Random Rants

Sometimes you just gotta rant in order to be heard.

[chained-heart-deactivated202311]

and i think the sad part is that i know there’s nothing i can do to change how you are. i can’t change your responses. i can’t change how much effort you put in. i can’t change your perception of me. i like you; i really do. i really want to spend more time with you and see you more often and talk to you a whole lot more. i want to be the person who makes your day better when you’re having a bad one. i want to be that person there for you, and i want you to be that person for me. but i can’t make that happen no matter how hard i try, no matter how much i wish to. and i’m trying to accept that now, so i won’t keep disappointing myself, even though i know i’ll always have a little hope for you, even though i know you’ll always hurt me no matter what.

@wordsbreathe c / i wish it were different with you

[thoughtsfromthemind54]

We live in a world where bad shit always happens. It’s inevitable. If bad things have not happened to you, they will soon. I’m not meaning to sound like “Debbie downer” over here but it’s true. Bad things tend to happen.

So you lost your job? I understand how upsetting that is. I’ve lost a few jobs in my life, (by few I mean all) When you lose a job you lose the confidence you once had in yourself. Most people lose all the income they had. You tend to bust ass for a job that would literally replace you after one hospital visit.

We also live in a world where money is legit everything. Without money you have no food, no place to live, and no way to get places to make money. You are literally caught in a vicious cycle where you just end up dying in the end. My point is? When it comes to your mental health, a job can’t compare to importance.

Don’t make yourself sick over one or more jobs, because I guarantee you that once you get sick, they will drop you.

[thoughtsfromthemind54]

Random rants.

we live in a world where people suffer from mental illnesses. Just like any other illness in the world it’s as real as you and me. A mental illness is a medical condition where the mind is disrupted by very unkind words that eat at our own soul.

The way something can change your way of thinking, eating, mood, and your well being, should be considered a serious issue. A lot of people Categorize people with a mental disorder as “crazy” or “psycho,” which doesn’t do anyone any good. Some people even tell us “it’s all in your head, you don’t really suffer from anxiety.” It’s like telling someone who broke their arm to just “rub some dirt on it.” I know what you are thinking, what is this girl talking about? Who would say those things? But believe me as one person I have had a lot of people tell me that my mental illness is all in my head.

Did you know that in 2016, roughly 44 million percent of people between 18 or even older were diagnosed with a mental illness, that’s not counting the 49 million percent of young teens that were diagnosed with a mental disorder. Now, read that again. We live in a world where these these things are real! People really do hear voices that tell them what to do, or how to think, and that’s their reality, so why not talk about it? 1 out of 5 adults are living with mental illness.

“Why don’t they get help?” You ask? Well many people are afraid to seek help for the fact that there is a big stigma on mental disorders in fact about 60 percent of adults don’t receive any services for their mental state. They are too afraid to stand out, face it, we have always hated standing out. Kids these days are bullied for being different, so why put ourselves in a position that makes us different.

If you are ever experiencing any symptoms of a mental disorder, please don’t be afraid to seek help. I promise you that ever climb is a little rocky, but the view is worth the struggle.

[thoughtsfromthemind54]

We live in a world where most of us hate ourselves. We are told if we don’t love ourselves then we won’t be able to love anyone. I think they are wrong. People think that because we don’t know what it’s like to love ones self we don’t know how to love other people. In reality, we don’t love us so we love others way to hard. That’s where we fail.

We think that since we can’t find anything good about ourselves that no one else will see any good. In fact, it’s because of those people we can slowly see the light. They just had to prey a little more to open your eyes. Our whole lives we spend it trying to fill it with people who love us, because we are afraid to be alone. That’s where we fail.

In our lives we meet people, love them, get hurt, and hate ourselves, but we can not change how others feel! We can only change how we react to those feelings. When we decide to make a huge decision in our so called “emotional mind” we act out. Our emotions cloud out our judgements and we do things we later regret. That is where we go wrong.

