Pairings: kai anderson x female reader
Summary: finally over the way kai treats you, you breakup. He won't let you leave that easily.
Warnings: toxic relationship, choking, slapping, manipulation, praise, pulling, fingering, fighting, swearing, dub-con.
Authors note: my friend likes kai and requested this to be written, this is rather risky for some, also did you catch the link ;).
DO NOT READ IF THE WARNINGS MAKE YOU UNCOMFORTABLE!
You never knew how you and kai had lasted this long together.
Hell, you didn't know how you lasted so long in this shitty cult before realising how stupid it was. Dedicating all your time and feelings to your 'divine ruler', it was fucking Bullshit.
When you first joined, kai treated you with so much tenderness, you had heard all of the other cult members cower together and share their experiences with their 'ruler', how he was ruthless, petrifying, one blow of wind away from insanity.
How they hadn't seen so and so after he backed out on one of the secret tasks he was put onto by kai, no one told you what these tasks were when you first joined, they joked about how it would scare you off right away if you knew.
You couldn't believe how some of his followers talked about him, were they truly loyal to their divine ruler?
You were surrounded by strangers who seemed to be closer to themselves than you, you felt alone and were left clueless relying on your saviour to tell you everything you needed to know.
This made you want to prove yourself to your him more than anyone had, you done everything for him, confided in him, believed his words, researched anything he wanted you too. Eventually when you settled into the cult, the other members began to trust you more.
You were finally a permanent member of the cult when you finally dedicated your life to your ruler.
It was your first task, you had murdered a security guard to save kai. That day you were truly thanked by your ruler which made you swoon for him even more, your future held more murders you committed, all for kai's love.
You remeber the day your ruler became your boyfriend, although he never liked the title, you had just came home from a solo task, doused in blood.
The feeling of the liquid on your skin made you grimace, discomfort taking over your face you headed upstairs to the bathroom where you would relax and ready yourself for seeing your ruler.
You jad just made it up the set of stairs when the bathroom door opened.
A blond woman covered in smeared lipstick, dressed in a disheveled dress left the bathroom giggling under her breath. You watched as she had a slight limp to her step.
Turning around you walked closer to the bathroom only to see kai through the mirror tucking himself back into his pants and doing up the zipper. Looking up in to the mirror he locks eyes with you, you stood at the entrance to the bathroom, your eyes wide and lips slightly parted.
Aki walked over to you, his hand took hold of your chin and used his thumb to caress your lips. Pushing your face up to meet his he looks down on you.
He smiled down at you before letting go of your face and pushing past you out of the bathroom and down the stairs, leaving you with questions swirling around in your head.
You never really knew if that was his way of asking you into a relationship with him but your though of it like that.
There were Moments that made you believe it even more like the time you had bought pizza and the delivery man was a man, he seemed to had taken an interest and was trying to get your number written, kai noticed you were still standing at the door and went to see what the hold up was himself.
Seeing the pizza man leaning against the doorframe, a cocky smile on his face as you smiled back at him, kai brushed you out of the way with his shoulder and pushed the delivery guy away from the door before slamming it in his face.
He then took the pizza rather angrily from your hands and stormed off to eat it himself.
You started steering away from flirtatious men as though seemed to be in a relationship with kai.
You don't know when your eyes began to open to this shit show, all you knew is that one day when kai asked you out to a task, you hesitated.
Although not a large indicator of your trust in kai crumbling but to you this was a huge moments. For the past year you would answer to kai's every beck and call not a single doubt in mind, and here you were second guessing him.
It took a few more months after that for you to fully see what you were doing was a waste of time, you had cried yourself to sleep one night realising you had taken multiple supposed innocent lives, all so you could feel what you thought was love.
Ever since you peeled back the layer of foolishness you carried, you stayed out of the limelight of the cult, blaming your inability to come on tasks on your cycle or an injury you used make-up to enhance and exaggerate.
You had also steered clear of kai, no loving kisses were given to him when he returned from whatever he went out to do, no words of praise left your lips when he was talking.
Ofcourse he got suspicious of your sudden behaviour and sat you down to partake in a pinky power, your excuse for all the changes you had made to yourself was that you had been told of your mother passing.
Weary at first, kai eventually began to spout out things such as,
"This is pain everyone must feel in life"
"You've got to realise this grief you feel shouldn't change you"
"I will help you, trust me"
You had put on a class A performance as tears were dripping down your face, you forced yourself to Ugly cry and it worked.
