyway, I should probably not overthink it and if there's anything she will/should talk to me..

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Sometimes it's hard to believe how long you know a person. It can be 5 years and feel like you just met them. Just got introduced to that warmth and positive energy. Like these years just flew past you in the blink of an eye, because "time flies by when it's most beautiful"

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Last weekend someone misheard my name when I introduced myself and called me "Luca" instead and idk if I'm having a gender crisis or???

[abinderreview]

How to put on a gc2b binder (x)

Put in your arms and head.

 When it won’t go any furhter down (beacuse of you shouders) pull it over one shoulder at a time (i realized i did it a bit fast in the video so it’s a bit unclear that i take it down over the right shoulder first, it’s a bit clearer with the left).

Now the binder is all curled up above your chest. Find the edge in the back and unfurl it.

Take the edge of the front panel and pull it down over your chest.

Adjust the back piece 

You can adjust the breat tissue by lifting the front panel slightly and moving stuff around If it’s your first time putting on a binder remember to be certain that it is you size and not to small. I paniced when i put on my for the first time because it was very tight. If you find yourself panicing, stuck in your binder, remember to breathe deeply to relax yourself. Take it of and try again when you’ve calmed down. to take it of you do the same thing in reverse order

pull/roll up the front panel

pull it over one shoulder at a time

pull it of You can find my review of the gc2b half binder –here– and pictures of it – here–, --here– and --here– gc2b binders are quality chest binders designed with safety in mind. You can find their website –here–

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Fuck

Have I been spoiled by my best friend and just expect answers to everything now or am I just not in a good place and anxious

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Remember when I thought I have finally figured out my sexuality and gender?

SIKE

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Bro, am I sad or just annoyed. Uff

Maybe anxious

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Reminder:

Rest isn't a luxury, it is a necessity.

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Sobbing while looking at pictures of fictional characters is totally normal, right?

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[audiovisual-dept]

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The non-binary struggle

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I'm the type of person who gets angry at someone because they are so damn

✨Beautiful✨

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I feel like i shouldn't be sad

My surroundings are optimal

I have great friends.

Do i deserve to be sad?

I know i should allow myself to be, but sometimes it feels like a "no"

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Can somebody explain the phenomen of me talking a loot and freely screaming about anything only partly feeling annoying at the beginning and then as closer as one gets the more afraid of being annoying I get? Even tho I’m getting reminded that i can rant about anything i can any time and am not to worry

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I figured it out

It's called anxiety