Just because someone can’t love themselves due to their mental disorder , does not mean that they don’t love someone else. I loved someone so much, that I didn’t love them right. How is that possible you ask? Well let me just inform you!

I cared and loved for them so much, but since I didn’t love myself, I lost sight of what they saw. I began to assume they were using me, that they didn’t really love me, and that they were cheating. I was so scared of losing them, because I loved them too much, I started to push away. I was so fucked up in my head, that I couldn’t be happy with what was in front of me. I knew that they were such a great person, I knew he didn’t deserve my insecurities, and I definitely knew that I was always acting in my “emotional mind” that I was hurting him. Pushing away what I thought I wanted. Till the day I threw it all away.

Well in my mind, it’s all or nothing. My mood shifts from how I feel about myself and others all the time. I always try to avoid amendment (even when it’s all in my head) so I over react to the situation. I cut off from reality. I was diagnosed with borderline personality disorder, but that does not mean I didn’t love him. I knew I had to make myself happy before I could make him happy. So I left. I was cold, I was rude and I made a big mistake, but your mental health is important. I still love him to this very day, and I know I’ll never have that chance with him again, but I have been getting help so things won’t go like that again.

If you ever feel like you are suffering from a mental disorder, please seek help. Your mental health is important.

[thoughtsfromthemind54]

Rant.

So i see posts and statuses about dissing ex’s. I understand your ex might be trash. They might have treated you really badly, and/or didn’t love you in the correct way to your standards. I don’t hate my ex’s. In fact I respect them. I may get angry at times and be like “oh they are dicks.” Then I remember I dated them. I picked those people out of all “the other fish in the sea” because I saw something in them that I couldn’t compare to anyone else. That in its self is special. Out of the billons of people you saw you picked this one. You formed a life with that person at one time or another. That’s hard to forget, and honestly I would never choose to forget them. If a relationship of any kind is formed and destroyed we should not forget that at that time it’s what we wanted. In fact it’s what we needed at that point in our lives to help us move onward. Try to remember if you encounter a break up of any sort that even tho they might have stopped loving you, it doesn’t mean someone else might. Remember that we are all human. Even if it is fucked up, we are allowed to make mistakes, and we are allowed to learn from them. I for one am both “the dick ex” and “the broken ex.” I always admit that I did fucked up shit to my ex 2 years ago, and I will always have that regret in my heart, but I am learning from that. It’s been a year since I was heart broken. I called him many names in the book because I was hurt. Technically I still am, but I have come to accept that he was not happy. He had to do what he had to in order to find his own happiness. I will always carry love and respect for the people I have loved in my past, even though they may not have any for me. Simply all because it’s sad to hate someone you once had heart stopping feelings for. Life is too short to let hate in your heart. So love extra! Spread peace ☮️ ✌️ and never forget to give positive vibes 🏵❤️

[thoughtsfromthemind54]

Rant.

So i see posts and statuses about dissing ex’s. I understand your ex might be trash. They might have treated you really badly, and/or didn’t love you in the correct way to your standards. I don’t hate my ex’s. In fact I respect them. I may get angry at times and be like “oh they are dicks.” Then I remember I dated them. I picked those people out of all “the other fish in the sea” because I saw something in them that I couldn’t compare to anyone else. That in its self is special. Out of the billons of people you saw you picked this one. You formed a life with that person at one time or another. That’s hard to forget, and honestly I would never choose to forget them. If a relationship of any kind is formed and destroyed we should not forget that at that time it’s what we wanted. In fact it’s what we needed at that point in our lives to help us move onward. Try to remember if you encounter a break up of any sort that even tho they might have stopped loving you, it doesn’t mean someone else might. Remember that we are all human. Even if it is fucked up, we are allowed to make mistakes, and we are allowed to learn from them. I for one am both “the dick ex” and “the broken ex.” I always admit that I did fucked up shit to my ex 2 years ago, and I will always have that regret in my heart, but I am learning from that. It’s been a year since I was heart broken. I called him many names in the book because I was hurt. Technically I still am, but I have come to accept that he was not happy. He had to do what he had to in order to find his own happiness. I will always carry love and respect for the people I have loved in my past, even though they may not have any for me. Simply all because it’s sad to hate someone you once had heart stopping feelings for. Life is too short to let hate in your heart. So love extra! Spread peace ☮️ ✌️ and never forget to give positive vibes 🏵❤️