You were dressed and ready to go, grabbing a purse with all of your belongings and some stolen money you found around the house stuffed into it you set out for the door, rushing down the stairs you jumped down the final four steps.
You made a run for it, grabbing the door handle you yanked the door wide open ready to spring out of the house.
The disgustingly familiar smell of blood filled your nose making you look up, four clowns stood at the door all looking at you for a moment before shuffling into the house.
Standing to the side you let the clowns pile in, relief filled your body and a small smile appeared on your lips as you saw the last clown make their way into the room, your smile dropping as the clown turned it's head down to look at you, the red plastic dick stuck to the front inches away from your face.
Large hands lifted the clown mask off of his head revealing a stone faced kai anderson staring down at you.
You shook your head and shut the door behind kai as his walked forward, he kept his eyes on you suspiciously as you kept your head down.
He eyed your purse then your whole body before dumping his mask onto the floor of the livingroom. You side eyed your soon-to-be ex boyfriend as he dragged his feet across the floor into the kitchen, he opened one the cupboards and pulled out a bag of chips ripping open the bag and began eating.
You slowly walked closer to the kitchen, your nerves getting the best of you as you began to bite and chew at the skin of your lips. Nowadays kai always made you scared, he made you sweat under his harsh stare and anxiously fidget when he got too close.
Your heart rate accelerated as you built up the courage to speak out aloud.
Kai sighed and dumped his bag of chips onto the kitchen counter and held onto the edge of the counter, his hair fell infront of his face as he lowered his head, not saying a word.
"I want to leave, leave you this cult, everything"
You could feel the urge to tear up pinch at your eyes but biting your tongue You didn't cry.
Kai straightened up his spine standing to his full height, his head lifted but his eyes were shut. You went to talk but was interrupted by kai.
You took a deep breath and opened your mouth again.
You jumped when kai had began shouting, his right hand balled up into a fist and using the outerside of his hand began punching the bag of chips he was once eating.
"THIS IS WHY YOU FUCKING PSYCHOPATH"
You screamed over kai, shocking him at first as he stopped punching the counter and glared at you from over his shoulder.
"You've killed people, you've made me kill people"
The tears that threatened to well up came toppling through your gates, your eyes glossing over as you shouted at kai.
"And this shit show of a circus you're running, these people are delusional to follow you, YOUR'E DELUSIONAL"
You were waving your hands around emphasising your words, tears had began to slowly fall down your cheeks. The pounding of your heart was hammering against your chest, you could hear the thumping in your ears as your temperature rose.
Taking a deep breath you sucked in your bottom lip calming yourself down, how ridiculous were you right now, you were the one ending things with kai yet here you were screaming at the top of your lungs and crying.
Kai turned to face you with his whole body, he began walking over to you slowly with his hands out trying to show he wouldn't harm you, not having any of kai's lies you grasp your purse tighter and spin around speedwalking to the door you knew was still unlocked.
Your hand wrapped around the door handle before the feeling of kai's larger hand grabbed onto your wrist, his grip was uncomfortably tight with every passing second he held onto you the pain in your joint grew.
Ripping your hand from the door kai held your hand above your head the other around your neck, he didn't care that your free hand was pushing his body away he knew you would tire yourself out.
"Kai-get the fuck away from me"
Your while body fought against kai's strength but you were stuck against the door.
"You can't just leave like this y/n"
Kai's face inched closer to yours even though you were thrashing your head around hoping to headbutt him in the nose, unfortunately kai nesteld his head into your neck unwounded and breathed in the scent of your hair.
"Get off of me you freak"
Hearing you call him that made something in him break, pulling his head away from you kai's hand shot through your hair, gripping at the roots he began to walk over to the sofa dragging you behind him
Tears were pouring out of your eyes at this point, the fear you felt caused by kai and the pain on your scalp also caused by kai fueled your tears.
"I swear to fuck kai I will call the cops"
You began screaming at the top of your lungs, hoping someone, anyone, would burst through the front door and pull you from kai.
"Shut the fuck up, stupid bitch"
The harsh sting of kai's hand tingled on your cheek, he had just slapped you, funnily enough this had not been the first time he layed his hands on you.
Why hadn't you ran from him earlier.
Kai tried to slap you again but this time was stopped by your arm blocking his, you began using both hands to hit kai back switching between slapping, thumping, punching and scratching you done everything to make him hurt.