[thoughtsfromthemind54]

We live in a world where most of us hate ourselves. We are told if we don’t love ourselves then we won’t be able to love anyone. I think they are wrong. People think that because we don’t know what it’s like to love ones self we don’t know how to love other people. In reality, we don’t love us so we love others way to hard. That’s where we fail.

We think that since we can’t find anything good about ourselves that no one else will see any good. In fact, it’s because of those people we can slowly see the light. They just had to prey a little more to open your eyes. Our whole lives we spend it trying to fill it with people who love us, because we are afraid to be alone. That’s where we fail.

In our lives we meet people, love them, get hurt, and hate ourselves, but we can not change how others feel! We can only change how we react to those feelings. When we decide to make a huge decision in our so called “emotional mind” we act out. Our emotions cloud out our judgements and we do things we later regret. That is where we go wrong.

Just because someone can’t love themselves due to their mental disorder , does not mean that they don’t love someone else. I loved someone so much, that I didn’t love them right. How is that possible you ask? Well let me just inform you!

I cared and loved for them so much, but since I didn’t love myself, I lost sight of what they saw. I began to assume they were using me, that they didn’t really love me, and that they were cheating. I was so scared of losing them, because I loved them too much, I started to push away. I was so fucked up in my head, that I couldn’t be happy with what was in front of me. I knew that they were such a great person, I knew he didn’t deserve my insecurities, and I definitely knew that I was always acting in my “emotional mind” that I was hurting him. Pushing away what I thought I wanted. Till the day I threw it all away.

Well in my mind, it’s all or nothing. My mood shifts from how I feel about myself and others all the time. I always try to avoid amendment (even when it’s all in my head) so I over react to the situation. I cut off from reality. I was diagnosed with borderline personality disorder, but that does not mean I didn't love him. I knew I had to make myself happy before I could make him happy. So I left. I was cold, I was rude and I made a big mistake, but your mental health is important. I still love him to this very day, and I know I’ll never have that chance with him again, but I have been getting help so things won’t go like that again.

If you ever feel like you are suffering from a mental disorder, please seek help. Your mental health is important.

[thoughtsfromthemind54]

Random rants.

we live in a world where people suffer from mental illnesses. Just like any other illness in the world it’s as real as you and me. A mental illness is a medical condition where the mind is disrupted by very unkind words that eat at our own soul.

The way something can change your way of thinking, eating, mood, and your well being, should be considered a serious issue. A lot of people Categorize people with a mental disorder as “crazy” or “psycho,” which doesn’t do anyone any good. Some people even tell us “it’s all in your head, you don’t really suffer from anxiety.” It’s like telling someone who broke their arm to just “rub some dirt on it.” I know what you are thinking, what is this girl talking about? Who would say those things? But believe me as one person I have had a lot of people tell me that my mental illness is all in my head.

Did you know that in 2016, roughly 44 million percent of people between 18 or even older were diagnosed with a mental illness, that’s not counting the 49 million percent of young teens that were diagnosed with a mental disorder. Now, read that again. We live in a world where these these things are real! People really do hear voices that tell them what to do, or how to think, and that’s their reality, so why not talk about it? 1 out of 5 adults are living with mental illness.

“Why don’t they get help?” You ask? Well many people are afraid to seek help for the fact that there is a big stigma on mental disorders in fact about 60 percent of adults don’t receive any services for their mental state. They are too afraid to stand out, face it, we have always hated standing out. Kids these days are bullied for being different, so why put ourselves in a position that makes us different.

If you are ever experiencing any symptoms of a mental disorder, please don’t be afraid to seek help. I promise you that ever climb is a little rocky, but the view is worth the struggle.