"You really think anyone else could ever love this"
Kai spoke grabbing ahold of both of your wrists, he pulled them down to your hips and held them there as he stared into your eyes.
You fought for a few minutes, wriggling your hands trying to get them out of kai's hold but you failed and decided to look at kai.
All of the anger was removed from kai's face, as you stared up at him you seen sadness.
"You're a train wreck, no one can help you through this like me"
Kai's grip on your wrists began to loosen as he spoke, his eyes became softer and his face moved in closer to yours.
He placed a soft kiss on your cheek before pulling away to look you in your eyes, he then moved closer once again to kiss you on your lips.
Your crying had slowly stopped, now you were just sniffling your nose. You pulled your head away from kai's, not saying a word just staring at his lips.
"Don't be scared, I couldn't hurt you"
Kai pressed his lips against yours in a gentle manner, at first, then his aggression began to pick up. Still weary if your boyfriend(?) You don't reciprocate the kiss. Feeling your lips' reluctancy to move kai smack you ass making you jump.
Kai spoke between kisses, pecking your lips before shoving his tongue into your mouth.
He pulled away, sucking in a breath as he did so. You Seen his eyes were closed out of frustration and the scared feeling inside you began to burn brighter. Kai's hand wrapping around your throat gripping harder and harder fueled your fear.
Kai breathed out still with his eyes closed, you were silenced by his harsh tone and tight grip.
Kai had opened his eyes and flashed a smile you would describe as cute, he turned you around and began pushing on your back. You were bent over the back of the sofa, the sofa you had spent hours on begging for kai's attention. Kai pulled down your sweatpants leaving you in your underwear and sweater.
"You're so special to me y/n, you know that right"
You tried to shut his voice out, you didn't want to hear his lies and you didn't want to make the mistake of believing them again.
"You just want to hurt me y/n"
It sounded as though kai was crying but you knew it was all an act, a performance to make you pity him and stay with him by his side.
Kai's fingers began to graze at your underwear.
The feeling of kai's fingers beginning to rub your clit through your panties made you fumble your words, you didn't want this but you wanted kai no matter how much you hated him.
"See, you dont really want to leave me, your body wants me"
Kai continued to rub you over your underwear, you could feel yourself begin to get wet and the fabric of your panties too. You shut your eyes to stop your eyes from rolling back in your head.
Your breath caught in your throat as you felt one of kai's cold fingers push into your entrance, he had unknowingly pushed your underwear to the side and slipped his index finger between your folds.
He cooed out loud at the feeling of you around his finger.
Adding another kai curled both fingers when inside of you, the feeling inside you made your fingers grip onto the sofa harshly and moan out loud.
"You feel so fucking good"
Both of kai's hands were now down your pants, one hand glued to your clit and the other busy pumping in and out of you.
A series of moans left your lips as a you could feel your orgasm building in your lower abdomen, you hated how easily kai could play you.
You reached your hands down and weakly gripped onto kai's wrists, you tried to pull his hands away from you but the feeling inside of you made you let go and desperately grab onto the sofa cushions.
"You liked that, didn't you"
Kai's hot breath against your neck Brought you back, you went to speak but a groan forced its way out from your throat as you felt kai's teeth sink into the flesh of your earlobe.
Your hips had began grinding back onto kai and his fingers. You didn't care about letting him win or how loud you were you just needed to reach your peak.
Your hand lifted to behind your head and grabbed onto the back of kai's head, you pulled at his locks but he didn't seem to mind as he watched you become focused on finishing.
Kai's fingers fastened, sliding in and out of you like his life depended on it. The contant rubbing and pressing down on your clit was pushing you under the wave of ecstacy and you weren't resisting.
Thrusting your head back onto kai's shoulder your mouth hung open as no sound left your lips. Your eyes were scrunched so tightly closed your skin Began to hurt.
Kai never stopped pleasing you as he watched you ride out your orgasn, your hips still moving back and forth on his fingers. Smiling kai licked a strip up your neck and breathed in the scent of your hair.
You collapsed onto the sofa face first, not trusting your legs to hold your tired body without collapsing kai held your hips against his.
Your head lifted at the sound of a zipper being undone, turning behind you, you seen kai, erection in hand and rubbing at your ass.
"...w-what kai we're done.."
You push your hand against his abdomen trying to create space between your bodies but he digs his nails into the skin of your forearm and pulls your limp body to him, your back against his chest.
"We're done when I say we're done bitch"